I'm Blogging Again Lululee

Staring at a blank post.. thinking of what i will write about.. all i know is i want to blog again because blogging was part of who i was.. the me that i miss the me that i barely have come to recognize throughout the years.

I sit here trying to understand the inner workings and the experiences i have been through that have made me who i was and who i am now. i long for answers and explanations that i might never ever know. i want to be able to just with once click go back to the days where i blogged about my bagoora and to be able to able to write again from my heart without thinking to be able to make people laugh through my daily posts again.. so here i am trying to find that happy crazy blogging person inside me that seemed to be hiding under a pile of laundry and diapers and years of motherhood stress.

LAGETEKKKKK... so here i go.....

Let me share with you  some of my updates and some surprising changes in my life

 • I was finally able to overcome my weight issue by losing 15 KG *  and even though i was never really FAT to the point of tada7ruj on jabala duwera type cause im tall i was always chubby or at that stage where people say things like " weshek 7ilo" or " you are not fat you are MUJASSAmeh! or Malyaneh" what the hell does that mean? Mujasame? feels like im the terminator or a transformer.

I still love chocolata and will never EVA EVA give it Up... speaking of EVA tel3et EVA mitzawje RAYyyan Goosling il fe film LALALAND! that movie... akh bass. *heartmelts like chocolate fondant.. watched it 3 times in the cinema.. LOVE LOVE LOVE IT!  *sings city of stars and trys to do tap dance move falls 3ala boozha

• I have new found love and respect for Hindi films. The drama, The Action.. the dance moves * dino does twisting light bulb move and kicks her feet and accidentally kicks down a side lamp in home center.. oh yes also i should not be dancing in public.

• my cooking skills have become more advanced i have moved from the stage of calling my best friend to come over before my husband arrives with a plate of kabse rice to making warra2 3inab and some really sophisticated tabkhaat that include making the 3ajeene from scratch.. and when someone tell me RAshet baharat.. i understand what they MEAN! before i used to say.. EISh ya3ni RASHET bhaar! Give me EXACT quantity.. * dina betrush bharat in the air with a smirky confident smile.

You can call me.. Chef DonDon.. * adjusts cooking hat

• I met a celebrity... yes.. i did.. and i think my huzband is very understanding for letting me express my LOVE! hahah He is also known as Baglawa fil 3alam il 3arabi.. i shall post a pic.. of me and before judging me.. i believe there is a stalker found in each an everyone of us.. mine seemed to be very evident in my stalker eyes on ET star news... i did not scream out loud like those other ladies.. i screamed on the inside .. i love burak and burak al jibne also

 also im hooked on a turkish series.. i used to make fun of people who watch turkish series.. but be careful what you make fun of.. cause that will be your future...

That a quick update for now.. i have to say i am so flattered and surprised when people i didn't know read my blog silenty for years! Thank you for reading my habalations.. :)

Eid Carnival 2015

Hello again! i know its been a while.. truth is i blog in my head more than i blog here and i promise to try to change that as my head is already full of ideas, things i have to do, random habal thoughts and worries and i need to let it out here!!

So as i always do this year i planned a EID party! It was one of the best parties i have planned and i am very happy that it brought joy to many kids.  Every year i plan on making a bigger and better party so that more and more people can bring the joy of EID back.

I will attach some pics from the party & i would appreciate it if you liked my page on fb and told me what you think of my party planning :)

Little Munch or followed me on instagram on @littlemunchdubai

This years party was held in KidsHQ :) if you haven't taken your kids there you're missing out :)

cake and cupkcakes and cake pops were sponsored by the yummiest  SaleSucre  :)

I hope this inspires you to celebrate EID

Give Us Our Rainbows Back

There is a famous saying in Arabic " السكوت علامة الرضا" which means silence implies consent. 

As a muslim.. it is my duty to speak up. Even though i don't think it will change reality but at least i know i did the least a muslim can do.

i was watching my 6 year old color the other day and she drew a rainbow. I have always loved rainbows & colors and how to me they always stood for innocence and happiness. Suddenly now Rainbows stand for something totally different and we can't look at them the same again. And even if you choose to ignore the whole " Gay Pride Flag" you know there will be someone that will wonder if your kid's "rainbow theme" party is appropriate. If your rainbow bracelet stands for something else. I saw a very nice rainbow colored notebook which i would have actually bought without thinking before this whole Rainbow hijacking.  

