im blue da be dee da be daa.... back to my sleep patterns... i guess im feeling depwethed again... i sit there curled up in bed drowning in my thoughts wondering abt my past present future... i wish i knew the RIGHT things to do.. and how to wrong the mistakes ive done throughout my life... things are easier said than done... i wish i could just stop being so freakin emotional... that not anyone can effect my mood! that i didnt care abt certain ppl in my life....

i hate fakeness but i realized i sometimes am fake espeically on eid!! u contact ppl who u dont really care abt.. well u do but not really.. but u feel its an obligation to msg them at least once every year cause if u dont they will be offended.. andu get msgs from ppl who havent spoken to u in 1000 years .... its a fake world.. and i learnt that when someone needs somethin from u they are ur new best friend.. when they need a ride and u got the car.. ne way...

whats the world coming to?! i walk around in the malls or streets in dubai and i see girls half nakid ... and to my surprise most i know from uni and are muslims!! i hate how islam is nowadays.. ppl relate islam to acts of terrorism and hate! i would love it if those ppl who say they are muslims and dont act like it to say... yes im a muslim... but i DONT practiCE islam...

so here i am venting away... guess ill go back to my exciting LIFE! hehe

later me..

Beace

IM AWAKE!

and its morning! actually its not that early but its been a while since i woke up at the right time!

YAAAAAAAWN! its a beautiful day! weather seems a bit cloudy.. expecting rains! emm remind me why im giving the weather forcast again?! Soo... im drinkin my vanilla nescafe right now and im thinking someone as hyper as i am should be banned from any caffiene INTAKE!

*dinos bouciing off the walls... Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

i might take this opportunity of being awake for the most important meal of the day to go have some morning BREAKFAST! if i stay online any longer it will be lunch :S hehe

this venting online has seriously been a great idea... glad i am a bloggieeeee

ill be back with info from the outer world later!!

Beace oooout!!

i feel a heaviness in my throat again... its like a lump that i feel when i think of my life... thoughts and questions invade my mind... steal away the sleep from my eyes...i need to just let it out of my system b4 it eats me up alive...

could a person be in love with love itself? the feeling of love and being in love?! rather than a person ? i dunno sometimes i feel im in love with love itself and the idea of being intoxicated with love! maybe i watch too many movies...they say all is fair in love and war... and love makes the world go round( wait that was MONEY)hehe

ne way.. im a sappy romantic dreamer that is in love with love... they say all love fades and what u see in movies is far from the sad reality... the reality of men sittin there infront of the tv burping as they watch the game in their stained shirt! while the lady cooks in the kitchen hair curled up in little hair rolls, smellin like fish and onions! that's the image that comes to mind when i think of the "AFTER LOVE ENDS" eheh i mean come on... if a lady loooks and smells like that id rather watch the GAME too!

no wonder i fear commitement and marraige! i dont want to end up like the normal couple that eventually end up giving each other attitude and sayin things like " u ruined my life"!do all married couples meet the same fate ?! is it a cycle that we all have to go through?!

enough for today... back with more psychological problems later :P

SICK OF DIS!!

PASS ME DA CHOCOLAAAATA!! :P just testin this image uploadin option

im gettin way to much sleep... i feel bad but i just get glued to my cozy bed with my fluffy pillows and just sink away... is it that my reality is so disappointing that i cant get out of bed? are my dreams and sleep the only way i can escape my reality? i have to end this cycle or do somethin useful in me life soon.. these messed up sleeping patterns are depressing too!

im goin out for iftar now... ill pray that God guides me and leads me to the right path...

beace out

my first blog hehe

i dunno how to use this... its my first time... im just tryin this out see if im gonna have it figured out soon... so its basically me sharing my psychoticness to the world? its like venting online? iim gonna sleep now figure this out later...

beace