Hideaway

i need to get away... i wish i was invisible... i need time away from all the comments i hear.. people interfering in my life.. making my decisions 4 me ! if i need advice believe me i WILL ASK for it! Unwanted Advice is simply UNWANTED!

Does my face have " please interfere in my life?" written all over it?

*dinos looks in a mirror...NO SUCH LINE ON MY FOREHEAD...
hmmm ok there could be some spots on my forehead forming an illegible line :P

i do appreciate it when someone cares and asks about me and my dad's condition and tells me they are there for me...(but ONLY when they mean it )

but what i don't like is when people don't really care but call just " rafi3 3attab".. like its "socially expected" of them to do so.. so they will visit u and call u once and disappear.. those calls or visits are not what i need right now..

And if you have nothing nice to say.. pls don't say anything at all..

AND...whether or not i will wear a white dress to my wedding.. whether or not i will even HAVE a wedding...or who will i invite... etc. is MY business..

no one has any right to judge me for wanting to have this night... im not saying right NOW with these circumstances... but eventually i will inshala and no one has any right to make me feel guilty...

i dont want to hear anymore comments on how my wedding should be.. or where it will be or if there is going to be a wedding...


i dont want to hear anymore insincere " if you need anything im here for you" lines..
i know who is there for me and who isn't.. and i know who my true friends are... and who really cares..i surely don't need anymore guilt trips from anyone...

just had to vent....


btw cow and i decided to go to the jungle to meet her friends... :P

The M@$K

i've always felt like a moody person.. but recently it's not just mood swings it's more like extreme schizophrenic attacks... i feel like im in the movie " The Mask"

Sssssssssomebody SSSSSSStop meeee... :P

it's not denial.. i've accepted my dad's situation... i sure do hope he will recover... and i know it's for the best... but sometimes to deal with reality i try not to think about it.. i keep myself busy.. i do the things i usually do everyday... i go to work.. i blog.. i eat.. i sleep.. see my friends... but then there is that moment when im not busy.. when im not with anyone.. the moment when reality catches up with me...

it's like someone took away a part of me.. like something inside me has died and is rotting more and more each day.. like someone tore my arms off and im sitting there looking away from the wounds.. acting like nothing happened... looking away for so long that i forget what has happened....

but no matter how far away i look... there will come a moment when i need to pick something up or even scratch my nose and i realize i have no arms..my arms are not there and i can never run away from myself...

hamdulilah i do have my arms .. im just trying to express how i feel..

i didn't know how much my dad did for us and how much we relied on him...i took him for granted.. that he will always be there... i miss him ... i miss his loud voice.. i miss our few talks... i miss having him around ...

i hate to sound this depressed.. i usually use humor to deal with drama.. i do succeed most of the time.. but right now im not wearing my mask...

the mask i wear so often that i think sometimes i even fool myself... please take my advice and if your dad's are healthy and there.. dont take them for granted.. talk to them more... because eventually all you will have from your parents are these memories...

mama i love you habeebti inti.. i admire your strength & faith.. i know this all will pass... i don't ever want to see you cry..don't worry about us we are all going to be fine.. Allah kbeer & will take care of us all :) wa Allah yishfe baba soon


al hamdulilah

Funny Indian Ads

after seeing a few indian commercials i really would like to share these 2 with you all! i saw the second one too many times that the song " mmmmmmwaaaaah" aheeeeeeeeyaheeeeeyaaaaaaay is stuck in my head... lol so my advice don't watch more than 3 times lol

Drama Drama Drama

My life is so dramatic... its a soap opera... the weirdest things happen to me... so I'm back with another episode of my life.. in my week off work we woke up one night to the FIRE alarm at 4 AM in the morning... THERE WAS A FIRE IN OUR BUILDING! Nice... eh? lol

Anyway i got flashbacks the last time i woke up freaked out at 4 am not so long ago to hear my mom call the ambulance for baba... So..you can imagine the DRAMA! we had to leave the building as soon as possible for all we knew the whole building could be on fire... and to think of what are the things i want to take with me.. hmm EVERYTHING.. what do i have time take NOTHING!! i started going back and forth quickly in the room trying to wear the first thing i find in my face! thinking back im sure it looked like i was doing some sort of weird rap dance in the room jumping from one side to the other with confusion!!

SO... we ran down the stairs and i remembered and Egyptian movie i used to always watch when i was a kid.. ( don't know why i watched it though it was kind of not a movie for kid).. the movie's was " KARAKOON FIL SHAri3 " Adel imam and yusras house falls down and i remember the scene with all the people running out and each person was carrying something weird.. one guy had a TV with him! LOL

Anyway... so we went downstairs and i thought i looked weird with my abaya on top of my pyjama till i saw the rest of the people who were downstairs! Some were so scared they didn't even put much clothes on! now i understand the arabic saying " il ikhtashoooo maaato"..hmm how can i translate that without it sounding cheesy... " those who get shy will die" lol

soooooooo... the fire was in a shop in our building's ground floor... it was big but was put out and after 3 hours mitil il musharadeen in the streets we went back home... AL HAMDULILAH

glad it wasn't serious :)

And about my dad.. well right after my last post about him getting better he had seizures and was put back on the machines... then al hamdulilah 2 days ago he was able to breath again and is back off the machines... it's always up's an downs and you can never know what is going to happen next... Inshala ya Rab he will recover from this...

Al hamdulilah 3ala kol ishi ... ill keep you guys posted in my next episode

Favorite Video$

ill be off for a week starting today and i might nto get a chance to blog.. dad's condition is much better he is breathing on his own and is awake :) he also had "boootha" icecream yesterday.. recovery takes time... and lots of patience.. but i feel good al hamdulilah.. Allah kareem and he will be better soon inshala :)

here are a few videos i LOVE!!!! mashala at the talents all around the world!! i am still shocked at the baby imams!! And the BABY BREAKDANCER!! so enjoy these videos till i get back :) these baby videos show how the way you are brought up could definitely affect the way you will turn out! baby breakdancer vs. baby shiekh

sub7annaLLah

And pls don't stop your prayers they are WORKING :) al hamdulilah

Thank you all for your support! Allah yis3idkum Jamee3an :)

Numbness

i feel numb inside...

numbness... the lack of feeling.. perhaps it would be more accurate to say a lack of connection with our feelings or a disconnection from emotions..numbness is one way we protect ourselves against the onrush of pain and against being overwhelmed by suffering...

In my case its emotional pain, but don't we respond similarly to a physical blow with numbness before our pain sets in?

I remember once when i was in grade 4 i was playing hide and seek with a girl that was 3 times my size... well it was her turn to seek and i was peeking from behind a corner of a wall.. trying to see where she was... suddenly a heavy weight plunged at me from a distance.. .. i remember a BIG THUD!!!

everything was in slow motion... i was not quite aware of what was happening... the sound of the kids playing the playground faded out and i don't remember seeing anyone around me...(although i was surrounded by people).. i do remember there was a lot of screaming though..

my white t-shirt is now a dark shade of red...i was bleeding... the girl had tripped and fallen right on top of me... causing my head to hit the wall corner from top to bottom.. (ouch)

i don't remember feeling pain... i felt numb... confused... in shock.. it was only later on my way to the hospital that i felt a throbbing pain in my head...

that is what i feel now.. numb at what has happened... i know soon that excruciating pain will come... when i realize the severity of the wound...

Sometimes in the house i'd be plugging in something to the electricity and suddenly the electricity would go off...

just like dangerous surge of electricity will activate a circuit breaker and cut off the electricity to stop a fire or the chances of electrocution.. i feel a great deal of anguish will activate our emotional "circuit breaker" temporarily, so that we don't feel the pain...

self defense mechanism i guess..

Dad's condition is stable.. he opened his eyes.. can move one hand al hamdulilah... there are signs of recovery.. but to see him so helpless and weak brings so much sadness to my heart..

Allah y2awmoh bil salameh wa ysabirna.. all we have is our prayers... wa Allah Kareem

He Squeezed my HAND!