I check my Facebook to only see most my FB friends have changed their profile pics to the rainbow flag. Most of them arab (even muslim). Suddenly you find yourself afraid to speak your mind cause you will be called a "homophobe" or attacked for being anti-gay. 

Tv shows, news columns, magazines, movies all seem to increasingly include openly gay characters or celebrities in order to manipulate people into supporting their marriage equality. Most shows now have a reoccurring scenario where one of the lead actors which start the show out as STRAIGHT discovers they are now GAY.  It's a rule now that every show has to include a Gay couple or a straight person that turns gay overnight. They first make you like that character and relate to them and then they turn they gay so you are left with mixed feelings about how you feel about homosexuality. You start to question if it could possibly be okay in some situations, you find yourself routing for a lesbian couple to get back together in a tv show after their break up!! I admit even my reaction to seeing gay couples has changed after the constant exposure everywhere & i no longer GASP with shock when i come across a gay couple making out. ( although inside i cringe and no matter how many times i am exposed to gays/ lesbians it always feels wrong) 

I have to admit i see celebrities like Ellen Degenerous who is hilarious with a great personality and helps many people and I'm sure there are a lot of gay people in the world that are kind and generous and sweet and their sexual orientation doesn't make them evil at the same time i am against homosexuality & believe it is wrong & forbidden in Islam & by may Catholics as well. We have reached a new age where is no longer " LET THEM BE", its more like " HEY YOU COULD GAY!" with the constant media propaganda brainwashing its viewers into not only accepting Gays but also imposing their lifestyle on a whole society. Suddenly those who are against the "GAY-Marraiges" are the outsiders.

I am against homosexuality & Gay Marriages not only because it is forbidden in Islam and in the Quran but also because it is unnatural. God created Adam and Eve, not Adam and Steve. 

Away from the religious point of you what about psychologically speaking? Same-sex “marriage” ignores a child’s best interests when they are deprived of either having a natural mother or father or the a role model of a father or mother. Marriage is sacred purpose of marriage is the perpetuation of the human race and the raising of children.

I can't say i hate gay people i might even like some gay celebrities. i will treat not them with less humanity  or kindness as i would treat anyone else. I just don't agree with their choices and life and i believe it is a sin and i will pray for them.

I pray for those who fall into homosexual sin out of human weakness, that God may guide them to the right path. I fear for the our children and generations to come from this mainstream media brainwash especially seeing how glorified and normalized it is nowadays.. check out what you can find in the the Middle East now

My other fear is them deciding chocolate is their new Gay PRIDE food. Suddenly Chocolate would stand for something ELSE *eyes tearing at thought. 

You took our rainbows please don't take away our chocolate.. please.. 

oh and please give us our rainbows back.

20 ways to know you are an OFFICIAL KHALTO!

i'm sitting here wide awake at 3 am. thinking so many thoughts, worrying about things before they happen. Regretting, forgetting and analyzing my life. I think of how old my kids are now and it passed by so quickly. And well Laila is just 6 and graduating for KG2  and i know in a blink of an eye ill be sitting there in her high school and college graduation ( inshala).

Suddenly im that annoying Auntee that keeps telling her friends kids " ya habibi i know you since you were this big * makes a baby hand gesture that from the look of that teenage boys face is not a compliment at all. It suddenly hit me.. IM A KHALTO NOW! OFFICIAL!

Incase if you were wondering if you were one already here is a LIST i made for you!

You know you are getting OLD & are an Official Auntee KHALTO

1.  When you visit your friends whom you havent seen in a long time you OVERREACT when their kids come in the room. See in your head he is still a TODDLER.. suddenly a MAN enters the room and you actually NEED TO WEAR YOUR HIJAB.. GASP.. ofcourse you say.. something like

LA LA LA LA hada ibnek.. MA BASADE2.. akher mara shufto kaan lisa berda3.. * awkward silence
* oh that is your son last time i saw him he was still breastfeeding. & You start sharing embarrassing stories like " last time you came over your mom was potty training you pooped all over my carpet.

