Today is not a normal day....it is unlike any other... it should be down in history.. it should be an official holiday!
On this day .............. 7amooda was born!!
7abeebi kol sana wa inta salim wa mursi wa 3abbas :P no really kol sana wa intcha tchayip
You know before i met you i thought i was crazy :P now i know i am
im simply crazy about you *maksoof shy face*
With you in my life i feel nothing else matters.. You make everything ok..
IF i woke up with a really bad hair day and tripped on a banana..also realized i had the biggest zit in the middle of my face.. got fired for being late to work too many time..got sick .. then heard the worst news.. then got stuck in tsunami but somehow survived with many psychological and phycisal scars.. same day i find out i got robbed & someone i care about decides to hate me overnight... then got aressted for robbing my own house lol then on the way to jail had an accident that made me lose my memory & ability to speak... with all that happening.. i know if i forgot everything i would still remember YOU... and if i couldnt speak i would just want to speak to tell you how much i love you... :P And if all that happened in one day... knowing you are there would make it all okay
so conclusion of this long story is that if one day i woke up & everything possible in the world was going wrong... i would think of you.. and it all would be okay
you are EVERYTHING to me :) ALLah ma yi7rmeni minak ya GAlbi
Ba7777777obak Gawi Gawi... :P
I LOVE YOU MORE THAN CHOCOLATA!
ITs your first birthday as a 3arees! ya bakhtak :P ok i forgot this is my blog :P
Im hereeee... well havent been blogging much since there has been a lot going on lately... time "dubbans" time flys :P ok that was soo lame... *someone throws tomatoes on dino
So after the many cloudy days i did something crazy... i EXPOSED MYSELF TO THE SUN!!
*scene from a vampire movie when dina sees the light she melts lol actually more like BURNS!!
im glad to say i am no longer snow white... but i can't say being RED & BURNT is much better lol i remember how my ta ta ( grandma) always would argue that being WHITE is something SACRED! like tanning to her is just VERY SURPRISING! ino ma32ool 7ad abyad bido yismar?! il nas btishtire fair and lovely 3ashan tibyad!!
anyway... after hanging out in the sun for a long time.. and not listening to 7amooda when he said " 7uteee Sunscreen" i am now suffering the consequences.... ok i sense i will be blabbing now and no one will understand a word i say.. but i need to just write my thoughts down...
as i was contemplating on my daily life events... i started thinking of the many times we under or overestimate things in life... how sometimes we don't realize the intensity of certain events.. or the impact they have on our life... till the moment passes us by... all we are left with are those burns... U know at that point that u are under the SUN.. and you are most likely to get burnt but you are denial and are taken away with the coolness of the water that you really don't realize how bad ou are burnt till later on...
how someone could get so many bumps on his head.. walk normally afterwards.. ignoring the little headaches and signs that something is wrong.. " underestimating" the real situation... till one day ... he finds out he has been suffering from major internal bleeding that he was unaware of all this time...
ok fhimto ishi? how i got that from being burnt in the sun... lol tis2aloooneeesh....
il muhim.. next time im taking TANJARIT SUNSCREEN!
ok been tagged.. but im using a computer that doesnt have arabic and the questions are in arabic.. so i will not only answer the questions but translate them :) i might as well answer an email tag i recieved here :) ok here i go * rubs hands together with anticipation
1. NAME: Dina SIGN : 3aquirius :P
2. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? i am not sure but i sure do hope its not the ra2asa!!
3. WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY? yesterday
4. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? sometimes.. depends on the pen & the mood :)
5. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE MEAL? hmmm yummm are we talking tabeekh? shush barak... if we are talking itlian its pasta *drools :P (stomache growling) & in general.... anything with chocolate!
6. KIDS? I ADORE kids!! up until they reach that annoying age where they ask alot of questions and start losing their teeth... those kids get on my nerves :P
7. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? Awww... id be friends with me.. then one day we would decide to meet "ME" and i would show up with a COW.... then i would avoid me forever lol
8. DO YOU HAVE A JOURNAL? I used to.. then i found out that sometimes forgetting things is a blessing... why REMIND yourself of the crappy expereinces when the real good ones are never forgotten.. plus you never know if it may fall into the wrong hands ;)
9. DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT? ALLLL THE TIME <--- said like the kid from sixth sense when asked how often he sees dead people :P
10. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS? YES do u want them?
11. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP? hmmm no knowing how the weirdest things always happen to me i would not risk that :S
12. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE CEREAL? Coco Pops
13. Chicken or MEAT?
firaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaakh... i always prefer chicken... u know ofcourse with the whole cow obsession thing going on chicken is expected :P
14. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG PHYSICALLY OR MENTALLY?
hmmm when u say physically strong are u asking if i can carry a car? :P then no.. if i can open a bottle of water on my own then yes... if i will be in any boxing match.. then no :S
Now Mentally... i was always a bright child :P now im so bright bathweeee bilayl :P...i tend to get carried away with my imagination sometimes...i haven't cracked any codes or made any scientific discoveries YET
so i guess ill go for mentally :)
15. What is your favourite ice cream?
Choco-Brownie Madness or Cookies & Cream with EXTRA FUDGE ( ya salaaam )
16. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE? Thier smile, eyes & teeth
17. RED OR PINK?
18. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVOURITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
hmmm over sensitivity sometimes
19. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
at the moment ahmed :)
20. DO YOU EVER TALK TO YOURSELF? Yes... only when im SLEEPING :)
21. IF YOU WERE A FRUIT WHAT WOULD YOU BE?
huh? ana fruit salad :P well i guess id be a strawberry cause my cheeks usually get red
22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
Purple.. but why would i be a crayon is the better question lol
23. FAVOURITE SMELL? the smell of baby powder on babies :)
24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
a wrong number... the call last for 5 seconds and it was like..
me :ALooo.. mr. X: HAAH? me: Aloo? mr X : HAAAAAH? me : HAAAAAH?
25. FAVOURITE DRINK? Iced White Mocha yummm... but you dont want to see me after im high on caffiene
27. FAVOURITE SPORT TO WATCH? id rather watch a movie.. but if i really had to watch a sport.. it would be.. no bideeeeesh to watch sports .. :S
28 FAVORITE COLOR?
29. MORNING OR NIGHT? Not a morning person AT ALL :) i hate waking up early...
30. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
used to .. now i have LAZER VISION * dino looks at a banner that is really far away and uses her "ZOOM" option to see it more clearly... crowd GASPS with AMUSEMENT :P
31. FAVOURITE PLACE? hmmm to me its not about the place its the company :) as they say.. il JANNAh min ghier naaas ma BTINDAAS :P
32. YOUR DREAM ?
going to hajj with Ahmed someday inshala :) & to memorize the quran one day
33. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? Persuit of HappYness... *tears at the memory of the movie hehe
34. SUMMER OR WINTER? Summer in summer and winter in winter :P i like both...
35. HUGS OR KISSES?
37. FAVOURITE DESSERT?
Paradise Pie from Chilies!! *akhhhhh
38. HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOU PERSONALITY?
6aaaaaaagaaah <-- as my cousin laloo would say :P im simple... sometimes im silly.. i like to make ppl smile... get along with pretty much anyone... im naturally HIGH :P
39.ARE YOU MOODY?
hmmm Sometimes... i get major mood swings but i get out of them quickly.. * dino laughs and then crys as she types :P
40.WHAT QUALITIES HAVE YOU TAKEN FROM YOUR FATHER?
his stubborness & i think my dad was an artist bil zamanat .. i think i got some of my talent from Papeee
41. WHAT QUALITIES HAVE YOU TAKEN FROM YOUR MOM?
her eyes & her love for kids & kindness... lots tell me i look like her & that i have her smile
i think enough questions for one day.... i cant believe i was bored enough to answer them... and i cant believe people actually READ WHAT I WRITE :)
Maybe most of you would relate to this daily experience. You are passing by the living room and you really don't plan on sitting in front of the tv but you are suddenly drawn to some scene from a movie or show.. so you say ok ill stand for 5 minutes till this scene is over then i will go do something useful... the scene turns out being a whole movie.. you have now been sitting infront of the TV for the past 4 hours... and that was not your initial plan.... :S you are now a couch BATATA!!
its like this invisible magnetic force field that you get caught into & once you are in... its hard to just stand up and leave!
We have decided not to get a tv in our house inshala... i hope we will able to live without it... to think of all the free time we would have instead of watching tv! Television is actually one of the main reasons families have lost thier "bond". When there is TV the whole family are sitting in one room staring at a screen but they don't interact together or have normal conversations.
