Pollution of D@ Mind

You know i sat there the other day thinking to myself as usual.. i thought about how the world has changed and is changing drastically.. i asked a kid to recite verses of the quran he had memorized , he satrted singing " boooos il wawa" instead!! i was horrified.. its a 4 yr old being subjected to haifa wahbe and im sure worse things! I have seen little girls dancing like those girls in the Music Videos... their innocence has been stolen away from them... what is the main source all this???? TV!!!

tv has become a "norm" a world that is as real to ppl as their worlds are... some may argue that it is harmless and that its just a way to pass time... knowing nowadays ppl have replaced reading books with watching movies.. surveys show that the average person watches around 4 hours and 32 minutes of television DAILY & that number increases on holidays!!

$ince people rarely read nowadays and have replaced books with tv shows or movies.. this also means that TV is their MAIN source of information and what ppl are continously viewing will definitely have an effect on them... for ex u spend most of ur time with your best friend... eventually u start talking and acting alike... even without realizing!! its pretty much the same with tv... ppl start to immitate what they see sometimes they are oblivious of the serious effects Tv can have!

Every generation is worse than the next ( i sound like a granny but its TRUE)... you want to protect yout children from the effect of television u can control the channels they watch..maybe even not have a TV in the house.. BUT what about in the REAL world... in school.. in the street! Is the solution blindfolding them? locking them up in a room away from this polluted world...

Cause from what i see EVERYWHERE you look there is something you shouldnt be looking at lol

Have you not noticed how they is hardly any censorship anymore? And that even in the morning or at noon when kids are mostly watching the tv the not very "sesame street" shows are on!! Yes i am not saying TV is all BAd... Yes there are alot of cool shows and i myself am a movie freak :S but some movies are just FULL of brain washing ideas that corrupt the taste, pollute the heart & brain, debase the mind, & demoralize the conduct of not only children but ADULTS as well.

Recently ive noticed that there is a noticable increase in violence, profanity, disrespect for traditonal values, unethical & morally unacceptable ideas, sexual connotation in movies.. What is considered a "G" RAted movie is FAR from "General"!

Ask yourself if the same kinds of scenes and messages we see now of all too many programs of today were found in the programs of twenty years ago. Not even 10 years ago!!

We are being exposed to growing amounts of inappropriate material if we choose to watch TV without being selective of what we watch with time we also will be brain washed and our minds will be polluted.

What people are repeatedly exposed to in advertisements, entertainment, novels, motion pictures, etc, has a great affect on ones self-image and behavior!

Television is no longer just entertainment it has become a "value-setter" where ppl compare themselves and thier lifestyle to what they see on TV! Movies have glorified violence, infidelity, & deviant behavior and have even made them look glamourous!

Another thing i noticed is that by continously being exposed to such shows & movies that hold soo much violence is being DESENSITIZED! People have gotten used to seeing death and violence that they have less sympathy for suffering and accept the idea of violence very easily. Which explains how the world sits their looking at people die in palestine,iraq,Lebanon & all around the world without taking any actions.. not even a flinch...

We must NOT take this matter lightly & have to at least be AWARE of what is happening around us and what will happen in the future if things keep escalating the way they are.

SAid like a true movie freak :P its been a while since i wrote something serious :)
but kolo wala that "boos il wawa" kid!!

My Phone Drowned!

not only do i drop my phone almost daily.... not only do i forget it ... yesterday it drowned in cup of water lol dnno how i dropped it in a cup of water! then i blowdryed it!! haha anyway... and believe it or not IT'S ALLIIIIIIVEEEEEEEE! :P

is there such a thing as phone rights? hehe u know i feel sorry for my phone....

HUH i look like Who?!?!

Ok... i was sitting with a group of people i have met for the FIRST time... and for some reason they ALWAYS have to say something like " Doesnt she look like"fat7ieh".. (fill in the blank with a name of your choice)"

Then the other girl stares at every angle of my face silently... Concentrating so HARD that her face turns into a confused frown!( i hate being STARED AT) then she screams and says

" YEAAAAAAAH!!! TOTALLY! HER TWIN! A CARBON COPY"

Dino$ : *nervous laugh*wondering is that a complement or an insult..

