Its okay to happy.. its okay to be sad..

 

I don't know if its just me.. but recently i have been been feeling so many mixed feelings that im starting to think that i am schizophrenic. I can't say i'm fully to blame for this situation. We live in a world where people tend to tell you how you are "supposed to feel" by giving you comments or "talteesh 7aki" whenever you express any sort of emotion.

i'm the type of person who says whats on her mind.. i have a habit of sharing too much sometimes.. but i express how i feel whether its happy or sad. I say whats on my mind and this post is just me speaking out my mind..

I still remember before my wedding day.. how one of my Aunts came to me and said 

" How could you even think of wearing a white dress when your dad is sick?"

For those who don't know. about 6 years ago right after my engagement my dad had a stroke and had  severe brain damage  that left him fully paralyzed and incapable of speaking or moving. It was the hardest and saddest moment of my life. Allah yishfee 

The pain i felt and still feel is something even words cant express.  6 months after his stroke drs sent him back home with nurses as his condition was stable.. and after i asked the Drs. they said this is pretty much as good as it gets with this much brain damage.

After i heard what the Dr said we felt delaying the wedding waiting for a miracle recovery that may likely never come was not reasonable, especially that we were already legally married. We had a small wedding. no music. just zaffe and dinner. 

And i'm pretty sure if he could speak he would have been the first to tell me to go on with the wedding.

Many of my family and friends who i knew could have been there for me in such a heartbreaking time never showed up because they could not bare to watch me get married without my father being there.. as if their sadness was deeper or more sincere than mine... 

My dads condition is the same as it was 6 years ago now. Allah yeshfee. 

Getting married is every girls dream, you wait all your life to wear a white dress, to marry the person you love. If you want to judge me for wanting to have a wedding and wear a white dress, then be it.

 People need to know that in the world there is happiness and sadness, & they don't cross out each other. You can be happy about something and sad about something else simultaneously & no one has the right to judge you about what you feel or when you feel it. 

 

 I love to laugh and make jokes even when im depressed. Its my distraction. I love to make people laugh especially those who i know have gone through something very heartbreaking, like losing someone close to them. Because laughter is good for you. You can check this link and im sure many others that tell you the benefits of laughter. Im not saying laugh all day but its okay to smile and laugh even if there is a heavy sadness weighing down your heart.

So yesterday i posted a status about loving the snow and being happy about it snowing in Amman. I mentioned how i can't wait to make a snowman. This is a natural feeling for someone who never gets to see snow who lives in an OVEN in Dubai. Many made me feel so guilty for expressing that happiness because there are many less fortunate people in the world who dont have the luxury of heaters or homes.  I felt ashamed for even expressing such happiness. HOW dare i want it to keep snowing when there are people freezing.

But now im going to say it and im not ashamed for loving it. I LOVE SNOW. i love making a snow man. I wish i can slide down a snow hill with on a flat tire! i wish it snowed more often in Dubai! That doesnt mean my heart doesnt break for those who are suffering because of the cold weather. Rain and Snow are an Act of GOD. Allah Subahanoh and i pray for those who are less fortunate and will help if i could but my sadness for them doesn't cross out my happiness or excitement to see snow.

That doesnt make me heartless. It makes me Human. 

People please stop judging each other. Please let each other be happy or sad. 

Seeebo il naas fe 7aalhaa ( leave people alone)

You never know whats in the heart of the person infront of you and believe it or not in most cases what seems obvious to you is far from the truth.

Just know that you can feel extreme happiness and extreme sadness at the same time without any one of them being insincere.

 

 

EID FUN!

Hello dear readers.. as i promised and as i do every year i will share some pics from our eid event of the year hopefully it will inspire people from all around the world to do something different in the coming EID. to make it special :) We always throw birthday parties for our kids.. why dont we make EID parties also a MUST.. something our kids look forward to and remember all year long :)

Hope you enjoyed the pics.. im still waiting on more pics from the party.. but i think these will do :)
There was lots of fun and lots of love. and the joy of being able to take part in such a lovely event that brought so many people and family together was overwhelming.

I was inspired to do something with my ideas and i'm happy to tell you that i have teamed up with my friend who is great in making cupcakes ( as you see from the pics) and i will assist ofcourse and with my custom designs and party themes you can now order your themed cupcake toppers along with your yummy cupcakes. i also helped in making the sheeps and have a lot of recipes of my own  :)

Please check out more pics on our page on FB..  like it if you like it :) its called it Little Munch 
 

Wish you all had wonderful eid and eid break.. will be sharing more ideas and thoughts and blogs soon..

 kol 3am wa into bkhier... &wish us luck

 

EID IDEAS :)

Hello my lovely readers! Eid Mubarak wa kol saneh wa into salmeen! Every year we have to think of new ways to make EID FUN for our kids and for us as well. So let me share some ideas of how things to do.