Anyway i imagined how my life would be with a tv and KIDS!! Id be hypnotized by the tv while our very hyperactive kid will run around destroying the house! :P ok i tend to exaggerate a bit :P but conclusion is i think tv is addictive and when i think of all the time i spent infront of a screen....of how many hours i spent from my life watching tv.... it freaks me out :S
After cow chose to go out with the "mgali3" player Bull behind my back... she hates to admit that i was right about him... anyway.. its not about who is right and who is wrong... now she is heart broken and is going through a very weird phase where she is doing all sorts of things she wouldnt usually do... like she is punishing herself ...
she got piercings and tatoos all over her body... she started smoking... swearing a lot... dresses up in a very inappropriate way...sleeps all day or listens to a lot of heavy metal... songs with titles like " ABUSE ME" and " SUICIDAL DREAM"... i feel she has a problem talking to me because she feels i lecture her a lot.. so instead i feel this unbreakable barrior between us... a loud silence everytime we sit together.... that is if we DO sit together...
she keeps saying " Even the richest COWS end up Burgers in Burger KING or McDonalds eventually"
So... i suggested therapy... and there is no shame in seeking help.. sometimes letting things off your chest even to a total stranger helps... Did you know an average person has around 50,000 negative thoughts a day!
Depression is something everyone goes through at some point in their life... it varies from person to person.. at how serious is it & how long it lasts.. It is usually caused by traumatic experiences or disappointments in life... It all about perception and when someone is happy the sky is blue, the birds are singing and when he is depressed the sky is grey and everything sounds like noise to you..
Here is some information about some of the different kinds of depression :
Mild Depression :
The symptoms of this form of depression include low self-esteem, a general feeling that nothing's worth doing, and a lack of interest in activities that used to be pleasurable. It's the most common form of depression, and is easily mistaken by others as simple unhappiness. Many people go through this type of depression, and recover from it, without really understanding what happened to them. Believe it or not a person suffering from mild depression has a more realistic perspective in life opposed to someone who is too optimistic with unrealistic goals.
Few people experience major depression without it becoming very obvious to those around them that they are depressed. The symptoms are similar to those of mild depression, but much worse. The lethargy can be so profound that the sufferer has trouble even getting out of bed, while any interest in previously-enjoyable activities will have gone. Loss of appetite & the desire for social interaction; all these will have significantly reduced. Feelings of guilt, worthlessness and despair can be so powerful that sufferers of major depression are prone to have suicidal thoughts, or even to attempt suicide.
Manic depression A less common form of depression is manic depression, in which the sufferer has dramatic mood swings, from depression to mania. One day they may feel as though their world is about to end, while another day they'll be fantastically, unrealistically optimistic and cheerful. People suffering from manic depression are often artistic, and express their pain through their art.
Post-natal depression Having a baby is a major change in anybody's life.The birth of a child makes a big difference to the hormone levels in the mother. With the sleepless nights, extra pounds and additional stress of coping with new demands on the mother's time and attention, it's not surprising that some women slip into a state of mild depression after childbirth. In some cases this can become major depression.
So.. point is... we all have gone through or will go through depression at a certain point in our life.. my advice is to not let yourself move from mild depression to major depression by realizing what the cause is... deal with it rather than sleep it away.. talk about it to someone close to you if you don't like the idea of therapy...
And believe it or not its all in your head.... its a DECISION you make.. DECIDE to be happy.. to GET OVER your depressing thoughts.. replace them with POSITIVE thoughts...
Life does not always go as planned.. you WILL make mistakes..you WILL make wrong decisions...you will suffer the consequences... the bull could break your heart.. but this is life.. don't dwell over your mishaps.. don't curse your fate.. dont blame yourself or punish yourself... just try to LEARN from your experiences..
there could be a million reasons to feel depressed... but i believe if you find just ONE good reason not to be.. if its good enough...those reasons fade away.... everything happens for a reason... and if you don't see its for the best at that same instant you learn later on that GOD loves you...
Everything you go through.. whether if its good or bad.. is part of a bigger plan for you.. have faith in God because your happiness is in HIS hands..
If you go the wrong path... and you realize you are on the wrong path.. its never too late to turn back... its like taking a wrong turn... you either go farther away and deeper to dark scary roads that could lead to another country... or you realize you took a WRONG turn... and just simply GO BACK... to the right path...
If you are depressed... read a lot of quran :) it helps...
Quotes i like :
Life does not cease to be funny when people die any more than it ceases to be serious when people laugh.