Yesterday i went to see my dad and as i was talking to him and then suddenly he opened his eyes... i was suddenly speechless.. i held his hand and i tried to think of what was the best thing to say to someone who just woke up from a coma and has tubes in his mouth and nose! the best thing to say to someone who in in so much pain and is unable to even express himself! i said " hamdila 3al salameh " i think i stuttered a bit...

its so funny how i get nervous when i talk to my dad.. like anything i say to him will sound stupid...

he is a serious man.. he doesn't usually get my jokes.. or gets them and decides to ignore them... :S anyway it was no time for humor.. i sat there saying how we miss him and how the house is depressing without him.. and then i felt him SQUEEZE my hand... i never thought such a simple gesture could stand for so much... i felt his pain.. i could hear his cry for help.. i felt his love.. i felt his sadness.. his confusion at why his lying in bed unable to get up or speak....

he would look around like a baby who is discovering the world for the first time... at that moment i felt like i was the parent.. sub7anallah


i felt helpless... but al hamdulilah.. he is getting better.. i don't really remember the last time i held his hand... i don't think i ever did. ( except for when i was a kid)

Allah yishfee :) i feel its everyones prayers being answered :) al hamdulilah

Life is a SIM card

ok why am i saying that? life is a sim card... a week ago it occurred to me how we are not so different from our phones when i again dropped my phone in water...

just like one drop of water in the wrong place can cause serious damage.. a drop of air in our bloodstream will cause immediate death... a drop of blood in the e brain causes sever brain damage... so we are left like a damaged phone... body is there but the memory is all lost... same phone... no connection to the world.. a body without a soul... or with a soul that is trapped in a body that is too damaged for it to even be seen...

we are more fragile than we realize... how could we be so weak yet so stubborn and ignorant? how could we know of this weakness and still act like we are invincible?
i guess its a blessing sometimes to be this ignorant.. imagine living in fear of death every second...

This past week i have learnt so many lessons.. believe it or not this week i have counted more blessings than i have in my life! i feel truly blessed.. and thankful..

Spending time in the hospital all day, i saw many stories that only made me feel more thankful... stories that happened to ppl and could've happened to anyone of us..

everyday i see a 30 year old man who had suffered from a brain stroke. he has been in the hospital for 11 months now.. and just recently he has opened his eyes and is showing signs of recovery.. i see his family around him everyday teaching him how to eat and speak again..

he has 4 kids and he was perfectly fine.. up until one day at work he was stressed out and had a brain stroke. His little daughter comes to the hospital everyday with a new song and sings it to him. She would hug him and sing to him and his wife said he tried to snap his fingers as she sang to him!

i see kids that are born crippled or paralyzed. And even though they are the way they are they are the most cheerful kids i have ever seen.. laughing and smiling and playing..

i see a 5 year old kid using a walker because she is born with crooked legs... i see an old man who has been in ICU in a coma for 6months and no one hardly visits him.

i see all sorts of people from all around the world and i realize that no matter how different we might seem.. we are all the same.. all holding on to the people we love.. holding on to life.. with everything that we have.


i feel blessed to have a father to worry about... some people are born into families without parents... i feel blessed to have my health and my family and loved ones around me helping me go through this everyday.. i feel blessed that we have enough money to afford a hospital while some people die because they can't afford the costs of hospitals & operations.. i feel blessed that i have faith at times like this when i know lots of people tend to lose their faith in God.. i feel blessed because everything that happens to us happens for a reason & with Faith and Patience (Sabr) God will reward us by taking away from our sins...

al hamdulilah... ina ma3 al 3usri yusra


another blessing is that now with all those ppl calling me i got my contacts back with extra numbers kaman :)

Sad Friday

its the first friday without my dad being home... he has travelled before and i have not seen in in months sometimes but this is different.. i keep telling myself he travelled somewhere... but then reality crawls back into my head and i realize what has happened..

I think fridays are harder than any other days to cope with this.. since i hardly saw him except on friday.. he would always wake up early and then we would all have the "FRIDAY Ftooor" which usually includes Fool Farouq <-- FArouq is baba..

so... b4 that he would always love to go to carfour and get all sorts of food! he loves food wa iza FE any OFFER in the world he will get it.. if you take a look in our kitchen you find boxes and boxes of biscuits and chocolates... and probably no one has ever heard of them! And when we say " baba la meen kol haaad? ma 7ada ra7 yakloh!" he says " ANA bowkloh" :S

see a major reason he is where he is right now is how careless he was when it comes to food! he would eat all sorts of baskoot and BAGLAWA and tabeekh without even tryin to khafif!! :(--

Anyway.. i keep remembering the time he would come and ask me to go to carfeour with him or to any dicsount center and id refuse and say " ma fee ishi hnaak" or " mush jay 3ala bali"... it hurts so much when it finally occurs to me that it was never about those discount centers.. it was his way of asking me to spend time with him..

whats even sadder is that now when i go and talk to him... i find my tongue tied and i feel like i cant say anything.. the same feeling i got when he was awake.. i want to tell him how i feel.. how i miss him.. how sad i am when i go home without him here.. how i am sorry i wasnt the best daughter... and all i can say is " baba ana hown"

we sense he can hear us.. he blinks when we talk to him and i feel inshala with all those prayers he will recover .. YA RAB....

Dad's in a Coma

let me say it again maybe this time it will sink in... Dad is in a coma... my dad? how ???? why can't i believe it? why can't i understand that this is happening..
we spend our whole lives planning and planning for things and then suddenly what we never expect happens and we sit there feeling shocked and helpless...

the day before he was fine.. making jokes.. eating.. laughing.. i rememeber thinking i have never seen him this happy... suddenly at night i hear mom telling my brother to call and ambulance.. it was like a nightmare only i was awake.. i go in the room to only see my dad in bed unable to move or speak.. his face was half paralyzed.. and that is teh image that has been haunting me.. to hear him moan with pain.. knowing he is trying to SAY something.. but CANT! the look in his eyes while the ambulance struggled to carry him away to the hospital...

everything was in slow motion.. still is in slow motion.. all i remember is those times i culd of spent with him and i chose to sit in my room or on the phone talking to someone else.. i think of all the talks we never had.. the things i couldnt say..

the funny thing is the first time i ever kissed his hand was when they were carrying him away to the ambulance... i try not to cry to be strong... but its so hard..

All i can do is pray... and the reason im bloggin now is because i want you ALL to pray for him.. please please.. i believe the more we pray the sooner he will get better..

LA hawla wala Quwata il Billah... Only GOd has the strength to make everything okay... Wa ina lila wa ina ilayh raji3oon... wa al hamdulilah.. Allah ysabirna wa ya2awmo bil salmeh ya RAB

ghirig talaaaaafooooni

ok i didnt have to time to illustrate the situation.... but again... i manage to drop my phone in a PUDDLE of WATER.... i usually have it in my lap when i sit in the car.. and well usually i drop it when i leave the car forgetting its IN MY LAP...

yesterday as i was going to see the wedding card ( very stressed out and ANGRY) cause they seem to hear my words in CHINESE!! anyway i leave the car and i hear...