I have no idea who they are talking abt.... then when u forget abt that comment .. u do something and then they scream

" OMG OMG U & Bat3a ARE seperated at BIRth"

i have to say some people have NO SENSE of TAshbeeeh... they sometimes ask me if my friend and i are twins just cause we wear the same style of hijjab!! :S

anyway.. i dont look like anyone.. i look like ME!! Apparently a girl in JOrdan by the name of ZENA looks like me cause evrytime i go there strangers come to me about to HUG ME saying

"ZEEEENA OMG UR HERE" lol....

ZEna if ur out there and somehow have come across this blog and have been told you are DINA... im the mysterious DinA ... lol

p.s. U should be flattered DAaaaaaaaaaaahling :P hahahahaha :P

i love how i compliment myself hahah *pinches her own cheeks*

@m i DREAMinG?!?

So... today i got the best present ever!! its the biggest bar of CHOCOLATE i have ever seen !!lol i will try not to eat it all at one GO !!

My friend who is one of the very few friends i have who are TALLER than me hehe got me this from LOnDon!!

*smile turns into a look of confusion remembering a fwd i received about CAdboury Chocolate... something abt it causing a deadly sickness... hmmmmm.... at the moment that is IRRELAVANT...

well sara has been mentioning how we don't hang out much lately... hmmm could she be trying to murder me...

*twilight zone music playing in my mind

*dinos stops munching on chocolate.. *face is smeared with chocolate now

thinks to herself....the damage is done... already ate way too much .. might as well GO ON no use stopping now!! And remember Dino$ YOU Aint a Quiter....

*nods to self yells " YEAAAAAAAAAH" into space... realizes no one is around feels stupid that she is talking to herself.... lol

* returns to chocolate & hummms as she eats it ....

THANK YOU SARA!!!!!!!!


You have BRIGHTENED up my LIFE lol :P

*BIG HUG*

*face so smeared with chocolate that sara's shirt is stained with chocolate now! lol

so today i wore my new shoes... and well at FIRST they were fine.. then by the end of the day i was limping in the mall.... i think people noticed the pain i was in lol so.. i ran (more like limped) to the nearest shoe shop and got another pair that were less PAINFUL!

What A Great DAY!! :)

2D@y was A H@ppY D@Y

Unlike yesterday which was utterly depressing.. today was a good DAy! i know we all have those days... believe it or not EVEN ME! hehe :P I woke up and spent the whole day with my friends...i still have a holiday till SUNDAY! Wooo Hooooo!! i spent the day not only with my friends but with habeebi BABY hamza!! MAshala 3alieh.. Allah yi7meeh...

im like his stalker! PAPARAZZI! taking photos of him all day.. of his every drool.. every nap.. every burp!! Id be standing there making weird noises and faces and ppl would stop and look at me weird!! im used to that by now! hahaa

no matter how depressed i am... if i see a cute baby i forget everything!!! Anyway not only that.. i also... went SHOPPING!! i think shopping is THERAPY!! for WOMEN at least! hhehe maybe it has a REVERSE EFFECT if ur a MAN... especially IF ITS ur WIFE spending YOUR MONEY heheh

today i counted my blessings... i counted the many blessings and thanked God for all that he has blessed me with... i was abt to count my money... changed my mind immediately...lol

side note : i should not be given MONEY... i spend spend spend like there is no 2moro hehehe :P

but i hardly go shopping... but when i do... Oh OH

*pockets of pants dangling out of pants :P

MU$h TayG@H

You know those days.. nothing major happens... but many " minor" things happen... And you would already be emotional for some reason.... and u just want to CRY?! mush tayga 7ali....

i feel so sad for so many reasons.... so many reasons to cry... so many reasons to be angry at the world... at myself...

*sigh* im goin to bed maybe 2moro will be a better day...