I lived my life knowing that when i look back at my tears i'd laugh, but i never knew looking back at my laughs i would cry
The art of life is the art of avoiding pain. ~Thomas Jefferson
i have noticed changes in COW... she has not only been wearing corsets and watching her diet.. she has also gotten hair extensions & has started to wear a lot of make up and short skirts!! Since i have had cow ever since she was a baby i feel like her parent and that is my duty to help her make her choices in life... she is at a very critical age.. and i knew i would face it one day.. the age where she is thinking about marraige and love & bulls :P and to see her change into this cow barbie with superficial thoughts & not to forget to mention the way she has become "Bull Crazy"... is very hard on me...
Since its almost valentines day she has to choose between 6owr 1 who is very educated& sweet...her even learned how to WRITE... still working on the spelling though... his fashion sense is... lets just say.. he has no sense of fashion and in the fashion book it is called " FASHION SUICIDE"... but then again he is a sweetheart and would treat cow like a COW-QUEEN
Then we have 6owr 2... who is a barn drop out... very spoilt.. smokes a lot of "7asheesh"... mentioned he has been modeling in many magazines for the "horoscopes" taurus section... I dont sense he is serious about cow... and i personally dont like him at all... but i admit he knows how to dress and is charming when he talks...
So.... now... would you go for the sweet adorable yet clumsy and not so cute 6owr or the Hot "Mgale3" one lol
i don't like either and im telling her to wait till she gets the right 6owr & that the most important thing in such situations is to base your decision not only on looks & emotions but logic too... *sigh*
you know what im going to write about has nothing really to do with the pic i drew but well i just felt like drawing cow doing some karate! hehe
What i want to vent about today is how sometimes you work so hard for something... all your life you have focused on that one thing... sacrificed for it... like making a sculpture out of little objects you would collect every day.. and everyday you would add to it.. truely you did all that you could to make it look its best... And all your hard work has paid off now.. its a great peice of art....
till one day in a moment of anger, stress.. with one big "HIYAAAAAAAAAA" you break everything you have worked for all your life.. you are left with regret maybe even confusion at how in one second all those years of hard work could simply vanish...
your sculpture is now nothing but a mess... and its all your fault... you can't take back the things you did... or said... and even if you tried some things are just not fixable... it will never be the same...
moral of the story.... think before you speak people... because words are like bullets once you "6ukh" the person infront of you either kill them or leave them seriously injured!! Yes we all face problems & life isn't exaclty a walk in the "gneenah" & there is always someone to blame for our psychological problems.. but... choose your words carefully cause they could cause serious damage.... & unecessary DRAMA!!
i love making up little metaphors from everyday life expereinces.. i thought of all the clothes i have in my closet... all those tshirts i never wear... and that shirt i always wear... & sometimes when i clean out my closet i find a shirt i forgot i had but has been hidden under a pile of other shirts... so there are different types of shirts which reminded me of the different types of PEOPLE i have known.... there is the :
The Favorite Shirt
The one you wear most of the time and no matter what happens to it and no matter how worn out it gets you overlook all its flaws and cant let go of it.. Even if you wear it everday you still dont get sick of it .. ( no i dont wear the same shirts everday cause then i would stink :P
The Occassion Shirt
The shirt you can't give away because you like it to a certain point but not enough to wear it except for on certain occassions
The Nice Shirt
The shirt you like a lot but seem to forget you have it till every once in a while when you find it while you are cleaning your closet.. its not that you dont like it... you actually really like it... but as soon as its out of your sight its out of ur mind.. you can't give it away because you like it... but not enough to see it everday
The Embarassing Shirt
The shirt you once really really loved... wore all the time... then slowly it changed with time... u are determined to hold on to it no matter what size it is.. no matter how many holes are in it... but then after a certain point u have to let go you realize you are ashamed to be seen with that shirt.. and even if you love it ... its no longer your style..
The Summer Shirt
Those shirts you leave in your house in jordan because you wear them only there in that weather... you love them but you only see them once a year
The Obligation Shirt
That shirt you dont really like but HAVE to wear because your mom got it..
ok i'll let you all figure out the meanings behind my shirt metaphors :P if u dont relate at all.. its ok.. i hardly understood what i wrote... i have met a lot of weird shirts... so glad to have my favorite ones.. so sad to have had to let go of some that i once really loved...
makes me wonder what kind of shirt i would be to some ppl *sigh*
So apparently my cow has overheard 2 girls talking to each other... one asked the other " does this shirt make me look like a COW?"... then later on she overheard some people calling a really obese person a COW!! she didnt take it very well and ever since she has not been eating at all... she wears a corset to keep her tummy tucked in & well im starting to worry about her..
she mentioned how she also found it very offensive how when we want to swear at each other we sometimes say " ya 7ayawan" " ya bagara"... and she did mention something that made a lot of sense to me... she said sometimes humans are worse than animals... she has not heard of a greedy cow killing another cow over money or gold or whatever.. she has never seen an animal gossip... she has never seen a cow get high... no animal has ever robbed a bank.. thrown a bomb on innocent families taking away thier lives.. no animal has ever backstabbed thier friend... & one last thing there are people WAY FATTER than COWS!!