PLOP... and i was like to myself " what was that?" hmmmm i decided to ignore the sound lol and as i was still about to walk away from the car i see something familiar.. only it was in a puddle of water(and 6eeneh) since it RAINED yesterday...

it was my poor (abused) phone... lol by the time my stressed out brain cells sent a brain mag for me to PICK IT UP.. it was already MSAGSAG :P

now again i lost my numbers... and wallahi i know i should have written them down i DID plan on doing that... il muhim.. conclusion is... i never learn from my mistakes.. and BARAKIZISH!!! :S

anyway watch this next video... NO COMMENT LOL the arab micheal jackson song!

hoookay hookay everysing hooooookay

wallahi i really hope they are joking.. to think they are singing SERIOUSLY! haha

Going Against the Tide

Did you ever get the feeling that you were stuck in a bottle drifting away with the waves.. tides taking you side to side till eventually you reach a waterfall and you you can see it.. and you know you are heading for a BIG FALL but you feel helpless.. the tide is too strong.. and you can't do much right now...

you know you can swim but you also can't reach the water.. stuck in a bottle...
you know you can scream for help.. but again the bottle is sound proof..
you know you don't belong here.. the tide is taking you in the opposite direction..

its just hard to go AGAINST THE TIDE... i feel both ways... u drown...

and when i say tide here i dont mean tide lil ghasseel :P or ariel.. :P

BowmA!!

many don't believe me when i tell them the weird stories and experiences i go through.. and today is just another STORY to share...

no i didn't swallow any dababees.. and no i didn't get lost in a desert with more cows but well i saw AN OWL!!! i kind of have the feeling owls don't usually hang out on office windows!!

you know when we were kids i remember my mom used to use the word " ya bowma" to express how someone is nikdeh... : liesh mbawma lol that was always confusing to me.. why the bowma tashbeeh... up until today.. where i met the BOWMA.. it all made sense... now i can worry abt the 100000 other questions in my mind lol

bowmas tend to look a bit depressed... i tried to make it smile.. to prove all those ppl wrong... but ja7aratni :P

i thought of keeping it as a pet but it looks like it had the bird flu... for it to come to an office window instead of a tree.. major sign lol

my life is full of surprises

Funny Video

one of the funniest videos i have seen in a while! mashala very talented :)
enjoy!!!

The COUNTDOWN Begin$

so... i havent been blogging i know.. but you know the countdown has started.. i still can't belive im getting married! it feels like yesterday i was blogging about finding " THE ONE lol now that he found me.. its just too much info that i need to sink in...

i mean its the first wedding i go to where im the "3arooosa".. truth is im not really stressed out YET.. but i just feel there is so much going on .. too much responsibilities.. decisions.. deadlines.. people involved..and i know i tend to forget a lot.. and at this time my memory is very CRITICAL :S forgetting now might cause irrepairable damage...

you know how ppl say.. its your night.. do what you want.. don't bother with people because people wont even remember this night.. and no matter what you do you cant please everyone... that is what i have been hearing and i TOTALLY AGREE....couldnt AGREE MORE......BUT... the reality of the matter is... its not just your night...
its FOR the people.. and there are EXPECTATIONS & there are lots of people who will interfere... lots of money will go to waste.. lots of arguments will arise... lots of unwanted advice..and so on... everyone means well... and they assume they know what you want.. or what is best for you.. not knowing u and them ARE soooo completely different & have different taste..

oh not forget to mention those calls or msgs i am getting from people i hardly remember or even know who say " oh am i invited?" & im like.. emm emmm (you know i7raaj kteer) so i go like.. yeah SURE... but in the back of my head im like.. WHO ARE YOU lol

I just hope i don't trip... & that everything works out because im this close to eating my COW!!!! :P

Anyway.. pls id3oooooooli ya nass.. i hope i dont reach that BRIDZILLA GODZILLA phase

Time Flie$

don't you sometimes sit in shock at how fast time passes you by!! I mean especially on those days when you come across a relative or friend you haven't seen in ages.. but somehow you remember their cute little baby boy who once threw up all over you & then u changed his diapers!! So you ask how is your kid? they laugh and say well he is right here in front of you... and u look up to see that he is now TALLER THAN U! i mean HOW HOW HOW?? its just WEIRD! now its like i have to wear hijab in front of him and well it seems like not soo long ago i was carrying him around singing him " 7adba7lak 7ammaaaam" :P

have u noticed how the songs we sing to kids are a tad bit disturbing & graphic! like for example " 7adba7lak 7ammam".. i will slaughter pigeons for you! lol

anyway.. back to my topic.. TIME.. they say time flys when u are having fun... and i think it might pass by faster when u NEED IT!!

conclusion is... we waste so much time in our lives and we are simply just getting old people!!! :P


Any hooooooooo :P here is a really funny link i came across today! a jordanian cartoonist ... CHECK IT OUT :) Omar Cartoons

I NeeD $leeP

i love sleeping.. i can take a nap at anytime! i love weekends because i get to sleep in the MORNING! Anyway... even on those days when u finally CAN sleep SOMEONE or SOMETHING wakes u up.. like the next door neighbors having a fight or the sound of someone drilling a wall somewhere! or maybe even the smell of someone smoking in the house.. you feel the smoke is going straight to your brain cells... ARGHH

you try and try to ignore all those annoying sounds & smells... and instead of them going away .. they get louder by the second..you realize there is no use... you are now awake.. and furious... sleepy but " raaaa7at il nowmeh" can't sleep anymore...

im sure many of you have shared this experience with me at one point in thier life...
or when you are in bed.. soo soo tired.. and just when u started to get comfortable in your warm bed..a very ANNOYING ALARM goes off!

You move from la la land to REALITY... U HAVE TO GO TO WAKE UP for WORK
"lugmet il 3aysh sa3bah yaboy"! You sometimes choose to break the alarm or ignore it and go back to bed... but usually doing that too often will get you fired eventually!

Sigh.. i guess this is life... :P bidi anaaaaaaM

Prayer$ An$wered

Yesterday my dad had an operation for the "disc" he has in his neck... AL HAMDULILAH he is okay now.. recovering from the operation.. got me thinking about life.. and how we alway get so caught up in life.. so caught up that we dont remember God as much as we should.. or we do remember God but yet have a lot of contradictions in our life... we might even bend or break a few rules to make them more "modern" or "socially acceptable"

till one day you really want something and you also know its ONLY in God's hands.. you have always known everything is in GOD's hands.. but in that moment you feel desperate and pray more and say things like " ill never do this again" or " God if you answer this one prayer i wont ask you anything again".. an so on..

maybe you meant what you said and deep inside you know you might NOT deserve to get your prayers answered because you have been too distracted & have so many sins in your life... but still you know GOD is forgiving.. and MERCIFUL.. so you pray because you know HE is always there no matter what happens...

ive had ppl say things like " ill tell my mom or bint il jeeran to pray for me because i havent prayed in years!! so i would feel bad if i prayed now just cause i need something".. that is not how it should be.. God asked us to pray ... and we all should :)
not only when we need something like a "job offer" or "3arees" lol

Allah KAREEEEM :)

186 و إذا سألك عبادي عني فإني قريب أجيب دعوة الداعِ إذا دعانِ فليستجيبوا لي وليؤمنوا بي لعلهم يرشدون " البقرة "

When My servants ask thee concerning Me, I am indeed close (to them): I listen to the prayer of every suppliant when he calleth on Me: Let them also, with a will, Listen to My call, and believe in Me: That they may walk in the right way.

Unfortunately the cycle repeats itself.. we all go through ups and downs and we don't always keep our end of the promise... out of weakness, laziness or temptation..

But i also know God created us and HE knows of our weaknesses and life is full of tests we all go through.

Prayers can sometimes make miracles happen :) Al hamdulilah for everything :)

so conclusion is..

" YOU GOT TO PRAY.. YOU GOT TO PRAY JUST TO MAKE IT TODAY" <-- said like a true MC HAMMER :P

Lion Hug

wow... when i saw this i was so touched.. after 6 years this lion still remembers the lady that rescued him... i never knew LIONS HUG!!!! awwwwwwwwwww *eyes tearing

Mush Tabee3i?

Sorry i haven't blogged in a while.. been kind of busy.. but well the less i blog the more things i feel i need to blog about! You know how sometimes you are in a situation and someone says or does something and you say something like " mush tabeeee3i jad jad ABNORMAL" or " i CANT BELIEVE HE DID THAT?" or " if i was in her place i would never DO THAT?"

and we tend to get a bit judgmental when we compare ourselves to others and we get carried away with our judgments not realizing that they are nothing but false accusations we base on our reference to ourselves & our experiences..

We have to realize that we are all different.. not even 2 people in this WHOLE world are exactly the same.. we might agree more with some ppl.. disagree with others.. want to avoid a few because they GET ON YOUR NERVES :P

BUT we also might find a lot in common with someone.. and when we do meet that person we feel is our "LONG LOST TWIN" we tend to assume they are like us in every way.. when in reality they are THEM and YOU are YOU..

not ONE person is like you in EVERY single way... and knowing that.. we should ACCEPT that different people react differently..and ACCEPT people for who they are instead of trying to turn them into YOU !