EID MuB@RaK

EID REMINDER.... to those who havent showered in a long time.. probably since last EID! WhAT BETTER DAY TO DO IT than TODAY? lol

so....i don't know if i mentioned this before but i can hardly express any emotions to my dad... and well i kiss him only on EID and when i travel to another country!! so well today i kept planning the scenarios... how will i approach.. which cheek first... will i SAY i will give you a "bowseh" or so i just drop it in the middle of a conversation...

like...."BABA WAYN IL *quickly kisses dad's cheek* 3eedieyeh *runsssssss <-- dad where's the $$$$$$$

hahhaa or mayeb i ll wait till he take a nap... aaaaaaah lol soo sad.. he is my dad..

anyway... after many plans.... and consultations from my sister... i HAVE SUCCEEDED... i backed out the last minute last year lol

oh and i also GOT some ca$h Wooooo Hooo... *calculates so if i got 1000 .... 500 for each kiss.... im thinking i will kiss my dad more often... hahaha

p.s. my dad is not a monster nor is he scary... he is just soo serious and well expresses his love for us through food and money and other ways that dont include hugs/kisses heheheh..

he is just not the mushy type thats all... but he has a BIG HEART behind his BIG KARSH (belly) <==belly and frown :P

*wonders if sometimes she should keep things to herself .. tooo late for that

EID MUBARAK EVERYONE!!!

BiOniC TeT@H!

Im waiting for a mircale or sign to happen so that i know its laylat al Qadr.. im thinking maybe ill see an old granny lifting weights!! hhe i loved this illustration its so funny.. reminds me of a story my dad told me about my great great great granmother.. apparently she was soooo strong and worked all day (fil 7aqlat ya yumma)..

And well till the age of 90 she was still very strong mashala.. and one day while she was digging and planting a SNAKE BIT HER! the heels of her feet were sooo hard because of the many years she spent working on her feet! so... well.. the snake couldnt bite through lol! haahaha i think the snake died after she smashed her to death!

Not only that... my bionic teta ( allah yirhamaha) in her last years... was said to have kind of lost her mind... wait i said that wrong.. she just started to hallucinate a bit an talk to herself ..normal symptoms of being over 90... so she wanders around the house by herself...

well so one day she wandered to the balcony which was under-contruction and had no railing and well... she walked off the balacony and FELL FROM THE 2nd FLOOR...

And No... that is NOT how she DIED.. lol MASHALA... she died in bed years later! i want to be a bionic TETA someday!

TETA : GRANDMA in arabic sk :P

L@ylat Al Q@Dr

Again i repeat... Ramadan is almost over and i cant grasp that idea.. it just wont sink in.. when i compare it to my past Ramdans.. i feel really depressed*sigh*its not like it was before.. don't feel that much "barakeh" and spirituality.. its said that its signs that Judgement Day is near when u feel time passes by soo quickly...without barakeh... maybe its just me...

im just hoping i dont miss out on laylat Al Qadr... we don't realize how important this night trurely is! Laylat Al Qadr Khayrun min ALF shahr! so any deed you do on this night no matter how simple u think it is.. IT is better than whether its praying,sadaqa or even smiling in the face of ur muslim sister/brother.. oh wait let me clear on that point.. smiling in the face of ur muslim sister.. is considered sadaqa IF UR A GIRL.. if ur a GUY u better be looking away from the SISTAS (ghad al basar)heh

So men be friendly and smile to men and girlies to girlies.. :P

For those who don't know Laylat al-Qadr is a holy night also called the Night of Honor, which is equal to a THOUSAND MONTHS. All nights of Ramadan are holy nights but Laylat al-Qadr is the holiest night of this holy month. It is also the holiest night among all other holy nights throughout the entire year.

On this night, a countless number of angels descend with blessings and mercy until dawn, as they descend when the Qur’an is recited and they surround those sitting in circles in remembrance of Allah (SWT) and they lower their wings in presence of the
sincere seeker of knowledge in honor of Him.

We are not sure when it is exactly but its said to be in the final 10 days of Ramadan... most probably the 23rd 25th or 27th(most say its the 27th)...its an odd number and since every year every country decides to DISAGREE on a RAMADAN DATE! ( can we ever AGREE ON ANYTHING?)