2. You find that most of your conversations suddenly take a turn and you end up talking about
RECIPES . "Ah wallah hayk bta3maleeha.. la2 ana ba7ot shway zebdeh ba3dayn bakhaleeha ten2a3 shway"..

3. When you sit down or get up you make those little moaning sound.. Ehh ... or say something like
" Ya Allah.. Yama ya habeebti.. heeeeh " or ask the nearest child or person to help you get up.


4. When someone gives you a recipe and says " Rashet male7" a hint of salt or shwayet baharat.. you actually know what those baharat ARE and how much you need to put in the Tabkha
 

5. You now have official sub7eyat with other khaltos many who are still are unaware of the STAGE of khalto they have become.

6. You probably by now suffer from a Back Disc,  or neck disc or just back pain or joint pain or have had your gallbladder removed. or like me All of the above..

7. You just want to wear that SAME BIJAMA that you have had for a billion years cause nothing is just as comfy. Inspite of the fact that you have many other PJS but none are as comfy as this one and no one can really see that hole anyway.

8. You can't walk in heels and when you do decide to walk in heels you carry a little bag with a SHIBSHIB with you & Clarks & hush puppies and Berkinstock are your fav shoe shops.

9. Your Digestive system starts failing you are your body reacts to the things you eat and you just cant eat the things you used to. And before going anywhere first you make sure there is a BATHROOM there.

10. When you hang up the phone you now do the " Ahlayn Ahlayn.. Allah ma3ek.. Ah ah " byebyebyebye ahlayn ahlayn bye bye



11. When you have visitors over you always stand at the door before they leave and talk for like 30 mins

13. When your kids are naughty and you have visitors over you give them "THE LOOK" that you used to get growing up that meant " ra7 afarjeeki bas yraw7o"


14. You can no longer stay out very late and want to be home early & are exhausted by the end of the day.

15. You talk about prices and " Ghala il Dinya wa il 3eeshe" a lot & ask about schools.

16. Getting off the couch is not as easy as sitting on it.

17. When that old lady in the Zumba Class keeps giving you the " i know how you feel" look.

18. You actually start realizing there is a different taste to " mlookhye, jibne and Zaatar  from Amman or palestine" & will most likely have some in your bag if you travel.

19. You say things like " YA ma7la il hawayat" & constantly compliment people in a formal manner.
 

20. You make 'du3a" for everyone when they do something nice for you ' Allah yerda 3alieki" & you start using those Amthaal like ( feel free to use these phrases and evolve into a khalto instantly:

il ALEB GHALEB
The Inside Is The Winner)(You Are More Beautiful Than Your Dress)

"Ya Raytak Khreet Wa Ma Hkeet"
(i wish you had pooped instead of SPOKEN) ( havent used this one yet but its very expressive) haha

Bil Wijj Mmrayeh Wa Bil Afa Surmayeh
( In Your Face He Is A Mirror And Behind You He Is A Slipper)


A3mali Mnih Wa Kib Bil Bahr
( Do Good and Throw It In the Sea)

 Al Urd Bi A3yn Immo Ghazal
( The Monkey in His Mothers Eye Is a Ghazelle)

*i can go on FOREVER. 

Anyway.. hope this has helped some of you learn that they are also now KHALTOS LIKE ME

WELTCHOME TO THE CLUB * hands over knitting kit and glasses as prize and REMEMBER THIS :

I Need to CHILL!

Wow.. its been so long since i have blogged i feel i forgot how to ! But i feel im at this point in my life where i have a lot of thoughts and feelings and well i feel hardly take any pauses. Im always on the run doing a million things & multitasking. I feel like i take on more than i can handle & at the end of each day i still have

n't crossed out my "to-do" list and im exhausted and i realize there was alot of things i could have easily just NOT added to my crazy endless list.

So today i decided to STOP doing all the things i need to do & actually take a minute to BLOG and reflect on my life and everything. I'm the type of person who is very curious and observe the people around me and try to read thier body language and analyze them. I may come across as a psycho that just stares at other people. Anyhow.. so i was at PF Changs today and i noticed a western lady with her two girls. They had ordered a somewhat healthier choice i believe with some sort of green leaves or brussel sprouts.. ( just like i do) *laughs sarcastically .. and they were eating and laughing and talking.. and her two girls were playing wither their food then decided to braid their moms hair.. thier hands were probably oily but she sat there smiling &; let them both just pretty much oil her hair in the middle of the restaurant and she was saying positive things.. like " wow look at that nice braid"

 And i imagined if one of my girls tried to braid my hair with her oily hands.. would i have done the same thing ? i think i probably would have just given her the " you better not do that " look. or threatened to take away one of her "shopkins"!