And just because someone doesn't react like you doesn't mean they are wrong.. doesn't even mean you are wrong.. it just means you are different... different yet normal

And speaking of normal.. what is normal ? a normal reaction? i feel that there is no such thing as "normal".. the definition of normal nowadays is what is common... and as soon as someone decides to go against the tide or be unique or original... they are seen as abnormal or weird.. plus being NORMAL IS OVERRATED :P

id rather be SPECIAL ( not the special that is thrown in mental hospitals though) :P

3anyway... point is... each person is different and expresses themselves differently.. a poet could write a poem.. a singer could sing a song.. a painter could paint you a portrait.. but just because they are talented and have the gift of expressing themselves in better ways .. doesnt make their love stronger or deeper or more real...

:)yet another one of my more serious posts...

H@ppY Birthd@Y G@LBI!!

Today is not a normal day....it is unlike any other... it should be down in history.. it should be an official holiday!

On this day .............. 7amooda was born!!

7abeebi kol sana wa inta salim wa mursi wa 3abbas :P no really kol sana wa intcha tchayip

You know before i met you i thought i was crazy :P now i know i am

im simply crazy about you *maksoof shy face*

With you in my life i feel nothing else matters.. You make everything ok..


IF i woke up with a really bad hair day and tripped on a banana..also realized i had the biggest zit in the middle of my face.. got fired for being late to work too many time..got sick .. then heard the worst news.. then got stuck in tsunami but somehow survived with many psychological and phycisal scars.. same day i find out i got robbed & someone i care about decides to hate me overnight... then got aressted for robbing my own house lol then on the way to jail had an accident that made me lose my memory & ability to speak... with all that happening.. i know if i forgot everything i would still remember YOU... and if i couldnt speak i would just want to speak to tell you how much i love you... :P And if all that happened in one day... knowing you are there would make it all okay

so conclusion of this long story is that if one day i woke up & everything possible in the world was going wrong... i would think of you.. and it all would be okay

you are EVERYTHING to me :) ALLah ma yi7rmeni minak ya GAlbi

Ba7777777obak Gawi Gawi... :P

I LOVE YOU MORE THAN CHOCOLATA!

ITs your first birthday as a 3arees! ya bakhtak :P ok i forgot this is my blog :P

Been Barbequed

Im hereeee... well havent been blogging much since there has been a lot going on lately... time "dubbans" time flys :P ok that was soo lame... *someone throws tomatoes on dino

So after the many cloudy days i did something crazy... i EXPOSED MYSELF TO THE SUN!!

*scene from a vampire movie when dina sees the light she melts lol actually more like BURNS!!

im glad to say i am no longer snow white... but i can't say being RED & BURNT is much better lol
i remember how my ta ta ( grandma) always would argue that being WHITE is something SACRED! like tanning to her is just VERY SURPRISING! ino ma32ool 7ad abyad bido yismar?! il nas btishtire fair and lovely 3ashan tibyad!!

anyway... after hanging out in the sun for a long time.. and not listening to 7amooda when he said " 7uteee Sunscreen" i am now suffering the consequences.... ok i sense i will be blabbing now and no one will understand a word i say.. but i need to just write my thoughts down...

as i was contemplating on my daily life events... i started thinking of the many times we under or overestimate things in life...
how sometimes we don't realize the intensity of certain events.. or the impact they have on our life... till the moment passes us by... all we are left with are those burns... U know at that point that u are under the SUN.. and you are most likely to get burnt but you are denial and are taken away with the coolness of the water that you really don't realize how bad ou are burnt till later on...

how someone could get so many bumps on his head.. walk normally afterwards.. ignoring the little headaches and signs that something is wrong.. " underestimating" the real situation... till one day ... he finds out he has been suffering from major internal bleeding that he was unaware of all this time...

ok fhimto ishi? how i got that from being burnt in the sun... lol tis2aloooneeesh....

il muhim.. next time im taking TANJARIT SUNSCREEN!

Funny Video$

here are 2 hilarious ABU MAHJOOB videos & an adorable sleepy baby

In6aggiet ( been tagged) :P

ok been tagged.. but im using a computer that doesnt have arabic and the questions are in arabic.. so i will not only answer the questions but translate them :) i might as well answer an email tag i recieved here :) ok here i go * rubs hands together with anticipation

1. NAME: Dina SIGN : 3aquirius :P

2. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
i am not sure but i sure do hope its not the ra2asa!!

3. WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY?
yesterday

4. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
sometimes.. depends on the pen & the mood :)

5. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE MEAL?
hmmm yummm are we talking tabeekh? shush barak... if we are talking itlian its pasta *drools :P (stomache growling)
& in general.... anything with chocolate!

6. KIDS?
I ADORE kids!! up until they reach that annoying age where they ask alot of questions and start losing their teeth... those kids get on my nerves :P

7. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
Awww... id be friends with me.. then one day we would decide to meet "ME" and i would show up with a COW.... then i would avoid me forever lol

8. DO YOU HAVE A JOURNAL?
I used to.. then i found out that sometimes forgetting things is a blessing... why REMIND yourself of the crappy expereinces when the real good ones are never forgotten.. plus you never know if it may fall into the wrong hands ;)


9. DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT?
ALLLL THE TIME <--- said like the kid from sixth sense when asked how often he sees dead people :P

10. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?
YES do u want them?

11. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
hmmm no knowing how the weirdest things always happen to me i would not risk that :S

12. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE CEREAL?
Coco Pops

13. Chicken or MEAT?

firaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaakh... i always prefer chicken... u know ofcourse with the whole cow obsession thing going on chicken is expected :P


14. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG PHYSICALLY OR MENTALLY?

hmmm when u say physically strong are u asking if i can carry a car? :P then no.. if i can open a bottle of water on my own then yes... if i will be in any boxing match.. then no :S

Now Mentally... i was always a bright child :P now im so bright bathweeee bilayl :P...i tend to get carried away with my imagination sometimes...i haven't cracked any codes or made any scientific discoveries YET

so i guess ill go for mentally :)

15. What is your favourite ice cream?

Choco-Brownie Madness or Cookies & Cream with EXTRA FUDGE ( ya salaaam )

16. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
Thier smile, eyes & teeth

17. RED OR PINK?

BINK :P

18. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVOURITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?

hmmm over sensitivity sometimes

19. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?

at the moment ahmed :)

20. DO YOU EVER TALK TO YOURSELF?
Yes... only when im SLEEPING :)

21. IF YOU WERE A FRUIT WHAT WOULD YOU BE?

huh? ana fruit salad :P well i guess id be a strawberry cause my cheeks usually get red


22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?

Purple.. but why would i be a crayon is the better question lol

23. FAVOURITE SMELL?
the smell of baby powder on babies :)

24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?

a wrong number... the call last for 5 seconds and it was like..

me :ALooo..
mr. X: HAAH?
me: Aloo?
mr X : HAAAAAH?
me : HAAAAAH?

ToooooooT

25. FAVOURITE DRINK?
Iced White Mocha yummm... but you dont want to see me after im high on caffiene

27. FAVOURITE SPORT TO WATCH?
id rather watch a movie.. but if i really had to watch a sport.. it would be.. no bideeeeesh to watch sports .. :S

28 FAVORITE COLOR?

TERIKIWAAAAAAZ

29. MORNING OR NIGHT?
Not a morning person AT ALL :) i hate waking up early...


30. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?

used to .. now i have LAZER VISION * dino looks at a banner that is really far away and uses her "ZOOM" option to see it more clearly... crowd GASPS with AMUSEMENT :P

31. FAVOURITE PLACE?
hmmm to me its not about the place its the company :) as they say.. il JANNAh min ghier naaas ma BTINDAAS :P


32. YOUR DREAM ?

going to hajj with Ahmed someday inshala :) & to memorize the quran one day

33. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
Persuit of HappYness... *tears at the memory of the movie hehe

34. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Summer in summer and winter in winter :P i like both...