Anyway we are left confused to which is the RIGHT NIGHT?!

so what we do in this situation is stick to the safe side and increase our efforts in ALL the last 10 nights of RAMADAN.. wa inshala we will All be lucky to win the rewards of this NIGHT.

so... why is it soo hard for us to just push oursleves in these last few days of RAmadan that are almost over... so that we can get as much rewards as possible...

Why are we soo caught up in life that when we come to pray or do something for God we feel lazy or sleepy... is it our sins that hold us back? is it too much temptation around us? i guess its both... Allahum 2u3fu 3anna

If a believer is eager to obey Allah (SWT) and increase the good deeds in his record, he should work hard to encounter this night and to pass it in worship and obedience. IF he does inshala all of his previous sins will be forgiven.

It is recommended to perform a long Qiyaam prayer and read Quran during the nights on which Lailatul Qadr could fall. This is indicated in many Hadiths, like: Abu Hurairah Radhiya Allahu `anhu reported that the Messenger of Allah, (SAW), said : "Whoever stands (in prayer) in Lailatul-Qadr out of Eemaan (faith and sincerety) and seeking reward then his previous sins are forgiven". {Bukhari}

the best prayer to say on this night is
Allahumma innaka 'affuwwun tuhibbul 'afwa fa'fu 'annee
O Allaah You are The One Who pardons greatly, and loves to pardon, so pardon me.

May GOD accept our fasting & prayers this month and Allahum Balighna Laylat Al QAdr wa la ta7rimna iyaha min thunoobna :(--- AMeeeeeeen!

Sorry this was too long but believe me its important to remind ourselves always..

Too Much CUTENE$$

Did i ever mention how much i love kids?! well... today i saw the most adorable baby my friends baby hamza!!!! mashala habeebi sooo CUTE! did anyone ever have a heart attack from seeing too much CUTENESS! im telling this baby is soo cute it hurts! i have pics to prove it! i love everything about babies! especially their tiny fingers and toes! And how they hold on to ur finger when they sleep!!! their clueless looks into space! the way their face is soo soft & squishy and ADORABLE!!! *dinos faints

today littel baby hamza 's face suddenly turned from a smile into a frown... and then then slowly got into a shade of red! first i was worried..... then i found out he was pooping! lol hahah even when they POOOOP they are CUTE! hahahahha

Akhhh ya GAlbi!!! MAshala 3alieh little hamza! Allah yi7meeh wa ybarek Feeh.. i need to rest... too much love.... my heart is going to burst with love ! hehe yes i know im emotional... cant help it! :P im a bundle of love!

*dinos is now singing " Heal the world make it a better place " .. heheh why... hmm was that last statement irrelevant ? im sure it was lol... haha ok i had coffee.. i think u noticed....

*bouncing off walls "WEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee"

BEEN TAGGED! :S

I have been asked to state nine things about myself, "weird or otherwise", and then tag six others by leaving a comment on their blogs. Hmm, okay now, let the parties begin! :P

can i mention more than 9? lol ill write more i cant write just 9! hehe
ok

1. If perfume is sprayed next to me or if i spray perfume i sneeze... 3 TIMES wara ba3d

2. When i was a kid when on the beach id enjoy eating SAND. not with a spoon but i remember munching the ones that fly in my mouth with pleasure lol (pic below)

3. When i sleep my sister tells me i do weird poses! one hand on waist the other on my cheek! LOL oh i and also talk and have long conversations in my sleep!

4. When im nervous i sometimes scratch my nose, say the stupidiest things, blink more, lose concentration, and if anything is in my hand if its a paper it automatically torn into a million pieces... if its a can it is crushed.. if its a chocolate bar it is liquified... etc lol u get the point

5. I have Absolutely NO sense of DIRECTION! no matter how many times i drove somewhere if i get to to from a different location i FREAK OUT, brain goes BLANK and end up lost in a DESERT somwhere in OMAN!