This party we are throwing a EID party like every year with lots of fun for kids. Facepainting, baloon twister, entertainment, coloring on huge EID letters made out of foam and photobooth. I cant share pics yet because party is still in a few days.

But what i can share is ideas to decorate your homemade or bought cupcakes for EID. you can always make your own sheep marshmallow cupcakes :)

 

Sometimes it doesnt have to be fancy.. you can cut our little sheep from paper. Sheep are so easy to make. the one i made in the pic is made out of Cotton Buds and glue :) 

EID MUBARAK! 

wa Sam7oona

Bla Bla Bla Blue

Im just blabbing along.. too awake to go to sleep because of my constant thoughts and worries. Too lazy to get up and do something useful.. So i thought id blog a little since i haven't done that in a while..

The world is such a scary place.. i admit i'm not really the type of person that watches the news.. or know much about politics.. History was not my favorite topic.. neither was Math.. or Economics. ermmm my favorite class was the class the teacher is absent and we get a substitute teacher and we just sit and get all giggly in the back of the class talking about silly things that at that age seemed sooooo sooo SERIOUS! Like OMG did you notice she shaved her legs! MY MOM WOULD KILL ME!!!! * GASP * girl raises skirt a little to expose her leg that looks a little a GHORILLA!

 * Terrified SCREAMS in my head... ok i love to exaggerate... but seriously what do you expect .. 15 &ARAB.. and im pretty sure the chicken we eat has some major hormones injected in them... and everything we eat has been processed with something nasty.

ANY HOOOO... i tend to forget my main topic... somehow i ended up talking about Gorilla legs..

AT that age the biggest problems were money to buy the man2ooshe and chips in break time.. passing the MATH exam! Growing up so you can make your own decisions... not turn into a GORILLA!

Suddenly im 31... with two kids who I AM supposed to be making decisions for my children. Its so scary when i wasn't even sure i was making the right decisions for myself most of the time. I realize they catch on very quickly and without realizing i have created mini- ME's.. I feel it also has a lot to do with genetics but still.. DO i want my children to turn into ME? Do i want them to have my FEARS? My Worries? Of course not.. i want them to be better.. i dont want her to grow up with the insecurities i had..  and that is why im trying to be better... but still no matter what i do the world is a scary place... i dont want to do any huge mistakes where one day ill wake up and think to myself WHERE DID I GO WRONG??

There is so much Politics, and HATE everywhere you turn... Innocent lives go unnoticed.. Greed... I feel no one even know thier own religion... People Committing crimes in the name of their religion or faith when they have learnt it all wrong.. Being Modest is not considered weird or oppressed.. Wearing slutty clothes that leave no room for imagination has become the NORM..

Forgive me if i dont know much about the exact political situations around the world... but i know enough to know that the world we live in is messed up. We are all desynthesized by all the death we see on tv. Seeing a group of dead kids lying on the floor has become something we are used to.

I dont need to know politics to know that the world is full of greed and selfishness . Family killing each other and on the never ending quest for an extra dollar or dirham. Violent Protests all around the Arab world over thier lifetime presidents that have seemed to gathered so much wealth throughout the years when their country is left with so much poverty.

We as humans have lost our humanity. Hate and Greed has consumed us. We all seek our own well being not knowing that when we don't unite and fight against each other we will never be WELL.
We have lost our compassion for each other, with an inability to compromise.  I believe its in our nature to be SELF-DESTRUCTIVE. We think of all the reasons to HATE one another when there are FAR many better reasons to LOVE each other. Isnt it enough that we are the same SPECIES ???

When will we rise above our nature, when will we listen to the voice inside us that tells us to do what is RIGHT, what is best for HUMANITY..

The way things are going i predict that with all the chemical bombs and in the wrong hands, this selfishness and greed will bring down the world and our human species will be exitinct.

And one day in the future a group of monkeys or new species will rule the world and hopefully they will do a better job than we did.


Everywhere i look there is NAKAD .. whats NAKAD in english.. you might thing it means NAKED but no it means Gloominess.. and well everywhere you look there is also NAKED people.. i dont know what it is.. but it seems that is fashionable now to walk around either with shorts with pockets longer than the short itself or with only a shirt and forgetting to wear pants.

So long story short... 

Dear All.. Make Love Not War

There are things more important getting your hair done BelSeshWar

If someone says something that makes you SHRUG

Instead of beating them up give them a HUG

IF someone doesnt agree with you

The right way is not by throwing a SHOE,

but maturely discuss the Issue,

Then make up and cry and make sure there is a box of Tissue

Its not about being RIGHT

its not about winning the FIGHT

IT's Not about WHO is STRONGER

We just ALL wish to live LONGER!

translation ( Bel Seshwar : BLowdryer)

P.S.
 Do not.. i REPEAT.. DO NOT.. Google " hairy woman" Its.. nasty and disturbing on so many levels
*pukes shalaaallll

P.S.