35. HUGS OR KISSES?

Definitely HUGS

37. FAVOURITE DESSERT?

Paradise Pie from Chilies!! *akhhhhh

38. HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOU PERSONALITY?

6aaaaaaagaaah <-- as my cousin laloo would say :P im simple... sometimes im silly.. i like to make ppl smile... get along with pretty much anyone... im naturally HIGH :P

39.ARE YOU MOODY?

hmmm Sometimes... i get major mood swings but i get out of them quickly.. * dino laughs and then crys as she types :P


40.WHAT QUALITIES HAVE YOU TAKEN FROM YOUR FATHER?

his stubborness & i think my dad was an artist bil zamanat .. i think i got some of my talent from Papeee

41. WHAT QUALITIES HAVE YOU TAKEN FROM YOUR MOM?

her eyes & her love for kids & kindness... lots tell me i look like her & that i have her smile


i think enough questions for one day.... i cant believe i was bored enough to answer them... and i cant believe people actually READ WHAT I WRITE :)

TV Hypno$i$

Maybe most of you would relate to this daily experience. You are passing by the living room and you really don't plan on sitting in front of the tv but you are suddenly drawn to some scene from a movie or show.. so you say ok ill stand for 5 minutes till this scene is over then i will go do something useful... the scene turns out being a whole movie.. you have now been sitting infront of the TV for the past 4 hours... and that was not your initial plan.... :S you are now a couch BATATA!!

its like this invisible magnetic force field that you get caught into & once you are in... its hard to just stand up and leave!

We have decided not to get a tv in our house inshala... i hope we will able to live without it... to think of all the free time we would have instead of watching tv! Television is actually one of the main reasons families have lost thier "bond". When there is TV the whole family are sitting in one room staring at a screen but they don't interact together or have normal conversations.

Anyway i imagined how my life would be with a tv and KIDS!! Id be hypnotized by the tv while our very hyperactive kid will run around destroying the house! :P ok i tend to exaggerate a bit :P but conclusion is i think tv is addictive and when i think of all the time i spent infront of a screen....of how many hours i spent from my life watching tv.... it freaks me out :S

Cow Ther@pY

After cow chose to go out with the "mgali3" player Bull behind my back... she hates to admit that i was right about him... anyway.. its not about who is right and who is wrong... now she is heart broken and is going through a very weird phase where she is doing all sorts of things she wouldnt usually do... like she is punishing herself ...

she got piercings and tatoos all over her body... she started smoking... swearing a lot... dresses up in a very inappropriate way...sleeps all day or listens to a lot of heavy metal... songs with titles like " ABUSE ME" and " SUICIDAL DREAM"... i feel she has a problem talking to me because she feels i lecture her a lot.. so instead i feel this unbreakable barrior between us... a loud silence everytime we sit together.... that is if we DO sit together...

she keeps saying " Even the richest COWS end up Burgers in Burger KING or McDonalds eventually"

*sigh*

So... i suggested therapy... and there is no shame in seeking help.. sometimes letting things off your chest even to a total stranger helps... Did you know an average person has around 50,000 negative thoughts a day!

Depression is something everyone goes through at some point in their life... it varies from person to person.. at how serious is it & how long it lasts.. It is usually caused by traumatic experiences or disappointments in life... It all about perception and when someone is happy the sky is blue, the birds are singing and when he is depressed the sky is grey and everything sounds like noise to you..

Here is some information about some of the different kinds of depression :

Mild Depression :

The symptoms of this form of depression include low self-esteem, a general feeling that nothing's worth doing, and a lack of interest in activities that used to be pleasurable. It's the most common form of depression, and is easily mistaken by others as simple unhappiness. Many people go through this type of depression, and recover from it, without really understanding what happened to them. Believe it or not a person suffering from mild depression has a more realistic perspective in life opposed to someone who is too optimistic with unrealistic goals.

Major Depression

Few people experience major depression without it becoming very obvious to those around them that they are depressed. The symptoms are similar to those of mild depression, but much worse. The lethargy can be so profound that the sufferer has trouble even getting out of bed, while any interest in previously-enjoyable activities will have gone. Loss of appetite & the desire for social interaction; all these will have significantly reduced. Feelings of guilt, worthlessness and despair can be so powerful that sufferers of major depression are prone to have suicidal thoughts, or even to attempt suicide.

Manic depression
A less common form of depression is manic depression, in which the sufferer has dramatic mood swings, from depression to mania. One day they may feel as though their world is about to end, while another day they'll be fantastically, unrealistically optimistic and cheerful. People suffering from manic depression are often artistic, and express their pain through their art.

Post-natal depression
Having a baby is a major change in anybody's life.The birth of a child makes a big difference to the hormone levels in the mother. With the sleepless nights, extra pounds and additional stress of coping with new demands on the mother's time and attention, it's not surprising that some women slip into a state of mild depression after childbirth. In some cases this can become major depression.

So.. point is... we all have gone through or will go through depression at a certain point in our life.. my advice is to not let yourself move from mild depression to major depression by realizing what the cause is... deal with it rather than sleep it away.. talk about it to someone close to you if you don't like the idea of therapy...

And believe it or not its all in your head.... its a DECISION you make.. DECIDE to be happy.. to GET OVER your depressing thoughts.. replace them with POSITIVE thoughts...

Life does not always go as planned.. you WILL make mistakes..you WILL make wrong decisions...you will suffer the consequences... the bull could break your heart.. but this is life.. don't dwell over your mishaps.. don't curse your fate.. dont blame yourself or punish yourself... just try to LEARN from your experiences..

there could be a million reasons to feel depressed... but i believe if you find just ONE good reason not to be.. if its good enough...those reasons fade away.... everything happens for a reason... and if you don't see its for the best at that same instant you learn later on that GOD loves you...

Everything you go through.. whether if its good or bad.. is part of a bigger plan for you.. have faith in God
because your happiness is in HIS hands..

If you go the wrong path... and you realize you are on the wrong path.. its never too late to turn back... its like taking a wrong turn... you either go farther away and deeper to dark scary roads that could lead to another country... or you realize you took a WRONG turn... and just simply GO BACK... to the right path...

If you are depressed... read a lot of quran :) it helps...

Quotes i like :

Life does not cease to be funny when people die any more than it ceases to be serious when people laugh.

I lived my life knowing that when i look back at my tears i'd laugh, but i never knew looking back at my laughs i would cry

The art of life is the art of avoiding pain. ~Thomas Jefferson

ok i talk way too much....

How 2 MANSAFING

all you people who have been to jordan and have tried mansaf will find this hilarious! And if not u will have all the jordanian "turath" in one video! LOL

i love when he says "6argi3 asab3ak" hahhahaha "da7bir"

omg sho gordunieh il mus6ala7at!! :P

V@LENTINE$ D@Y

i have noticed changes in COW... she has not only been wearing corsets and watching her diet.. she has also gotten hair extensions & has started to wear a lot of make up and short skirts!! Since i have had cow ever since she was a baby i feel like her parent and that is my duty to help her make her choices in life... she is at a very critical age.. and i knew i would face it one day.. the age where she is thinking about marraige and love & bulls :P and to see her change into this cow barbie with superficial thoughts & not to forget to mention the way she has become "Bull Crazy"... is very hard on me...

Since its almost valentines day she has to choose between 6owr 1 who is very educated& sweet...her even learned how to WRITE... still working on the spelling though... his fashion sense is... lets just say.. he has no sense of fashion and in the fashion book it is called " FASHION SUICIDE"... but then again he is a sweetheart and would treat cow like a COW-QUEEN

Then we have 6owr 2... who is a barn drop out... very spoilt.. smokes a lot of "7asheesh"... mentioned he has been modeling in many magazines for the "horoscopes" taurus section... I dont sense he is serious about cow... and i personally dont like him at all... but i admit he knows how to dress and is charming when he talks...