6.When im shy.. my face turns into a tomatoe! i smile.. the smile is usually directed to my feet or someones shoes! lol

7. I add ketchup to almost everything !! LOVE ketchup! ( even with ceasar salad) * crowd cringes

8. I can perfect many accent and immitate people ofcourse i have many weird sound effects.. my friends know my "baby" voice... those who have not heard it... the first reaction i get is " NIFSI AFHAM MIN WAYN bItla3 il sowt" <---- where does it come from

9. Im afraid of tight spaces! Yesterday i was in an elevator with no mirror and the walls were made out of carpet walls! i FREAKED OUT! im clausterphobic!

10. After seeing the movie JAWS when i was like 6 if im swimming in a pool or the beach i feel there is a SHARK after me! eeeek

11. Very emotional that i could cry when i watch cartoons! <-- speaking of cartoons some are very disturbing for kids! Do children have to see depressing stories?! i remember once i saw a cartoon of a fly tryin to find his mom in every episode.. and when he DID find her the last episode SHE DIES right infront of him! THAT IS JUST WRONG ! hehe anwway <-- siwar al 3asal is the cartoon.

12. i dont like to eat( pickles, olives "ZAYTOON", sheep intestines,tongues or brains<-- now that i think is weird) *disgusted look
13. Normally people are ticklish under their arms maybe their stomache or feet! mee its... (its the first time i tell the world) its my FOrehead! more like the top of my head! u should see me when i go to a salon and she has to wash my hair.. i end up giggling to myself ! ehe lol

hmm i can go on but i ill spare u more of my weird qualities...
brain to dina : hmm people will think ur a weirdo now
dina: well i think they figured that out from my previous blogs
brain: *nods sadly
dina: im not weird... i'm unique.. special... eccentric ... at least id like to tell myself that :P hehehe

pl now im tagging Abed , Lady DonDon, $im$im, Ola, the one, Weddo, Dar :)

IT$ the WeekenD?!

AAAH its the weekend!? its the 20th OF RAMADAN!!!!!! omg?! its like yesterday i was thinking RAMADAN IS HERE?!
u know when soo many events happen... and they happen SO FAST!!... u sit there in shock with too much info that just CANT SINK IN?! its like.... when someone calls me and says btw i got married i have 2 kids now... and i just cant imagine that girl who is my age... who was in my class... with 2 kids? weird.. lol

*imagines if she had 2 kids

Scene : DINO IN KITCHEN.. kids jumping on couch... breaking things... yelling at each other in the living room... then saying " MAAAAAMAAAAAA ta3aali shooooofi yusuf sho kasar!!"one kid holding on to chandelier other standing on TV!! (one kid will be yusuf i love the name) hehe

*Dinos Screaming in the kitchen " WALAAAAAAAAA INzil WALAAAAAAA" " MA TUDRUB AKHOOK LA AKKASSIR RASAK inta wiyah!!"
now the mama dinos has the ability to use shoes as frisbies!! hehe

ok i got carried away .. anyway... life is always changing... i hate dealing with change... hope its always to the better!

like the cow i drew? it was inspired by "dookie" who u will meet soon on this blog :D

KItChen Dr@mA

its funny how its RAMADAN.. and we are supposed to eat LESS not MORE... yet we spend MORE hours in the kitchen in ramadan ! its like suddenly you crave everything... and what is supposed to be ONE meal turns into one continuos meal from iftar time till FAJR! LOL

And when u have people over its even more stress and DRAMA! its like u have to give them a wider variety of food cause that reflects your hospitality & generosity! ( and hungry ppl are very demanding )

So more hours in the kitchen... more food... more stress... i had to cook yesterday and i have to say.. ITS NOT EASY! especially when a lot is going on at the same time! CAKE in the OVEN! SOUP Boiling! BAMYEH about to burn!! Oil sprinkling EVERYWHERE after throwing the SAmbosa in the oil too fast! EEEEK! it was a MESS! i was A MESS!

u know the worst is the last minutes! u suddenly remember things like OMG " IL LABAN WAYN" <-- is="" or="" strong="" the="" where="" yougart="">" WAYN IL KHUBIZ" <-- br="" bread="" is="" the="" where="">
someone yells frantically " WALAK Roooooooooooooo7 jeeeeeeeb khUBIZ" <-- br="" bread="" get="" go="" now="" some="">
* brother sprints to nearest supermarket

its like u were stuck on an island for 10 years and u suddenly sit on a table full of food! LOL
Dino$ :RELAX PEOPLE its just FOOD!!