*cows mooing is louder now and i can see her eyes begin to tear
* titanic music playing in the background by one of her fellow cows
"TURN that off don't be such a sappy HUMAN" yells the cow to the other cow..
*DINO GASPS.... ok "OUCH" *breaks into tears
you know... she has a point... "im sorry cow" " im sorry Dino"
i saw this Proud Pali's blog! but well the hijab and abaya were my special upgrades! lol first hijjabi m&m in the world :P
So... today i wake up to my alarm... (to what i thought was my alarm) and i got dressed and as i was about to leave work i thought to myself.. weird how the alarm hasn't gone off again yet!! :S to my surprise it was 3:45 AM!! :S APPARENTLY my alarm didnt go off AT ALL.... and i DREAMT it DID!! :S
anyway here is the link to do your own M&M characters.. ENJOY Become An M&M
Ok today im fine :) hamdulilAH :) was wondering what i should blog about today... and i remembered a reaccuring situation that im sure most of you might have gone through at some point of your life...
You are walking with your friend or mother or husband... in my case it would be with my cow :P hehe anyway... someone looks at u from far away and gives u the " I KNOW YOU look" with a WIDE SMILE... then u look around you.. behind you.. to make sure u are not going to look stupid smiling at a total stranger talking to someone else... then.. they start walking towards YOU... and now ur pretty sure its YOU they are smiling at... and you think... " WHO IS THIS?"
they are now SQUEEZING you and saying " OMG OMG I CAN BELIEVE AFTER ALL THIS TIME I SEE YOU AGAIN DANDOON"
ok..ur calling me with my "dala3" name kaman.. so u sure know me...
i start searching the name database in my mind trying really hard to REMEMBER!! and .... mind is still BLANK... so i try to handle the situation without showing that person i HAVE NO CLUE who they are.. by just asking general questions and answering their questions in the same hyper way.... sometimes i succeed.. i avoid using thier name by using " habeebti" or "ba66a" or any other dala3...
it usually works unless if someone is with u and says .. SO arent you going to INTRODUCE US ??? :S
after a long awkward silence you run out of smart things to say..
they find out you have no clue who they are..... the smile turns into a frown... conversation ends on a rather agressive.. " SEE YOU AROUND" that sounds like " HOPE TO NEVER BUMP INTO U AGAIN OR ILL RUN YOU OVER" :P
im just simply bad with names... *sigh
here is a cool video i saw once in Digital Nomads blog... enjoy ;) look at the wonders of makeup and photoshop!! And then another video only the reverse effect !! :P Enjoy!!
ok sorry no cartoon today.. not really feeling very upbeat.. its weird that i cant even write what i feel since i know lots of ppl who are close to me read this blog and are shocked to read things i don't share with them here.. but i need to vent.. or at least attempt to...
the worst feeling in the world is to have someone who knows you..who knows you very very well...who knows every little thing about you...can easily misjudge you and accuse of things that you haven't done...or said... or even misinterpret the things you do by saying you had other intentions...
why is it too hard to believe that some people in this world would so something good without an ulterior motive?!? That sometimes you say things without implying something bad... that sometimes you truely would do something nice just to see that persons smile...
Anyway...you realize that they don't know you at all... & its hurts more than anything because you would expect it from others... just not them...
you should know me better before judging me...
sorry... next blog will be more cheerful.... today is just a bit dramatic for me...
most important thing is that at least i know what i am.. and i know my intentions and ONLY GOD can judge me... i should stop caring what people might say or think...
any hoooooooooooo....me and cow both have a cold and are noses are not only runny... they are SPRINTING :P that was lame.. :P
i still make jokes even when im down *sigh* sad lol* okay i feel better.. dont ask me about this post... it never happened... *dino flashes the " MEN IN BLACK" flash infront of all readers... now they have no memory of this post... :P
i am a mother,:P talk way too much!!love art& illustrtion photography! graphic designer illustrator..try to be as religious as i can.. what else?
apparently im a rooster according to this Chinese horoscope :S hmm i adore chocolate.. explains my nick.. i should stop any CAFFEINE INTAKE cause im NATURALLY HIGH!!