So.... now... would you go for the sweet adorable yet clumsy and not so cute 6owr or the Hot "Mgale3" one lol

i don't like either and im telling her to wait till she gets the right 6owr & that the most important thing in such situations is to base your decision not only on looks & emotions but logic too... *sigh*

NICE AD$

Hiyaaaaa!!

you know what im going to write about has nothing really to do with the pic i drew but well i just felt like drawing cow doing some karate! hehe

What i want to vent about today is how sometimes you work so hard for something... all your life you have focused on that one thing... sacrificed for it... like making a sculpture out of little objects you would collect every day.. and everyday you would add to it.. truely you did all that you could to make it look its best... And all your hard work has paid off now.. its a great peice of art....

till one day in a moment of anger, stress.. with one big "HIYAAAAAAAAAA" you break everything you have worked for all your life.. you are left with regret maybe even confusion at how in one second all those years of hard work could simply vanish...

your sculpture is now nothing but a mess... and its all your fault... you can't take back the things you did... or said... and even if you tried some things are just not fixable... it will never be the same...

moral of the story.... think before you speak people... because words are like bullets once you "6ukh" the person infront of you either kill them or leave them seriously injured!! Yes we all face problems & life isn't exaclty a walk in the "gneenah" & there is always someone to blame for our psychological problems.. but... choose your words carefully cause they could cause serious damage.... & unecessary DRAMA!!

People Are Like T-$hirt$

i love making up little metaphors from everyday life expereinces.. i thought of all the clothes i have in my closet... all those tshirts i never wear... and that shirt i always wear... & sometimes when i clean out my closet i find a shirt i forgot i had but has been hidden under a pile of other shirts... so there are different types of shirts which reminded me of the different types of PEOPLE i have known.... there is the :


The Favorite Shirt

The one you wear most of the time and no matter what happens to it and no matter how worn out it gets you overlook all its flaws and cant let go of it.. Even if you wear it everday you still dont get sick of it .. ( no i dont wear the same shirts everday cause then i would stink :P

The Occassion Shirt

The shirt you can't give away because you like it to a certain point but not enough to wear it except for on certain occassions

The Nice Shirt

The shirt you like a lot but seem to forget you have it till every once in a while when you find it while you are cleaning your closet.. its not that you dont like it... you actually really like it... but as soon as its out of your sight its out of ur mind.. you can't give it away because you like it... but not enough to see it everday

The Embarassing Shirt

The shirt you once really really loved... wore all the time... then slowly it changed with time... u are determined to hold on to it no matter what size it is.. no matter how many holes are in it... but then after a certain point u have to let go you realize you are ashamed to be seen with that shirt.. and even if you love it ... its no longer your style..

The Summer Shirt

Those shirts you leave in your house in jordan because you wear them only there in that weather... you love them but you only see them once a year

The Obligation Shirt

That shirt you dont really like but HAVE to wear because your mom got it..


ok i'll let you all figure out the meanings behind my shirt metaphors :P if u dont relate at all.. its ok.. i hardly understood what i wrote... i have met a lot of weird shirts... so glad to have my favorite ones.. so sad to have had to let go of some that i once really loved...

makes me wonder what kind of shirt i would be to some ppl *sigh*


have a nice weekend :)

$hort $tory About My Imaginary Cow

So apparently my cow has overheard 2 girls talking to each other... one asked the other " does this shirt make me look like a COW?"... then later on she overheard some people calling a really obese person a COW!! she didnt take it very well and ever since she has not been eating at all... she wears a corset to keep her tummy tucked in & well im starting to worry about her..

she mentioned how she also found it very offensive how when we want to swear at each other we sometimes say " ya 7ayawan" " ya bagara"... and she did mention something that made a lot of sense to me... she said sometimes humans are worse than animals... she has not heard of a greedy cow killing another cow over money or gold or whatever.. she has never seen an animal gossip... she has never seen a cow get high... no animal has ever robbed a bank.. thrown a bomb on innocent families taking away thier lives.. no animal has ever backstabbed thier friend... & one last thing there are people WAY FATTER than COWS!!

*cows mooing is louder now and i can see her eyes begin to tear

* titanic music playing in the background by one of her fellow cows

"TURN that off don't be such a sappy HUMAN" yells the cow to the other cow..

*DINO GASPS.... ok "OUCH" *breaks into tears

you know... she has a point... "im sorry cow" " im sorry Dino"

*scene ends with a hug :P

ok what was that? lol

M&M Moi & 3a7mad

i saw this Proud Pali's blog! but well the hijab and abaya were my special upgrades! lol first hijjabi m&m in the world :P

So... today i wake up to my alarm... (to what i thought was my alarm) and i got dressed and as i was about to leave work i thought to myself.. weird how the alarm hasn't gone off again yet!! :S to my surprise it was 3:45 AM!! :S APPARENTLY my alarm didnt go off AT ALL.... and i DREAMT it DID!! :S

*sigh*

anyway here is the link to do your own M&M characters.. ENJOY Become An M&M

Awkward Moment$

Ok today im fine :) hamdulilAH :) was wondering what i should blog about today... and i remembered a reaccuring situation that im sure most of you might have gone through at some point of your life...

Scene: MALL

You are walking with your friend or mother or husband... in my case it would be with my cow :P hehe anyway... someone looks at u from far away and gives u the " I KNOW YOU look" with a WIDE SMILE... then u look around you.. behind you.. to make sure u are not going to look stupid smiling at a total stranger talking to someone else... then.. they start walking towards YOU... and now ur pretty sure its YOU they are smiling at... and you think... " WHO IS THIS?"

they are now SQUEEZING you and saying " OMG OMG I CAN BELIEVE AFTER ALL THIS TIME I SEE YOU AGAIN DANDOON"

ok..ur calling me with my "dala3" name kaman.. so u sure know me...

i start searching the name database in my mind trying really hard to REMEMBER!! and .... mind is still BLANK... so i try to handle the situation without showing that person i HAVE NO CLUE who they are.. by just asking general questions and answering their questions in the same hyper way.... sometimes i succeed.. i avoid using thier name by using " habeebti" or "ba66a" or any other dala3...

it usually works unless if someone is with u and says .. SO arent you going to INTRODUCE US ??? :S

after a long awkward silence you run out of smart things to say..

they find out you have no clue who they are..... the smile turns into a frown... conversation ends on a rather agressive.. " SEE YOU AROUND" that sounds like " HOPE TO NEVER BUMP INTO U AGAIN OR ILL RUN YOU OVER" :P

im just simply bad with names... *sigh

here is a cool video i saw once in Digital Nomads blog... enjoy ;) look at the wonders of makeup and photoshop!! And then another video only the reverse effect !! :P Enjoy!!

Venting Se$$ioN

ok sorry no cartoon today.. not really feeling very upbeat.. its weird that i cant even write what i feel since i know lots of ppl who are close to me read this blog and are shocked to read things i don't share with them here.. but i need to vent.. or at least attempt to...

the worst feeling in the world is to have someone who knows you..who knows you very very well...who knows every little thing about you...can easily misjudge you and accuse of things that you haven't done...or said... or even misinterpret the things you do by saying you had other intentions...

why is it too hard to believe that some people in this world would so something good without an ulterior motive?!? That sometimes you say things without implying something bad... that sometimes you truely would do something nice just to see that persons smile...

Anyway...you realize that they don't know you at all... & its hurts more than anything because you would expect it from others... just not them...

you should know me better before judging me...

sorry... next blog will be more cheerful.... today is just a bit dramatic for me...

most important thing is that at least i know what i am.. and i know my intentions and ONLY GOD can judge me... i should stop caring what people might say or think...

any hoooooooooooo....me and cow both have a cold and are noses are not only runny... they are SPRINTING :P that was lame.. :P

i still make jokes even when im down *sigh* sad lol* okay i feel better.. dont ask me about this post... it never happened... *dino flashes the " MEN IN BLACK" flash infront of all readers... now they have no memory of this post... :P

Mini Me's U Complete Me

A more serious looking cartoon this time.. :P ok not that serious... i have mentioned before how im tall... not taller than 7amooda thank GOD! but well in comparison to all my friends except for one ( yes i mean you libyan sista) :P

Anyway... they have mentioned how they want me to mention them in my blog or draw them and well here you are :) And i must take this post as a chance to tell you how much you you mean to me.. i feel truely blessed to have such amazing friends.. what i realized is that friends come and go.. and there are always those people you can sit and laugh with and hang out with.. but sometiems we are lubky to meet those very few rare people who are with you through the good & the bad... And the most important thing we share is our love Fi ALLAh.. which is why our friendships will last not only in this lifetime but even inshala in heaven...