*moment of silence... expressing how offended they were... shock/horror/disappointment written all over their faces.. group GLARES at me with threatening looks that said
" HOW DARE U" lol

* sharp objects and shoes fly at dina from all around the room! :P

so after a hectic chaotic day in the kitchen. the food was good.. there were 2 survivors lol
:P just kiddin.. * pats herself on the back.... CHef DIno$ in Da House... but i do not want to go through those last stressful moments b4 ADAN ! i felt like i was in an exam and the bell was abt to RING and i didnt finish writing!!

ALLLLLAAAAAAAAAHU AKBAR...... = ATTTTTTTTTACK!

that went well... what a happy family.... (skipping in garden) singing " lalalallalalala"

not only that but then there is the AFTER- Cooking EFFECT THE DISHES!!

The nutella cake was successful too :D yeay! MAMa was proud of me * blushing*

side life or death note : never piss off a hungry person ... especially if he/she is fasting

Meet Gu3lus!!

this is gu3lus!! he might seem like a normal stuffed toy... dont be deceived.. he is actually a CD HOLDER.... he is habeebi! :) listens to me when i need someone to talk to! he also gives the best hugs!! have him here infornt of me at my work desk! hehe u know its not only gu3lus who is not what he seems to be!! In life we will keep meeting people like him... they seem to be something and are something else... not only that... but some ppl at first seem so gorgeous and beautful and when u get to know them... slowly thier cute image is blurred out and u can only see them as UGLY!! And some ppl are actually not that fortunate when it comes to looks and when u get to know them and how kind they really are... they are the most beautiful people on earth.

u know the only negative part of being in a office full of girls? welll its GOSSIP! :S i try not to be part of it but u get sucked in sometimes... istaghfarallah... even if u dont say anything sitting there listening is just not right :S argh...

soon ill show u "poolie" and "dookie" my other friends at work lol

MY FIR$Y D@Y @ Work!

Soo... my work starts at 8 AM in ramadan which means i have to leave the house at around 6 to avoid traffic!! anyway i decided to SLEEP EARLY and as usual.. WHEN U PLAN ON SLEEPING EARLY the OPPOSITE HAPPENS! i stayed up in bed staring into space till around 3:oo AM.... had to wake up to have some coffee for suhoor or ill FAINT!! so welll had the cofffee prayed and left to work!! its weird when u leave the house BEFORE THE SUN is UP! its weird.. its like staying out late... but not really...
*blank look on face

anyhow... i forgot to mention that in the past 3 days i HAD 2 ACCIDENTS.. BOTH my fault
* APPLAUSE*

the car head lights fell off .. so did the front part... but hamduilah nothin happened to moi other than hearing some long lectures from my BABA... *biting fingernails * dinos starts writing her will

Sooooooo my first day at work was AMAZING! i love it i love it i love it.. hamdulilah :D its just the waking up early part that annoys me... dont mind leaving early! hehe my normal non ramadan work time is 7:00 AM so i have to leave the house even earlier.... EEEEEEEEEEEEK!

you know.. i had to go through a couple of crappy job experiences that included sleezy people, psycho bosses, extra hours,stress, etc...till i finally got to this one... and it just FELT RIGHT!!

but then again its just my first day.. but thre is no perfect job.. is there? *wonders

* twilight zone music plays in her head lol inshala khier

And i know i would not have appreciated it this way unless if i had bad experiences... sub7annALLAH... i think this same theory applies to meeting "THE ONE"! i know when i meet him it will just feel RIGHT!

I GOTTA SLEEP! ooopss i mean... i dont want to sleep.. ( reverse psychology)... does that work on yourself? lol ARGH... the cycle is happening again... HELP!

GUe$$ Who Got A JoB?!

yes yes yes... its MOI!