I started to realize how many times we tend to overreact to certain things. And it me think of the reason WHY we do that. I believe it is our fear of what "Others" will think of us. Its that need to fall into a certain Norm, that desperate need to be seen in a certain way. That constant fear of being judged by the way your children act.

Im not saying don't set any rules and let your kids play with a soiled poopie diaper. Im just saying there are certain times we tend to overreact. We draw lines and upset ourselves and our kids and in reality some things are not a big deal.

They got thier clothes dirty even though you warned them a 1000 times.. what did you expect really when you gave your 3 and 6 yr old an ice cream :S 

They can sometimes wear clothes that don't match cause they feel like it. it will make them learn how to be decision makers and feel more independent.

Its okay if they don't finish eating thier food or not eat eventually they will get hungry and eat so no need to give the " IF you dont eat your food it will run after you on judgement day" *twitches at thought of drowning in giant mlookheya bowl



They scribbled on the walls again.. and you are having a FIT.. and here i dont mean FIt as in Fitness *jiggles belly.. It can be painted.. and even if it isnt .. why is it such a big deal? they are kids. we keep limiting them to drawing on paper and limiting their creativity. Let them scribble maybe we should experiment on our walls as well. Let the world be our CANVAS! :P who said we should only draw on PAPER? the possibilities are endless!

There are so many times i let my emotions get the best of me. The stress & exhaustion don't help me to react like a calm person would or should act. I feel its in my nature to be just LOUD and Jumpy like im always waiting for something BAD to happen. So many times i hear my kids screaming in the room and i freak out only to find out they are just laughing and playing.

One time after i dropped off laila to school i noticed she had forgetten her water bottle. That morning she decided to take it out of the bag & i told her dont forget it like 100 times. So when i got to the school and realized it wasn't there i got upset with her and told her "why didnt you put it back didnt i tell you to!" she said she did and i was like NO you didnt . i overreacted as usual. And come to think of it now i think mainly i didnt want to be seen as that "careless" mom who forgets to pack her childs water bottle. i dont know what iwas thinking and after getting all upset and upsetting my little lulu.. i got back in the car and it was right there next to me.. It fell out of her bag when i put in the car. She had packed it in her bag and truth is even if she didnt. it shouldnt have UPSET ME the way it did.. my heart sank and i felt horrible.. and i got this gut-wrenching feeling of guilt of what a horrible mom i was. She told me many times she did and i didnt even believe her.. because she has a habit of forgetting things. ( like me) i'm far worse though.. she calls me Mrs Forgetful.. I sometimes feel i am too hard on Laila especially because i feel she is a part of me& she is like me in so many ways that i worry about her so much. I dont want her to experience some things i went through. I often find myself overreacting to something she did and after she sleeps this feeling is back again. i feel this is not the first time i feel this incredibly heavy weight of guilt on my chest & i need to change this before i cause my kids major psychological problems cause the root of all psychological problems are the PARENTS!! ( which reminds me of the tv show "BATES MOTEL" which im watching now which is actually a prequel of the movie "PSYCHO".. who is a psycho because of his mom somehow ya far7eti

I told myself i don't ever want to feel this guilty again and i dont ever ever want to put my kids in this situation. I feel i see myself in her and somehow i dont want her to turn into me So from now i on whenever something happens that upsets me, i ask myself why am i upset? Do I need to be this upset of this ? Is it worth it? Am i overreacting?

I don't want to shout at them. I love them so much. That moment you see fear in your kids eyes from you is one of the worst moments ever. You will feel like a monster.  Its not easy to control your frustration and i'm still failing many times, but at least now i'm trying my best and working really hard to not fail my kids as a mom.

will leave you with a cute vidoe of what happened when i left lina in the back seat with her new frozen makeup set which i thought was still closed till i parked and looked back :S i am glad this time i laughed and didnt freak out.. but she is too cute ! ahahahaha :P