Imagination is a lovely thing.. ladies in the world who choose to not leave any room for imagination for anyone with the clothes or lack of clothes they wear.. i suggest you add a little mystery into your life.. or a bantalown.. wa SHukrann..

( "war" typography artwork by Levi Dubbelman from deviant art)

RAMADAN KAREEM wala RAMA-DISC 2aLEEM

Let me start by wishing you all a blessed holy month of Ramadan full of blessings, family & friends reunions, lots of giving and spirituality. Kol Saneh wa Into Salmeen! 

It is a blessing itself to witness this month again. Unfortunately throughout the years everyday Ramdan feels different because we are different every year. Different could be better or worse or just plain different. 

When we are so far away and caught up in life and 3azayem and musalsalat and whatever.. we suddenly feel that we are no longer in that place where listening to the sheikhs prayers made your eyes tear. Your heart is heavy.. with thunoob.. with life.. with humoom and suddenly you find yourself lazy to get up for taraweeh.. your prayers are done in a hurry.. you dont even remember what ayat you prayed with... and we dont realize that slowly we are going further and further away from God. Losing our Faith.. our IMAN.. and that is the biggest Museeba.. What worse is that we dont even realize it and tell ourselves we are okay.. Telling ourselves we are okay and being satisified with the way we are is what the Shaytan wants and in the end its our loss...

Allah yihdeeni.... wa yihdeena jamee3an.. we need to work hard to clean our hearts in this holy month.. We dont realize how weak we really are till we get sick. We dont realize how Life can be lost in a blink  of an eye till we lose somoeone close. If there is anytime for Al Tawba it is now.. Allah ysa3dna 3ala taa3toh...

So.. guess meen sarlo DISC!???? *raises HAND!.. there was a time when i heard the word DISC im LIKE HOW?? DISC? isnt that just for OLD PPL?! ya3ni maraaarti ( my gallbladder) ma sarlhash kteer  Faaag3a! i just had that removed a few months back! And now DISC?!

Al Hamdulilah 3la kol 7all. Al Hamdullila dayman 

so i just recently joined the gym.. was so excited about it! *dino works out excessively zay il majaneen

one week later.. i bend down to carry lina.. and AYYYYYY

Thahreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Dr in emergency insisted its a " MUscular SPASMS" with an indian head shake that meant " ur being silly noting is wrong with you..

A week later i got an MRI and well i have a disc in my BACK.. and surprisingly its VERY COMMON! kol ma a7ki la 7ad they either say ME TOO or know 30 other ppl that have it! 

Discs were not common ZAMAN! Our parents generation only Old ppl got DISCS. Its our lifestyle. we dont move. we eat zabayel. and well oh i also have very LOW VIT D 

normal levels are 20-60 or 30-60.. my level is 6.. Ironic since we live in an OVEN.. 

If you are living in DUBAI.. ur probably always hiding from the SUN like me.. GET UR VIT D levels Checked...

So Anyhow.. That is my nashra Akhbareya.. i really hope no one gets DISCS. unless if they are movies or music cds :P 

Sheeshany makes fun of dina walking like a hajjeh* dino bends to pick up  shib shib AYYY

* he runs

kolo kam yom * nazret ta7aluf with chicken tikka hand move.. 

chicken tikka.. * dreams.. Yumm *drools on keyboard

YA bayee shu ba7ki.. bas ballah ma Damee Khafeeef?! 

zay wazni bel zabt.. TAn ra ra ran TAN TAN Tshhh

So This Ramadan i wanted to do something different that lulu is older. Although she doesnt get the concept of fasting.. or Ramadan.. and she thinks Ramadan is a place we go to.. and she calls it 

MARADAN.. everyday after futoor she packs her bag and says " YALA nroo7 3ala MARADAN 3an TATA" cause we told her in Ramadan we are going to visit her Grandma & Grandpa

Still.. i wanted her to feel there is something special about this month.. to wait for it.. to love it.. growing up i feel we didnt really get attached to Ramadan or EID. We know something was going on but we didnt really think it was fun..

So here are some ideas to do in the house especially if you have kids :

Decorate with lights or even make your own paper lanterns and decorations.

I did these choco laterns myself :) from screatch!

filled with choco dates! :)

Fill little bags of chocolates and give them out to your neighbors with your kids

Make a Chart the counts the Ramadan Days and the days left for EID So your Kids know EID is something Special and add anticipation to EID..

just Decorate with any material you have around :)

That is just a few.. im sure you can think of many more! :) Lets all share the Ramadan Spirit and Spread the LOVE! :) 

RAMADAN MUBARAK 3alikom INSHALA WA Sam7oona..