Habeebati Allah ma yi7rimni minkom!! i didnt draw all my friendies so if ur not in the drawing doesnt mean i dont consider you as close but it means im too lazy to draw :P and submit ur forms & il try to get back to u :P hehe

wa MAMA ya 7abeebati inshala you are next :)

Zahray im sorry i exaggerated how petite you look.. but have to admit that with heels this is close to our reality lol

Alooosh :) sweeetchie although u and zahray are abt the same height i added a few inches to you :P

Nawara i miss you soo much ya bet intchi!! Btw EVERYONE NAWARA has started a NEW BLOG :) pls if you can pass by & welcome her to the blogger world im sure she would love it :)

here is her link is Nawara


Here is a hadeeth i would love to share with you all :)
عن ابي هريرة رضي الله عنه عن النبي صلي الله عليه وسلم
قال : ( سبعة يظلهم الله في ظله يوم لا ظل الا ظله : امام عادل , وشاب نشا في عباده الله عز وجل , ورجل قلبه معلق بالمساجد , ورجلان تحابا في الله اجتمعا عليه . وتفرقا عليه. و رجل دعته إمراة ذات جمال وحسن . فقال : اني اخاف الله , ورجل تصدق بصدقة فاخفاها حتي لا تعلم شماله ماتنفق يمينه، ورجل ذكر الله خاليا ففاضت عيناه ))

The Prophet (PBUH) said, "Seven people are sheltered by the shade of Allah (SWT) on the Day Of Judgment, when there is no shade but His:

1. a just leader,
2. youth raised in obedience of Allah (SWT),
3. a man whose heart is devoted to Masjids,
4. two brothers or sisters whose fraternity is for Allah, n english, in other words:
"two men who love one another for the sake of Allaah and meet and part on that basis"
5. a man who remembered Allah (SWT) in his privacy and tears flooded his eyes,
6. a young man whom a woman of beauty attempted to seduce but he replied "I fear Allah (SWT),"
7. and a man who gave to charity in silence so that his left hand did not know what his right hand had spent."

Yoga Mode

Yeay!! its the weekend again!! You know its so weird how days go by so quickly... i hate how things get into a routine mode and you want to do so many things but end up too tired or stressed out to do anything.. you wait for the weekend and when it comes its like it never happened... *sigh

7amooda always has work sometimes even on weekends... im thinking he needs a break too... we need to go to a yoga session... cow will come along cause well i feel she is feeling left out and i try my best to make her feel as special as she did before :P

Back to my Yoga .. Have a nice weekend.... HUmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

side note : 7amoodas cartoon has been updated since he now has grown a "saksooka" yakhti TUGBURNI inta wil goatee!

why is it called goatee? does it originate from Goat? just a thought * scratches head with confusion :P

BirthD@Y Girl

Yes today i have turned the big 25!! A QUARTER OF A CENTURY! MEE!! i always imagined by the age of 25 i would have turned into a typical grown up who talks abt only politics and exchanges recipies for " mlookhya" & " mjadarah"!!! :P im the same and if anything im crazier than i was before! hehe

Last birthday i said i would start worrying abt the marraige topic if i turn 25... Although i dont think any girl should worry if she is still single because the right guy will come at the right time... for some its at 15 :S others maybe 35... so what i have to to my hubby is... PERFECT TIMING... u just MADE the deadline.. Really its my first birthday with 7amooda!! You keep asking me what i want on my bday without realizing that you r my present this year :) wa inshala in all my coming years...

ba7ibo ya baba waaaaaaaaaaa2

I dont really celebrate bdays but i do appreciate the fresh milk i get from my cow each year! :P

At work they got me a chocolate cake!! Yummy! Already i feel today is special!! *skipping with hyperness from chocolate intake

Cold Cold Cold

BRrrrrrrrrrr *teeth chattering tiktiktiktitk ... yes im cold... im FF RR EEE ZINGG... you what i hate.... crowd says " WHAT?".. someone in the back murmers " i dont really care" *dino glares at that somone till they leave the room... lol anyway...

i hate it when its too WINDY and u feel your clothes start flying everywhere!! And u dont know whether to hold on to the things in your hand or your clothes! In my case its like.. ok Hijjab or Abaya!! AAAAH!

i have noticed that males dont mind this weather at all & im sure they are hoping girls are all wearing short skirts!

tut tut tut * shakes head with disappointment...

Solution is ... TAPE... all you girlies carry around some masking tape so that the next time u feel its really windy..

LAZKIN MALABISKIN :P

Again dinos ceases to amaze herself with her bright ideas... *takes a bow... he3 he3 he3

GOOD MORNING EVERYONE!!! yis3id Sba7ko!! here is a cool video i wuold like to share with you all :)

Bidi Humm!!

You know after the lovely pin incident... everytime i eat or drink anything it hurts... its healing al hamdulilah but you know one of the hardest feelings is to be starving and to have food infront of you and not eating cause it would hurt too much!

ihehe i guess u'll say rijeeeeem rabaani :P.... i think no matter how much pain i will feel eating it... chocolate it worth it!!

i just imagined myself in a nest with some bird chewing my food for me... ok maybe ill replace the worm with a shawerma :P
i get carried away with my imagination... la la la la ...

Ahmad takes away chocolate bar from dina and says " enough chocolata for one day " hehehehehe

Dina nods obediently... says " ok 7amooda"

(7amooda is unaware of the huge chocolate bar she has hidden in her purse)

*dinos stares at camera faces the audience and silently does an evil laugh.... koh koh koh :P


ok seriously i should stop having chocolate lol

Bala3t Daboo$

Where was i the last 2 days? Hmmm not really wedding planning... i was in the hospital....

Yes... again i have a weird experence to share... things like this ONLY happen to ME... i SWALLOWED A PIN!!! Out of the many things a person can choke on or swallow by mistake.. COINS,FLYS,BONES,RINGS,EARINGS!!!! i swallow... A PIN!!!

How u may ask... let me explain... i was fixing my hijjab with pins.. i was talking to my friend alia with the pin in my mouth.. then i think i GASPED at something either she or i said... or just breathed in slightly... then GULP!!!!!

*dinos looks at alia with eyes full of SHOCK & FEAR & CONFUSION!!

*dinos points at throat and then at other pin in the hijjab!! ALIA SAYS " Shooo u dropped it?"

*alia starts looking on the floor...

DINA makes a weird NOISE TRYIN TO GET ALIAs ATTENTION TO HER FACE & points at THROAT....

ALIA's face now looks like DINAs only she is laughing at DINA now and freaking out as well lol

i was abt to pray so i freaked out.. i was like pray first or call my mom first.. ( mom is a doctor) so.... after running around in circles not knowing what to do i decided to pray.. cause chances are if i die i die praying! Then i call my mom ..

ALO MAMA.. ma tkhafi.. ma tkhafi...BAS BALA3t Dabooooooooos

Mama : EISH!! KEEF!! ???

Dina : sho 2a3mal ???????

MAMA : rooo7i koleeee KHUBZEH!!

ALIA runs hystericall to the kitchen throws RGHEEF at me!! i start munching on it like a beggar who hasn't eaten in a year!!!

MAMA: yala 7akhdik il mustashfa!!

We are driving to the hospital and ofcourse i could not stay QUIET the whole time i was making jokes and laughing... id say things like... this will be a NICE BLOG i was actually running out of TOPICS! lol or " law ino il khubzeh feeha LABANEH or Za3tar kan ithanayt badal ma abla3ha 7aaaf" hehehe

Anyway.. i reach the hospital and all the nurses would LAUGH when they ask what is wrong... " binit bala3at daboos"
*nurse trys to hide the laugh... then i see them telling each other and laughing... then they did an X RAY and i could it in my STOMACHE!!! so they are like we need to make a ENDOSCOPY... i go like.. okay... UNAWARE of what it REALLY MEANT!!!

the doctor arrives and asks where the patient is... mom says its her.. she says.. " OH I WAS LOOKING FOR A 7 year old"

LOL nice nice.... any one else want to mock me? aaahahahahah Soooooooo.. any hoooooooooo

suddenly they take me to a room... where i wear the operation clothes... and the inject me with something that i think was a anesthetic... so what i remember was a LONG TUBE WAS SHOVED DOWN MY THROAT!!! it was more like TREASURE HUNT in my STOMACHE!! After i don't know how long i woke up and i dont even remember anything other than i came in and i was shocked to see the had already took out the PIN!!

i also remember that it was fun being pushed around on a bed! And i remember saying lots of weird things after the endoscopy since iwas still under the mukhadir effect! mom said i was dancing at a certain point lol

Felt like i was high.. not that i know what it feels like heheh

NOW THAT WAS A WEIRD EXPERIENCE.... first thing i said was "7ase fi SANDAL FI ZORI" hhahahaha

now it feels like there is a baby shoe rather than a huge sandal!!! :S

well i have swallowed a nail in the past... when i was 8.. but this was a first.. the lesson i learnt is.. dont talk when u have pins in your mouth... wait... no its DONT PUT PINS IN YOUR MOUTH!!! :S

Wedding Planning

So... im getting married in a couple of months... inshala... so now i am not stressed out yet... hamdulilah but but but but....

I HATE how people keep telling me negative things like..

"OH MY GOD YOU STILL HAVENT GOTTEN A DRESS YOU WILL NEVER FIND ONE ohh inti KAMAN 6aWEEELA SO ULL HAVE MORE TROUBLE FINDING ONE" ARGH!! or when they say things like...

"Enjoy this time while it lasts...a month after marraige u will get back reality & realize there is nothing to be happy about"
" YOU HAVEN'T BOOKED A PLACE FOR THE WEDDING YET? OH NO ULL NEVER FIND ONE"

" YOU HAVEN'T FOUND AN APARTMENT YOU WILL NEVER FIND ONE SO SOON"

" YOU HAVEN'T WRITTEN DOWN YOUR WEDDING LIST YET THAT WILL TAKE AGES"

" BLA BLA BLA NO WAY.. followed by a very fake look of sympathy....

i can tell who is sincerely giving advice & is concerned and who is just trying to freak you out &make you feel bad

i really dont care what people say..im not really stressed out... maybe i will be in 3 months :P
but it just annoys me when all they have to say is negative things that put you down...they enjoy being unbelievably NEGATIVE..

i feel al hamdulilah Allah biyasir everything wa mutwakla 3ala Allah wa inshala things will go smoothly.. and just like katb ktab went ok inshala the wedding will also be great... i know you can never PLEASE everyone... it will be in dubai rather than jordan in summer.... :S sorry ahl il gordon... it was just too hard to plan it there...

7amooda when u see this dont freak out.. i tend to exaggerate emotions in this blog merely to make ppl smile .... i promise not to turn into a monster any time soon.. :P

OH girlies who live in UAE and got married... where did u get ur dresses from? yala goooolooli :)

$o $leepy!!

So.. its back to WORK! Bye bye holiday.. Bye Bye sleeping late... Bye Bye shopping all day... im soo sleepy its not even funny... why is it that weekends & vacations pass by soo quickly... *sigh*

so this eid since my phone was stolen.. so i got a new phone and kept the same line...so i kept getting msgs from all sorts of numbers.. i would msg back a few saying " Sorry i lost my phone" .. there is just no nice way of saying " WHO R YOU?" lol

Most of them probably didnt buy my story and thought i just simply deleted their numbers cause they dont contact me all year long :s

no major events... i miss my bed... my pillows... bidi anaaaaaaaaaam

Hello HoliD@y!!!

ITS THE WEEKEND!! Not just any weekend i have 9 DAYS OFF WOO HOOOO!! *clapping with joy!!! i will use this time to spend some quality time with my cow.. she has been feeling a tad bit depressed lately! She even started listened to RAP music and is swearing a lot!! lol Anyway... soo i was thinkin we will go surfing together!!!

So.. i didnt find my phone :(-- but i got a new one and got my same line back... *sigh...

what else... so you guys i probably will not be blogging as much in the vacation! so from now let me say... EID MUBARAK To ALL & HABBY NEW YEAR! May this new year be a GREAT year for everyone & May it bring endless blessings and JOY :)

i know my year will be special! Its the first year i start with my soulmate.. my best friend... 7ayati wa GGGGGalbi 7amooda :P
im looking forward to our many coming years together inshala :) you have brightened up my life:)

At times like this i wish my name was mona... i would apply the " AHMAAAAAAD MONAAAAAAAAAAAA" scenario in my life

*3a7med runs after 9'ina in mazra3a... then they write their names on SHAGARA and 7aytan! LOL

*later on that day are arrested for trespassing & ruining public property !! :P

NeW AddiTioN 2 My BloG

well since 7amooda is a huge part of my life i decided to add him to my blog.. my blog from now on will include 3a7mad :)
you know instead of him helping me out with my "lack of sense of direction"! I end up making him get lost with me
hahah 7amooda getting lost with you is so much fun!!!! :P ba7obak ya ba3li :P

btw my bagara has been a bit depressed an emotional... feels left out now that im not single anymore *sigh... hope she finds herself a 6owr soon lol

Lo$t My Mobile

ok not only do i get lost... i tend to LOSE THINGS!! :(--- last night i think i dropped my phone while i was getting out of the car and when i got home i assumed it was in the car... till today morning i found out IT WAS NOT IN THE CAR....

*breaks down into tears!!

its not abt the phone itself! its the msgs i have saved on it! its the CONTACTS !! Its the Pics on IT! ARGHHH!
i feel i cant think straight!! :(-------

so i guess i am " MTHAY3A" 3ala ra2i one taxi driver in jordan... lol

i sure do hope i find it!!! YA RAB!! :(--- *sigh

Ho$pit@l Dr@mA

Hello all!! Its been a while since i last posted here.... thank you all for your kind words & zaghareet lol so now that u know the BIG NEWS let me tell you abt some of the last minute adventures... Before we had the "writing of our book " lol we found out that there is a new rule in uae that for the marraige contract we need to both get blood tests done.. anyway... i thought it would be a simple & quick experience... up until mr. Nurse... Apparantly had a problem FINDING MY VIEN! im thinking HOW CAN YOU MISS?!?! im soo white its not even FUNNY... u practically SEE ALL my VIENS!!

So he pricks the needle into me and says.. " $h%@.. $%@%!!" and i am thinking "that is not the exact COMFORTING word i had in mind!!!" sooo... then i see weird things happening under my skin... then he decides to MOVE ON To the OTHER ARM! was it not ENOuGH he has DESTROYED ONE! LOL soooo he started his SEARCH IN other hand.... till finally he " SHIRIB MIn DAMI"

Anyway.. all that happened one day b4 my katb ktab.. u can imagine the way my arms looked the next day... one word perfectly describes it.. " JUNKIE" LOOOL i tried to look at the bright side... my dress was green so there was a sort of color matching going on with my GREENISH BLUE AFTER-SHOT ART!

im sure the way ppl love to gossip they probably either said " hay b6i63a6a mukhadarat" lol or " shaklo il 3arees budrubha"
sk translation : ( she is either on drugs or is getting beat up by her husband) lol

now they are a lovely shade of brownish purple.... Ashooof feek yom ya 3amo ta3 il 2ibar ( let me see a day inside of you mr nurse) LOOOL eheheheheh ok that sounded wrong :P

let u in on more pre-katb ktab adventures later :P