*CROWD ROARS*

*dino$ takes a bow*

i think its abt time now to start workign again... al hamduliALLAH its amazing how we keep planning things in life and then God has something else planned for us.... i got a call from an old friend from uni who said they need a graphic designer and she suggested me * shy* sub7anallah i went and everything was great the environment is amazing... its closer to home.. less working hours.. i feel truely blessed!! not only that but i found out that another good friend of mine works in the company! sub7annALLAH!

Hamduililah i think its because of Ramadan prayers!! so i start in 3 days officially! Wish me Luck!

R@mAD@n MuB@raK!

RAMADAN is HERE!! sub7annAllah.. how fast days go by! i love Ramadan!! i love how ur phone doesnt stop ringing with calls and msgs from ppl who sometimes rememeber u ONCE every year! lol i wont complain cause i do the same..

i love how the masajid are full!! i love how people suddenly are nicer and invite each other over and suddenly become sweeter! And ofcourse i love the yummy food!!! There is an indescribable feeling of spirtuality in the air.. something not tangible or seen... its felt... especially around fajr... or at tarawee7 prayers...

I LOVE RAMADAN! SO GLAD IT IS HERE! just wish we all would realize how truely precious these days are rather than spending them watching tv shows and thinking mainly abt food and late night gatherings...

Who knows this could be your LAST Ramadan.... lets all make the best of this HOLY MONTH...

RAmadAn Mobarak... i was told that if u have any prayers you want answered... pray them every night in ramadan when you break your fast and inshala b4 next RAmadan they will be ANSWERED :)

i wrote a list already ... u do the same! MAy GOd bless you all and answer all your prayers...

M@turity?

ive been told that im older than my age.. that mabe my experiences in life have made me more mature than most people my age.. dont know if that is a good thing... ive also been told that i could be too nice and trusting that gives out the impression that im "childish" or " immature" lol hmmm make up ur mind people?! well i know what i am.. i am mature enough to sit there with a 40/50/ 60 year with no problem having a deep meaningful conversation ... childish enough to spend hours playing with kids and makign all sorts of goofy noises ...

what does maturity mean? it only means that u are now acting MORE aware of how crappy life is!! After that realization of the abundance of deception,cruelty,backstabbing,selfishness, immorality,destruction
,fakeness,poverty,jealousy,greed.. etc.. its hard to be gullible,trusting,positive,and all those braidy bunch & legally blonde feelings!

YOu realize how stupid you were thinking life was simple... a nice bed time story no longer makes the "monsters" go away... a chocolate bar doesnt heal or fix what the years have broken...a good friend could also end up being a GREAT enemy... Happiness is no longer based on watching cartoons like " 3adnan o lina" "peter pan" " snow white" "grandizer" etc... didn we get bored as kids watching the same episodes over an over again?!

is it part of growing up that we get sick of things easily?! Why are we so hard to please now?! Why is it the older we get the more we feel the old days were much better!? I worry abt my future and how the next generation will be!!

i always said i would never change no matter what experiences i go through but even ROCKS are worn out by the continuous water flow.. i have changed... not in a bad way though.. im more aware of things now...

yet i know I ROCK!! ... but :P still i think we all change in the cycle of life... i hope i did to the better.. i just hope i never forget how to have fun and appreciate the simple things in life...
cause that would simply be DEPRESSING! *sigh*

p.s. the cow in the pic was my key chain... sadly i lost it.. nothing but this pic to remind me of my cute cow...

also attached is a jey chain that says " i smile because i have no idea what is going on" <-- sooo meeeeee :P

* eyes tearing.. hugs knees... rocks herself in dark corner lol

Going B@ck

After 3 whole months of jordan adventure$... its time to go back to uae... have u ever felt schizophrenic? like you don't know what you want? like you want to be in two places in the same time?! Do two total opposite things ? its like " to work or not to work" jordan/uae" all sorts of life changing decisions i always have to make.. and i just feel indifferent to everything... that id be okay no matter what happens.. i do have goals but i also adapt to changes quickly.. :S

Anyway... i have a confession to make... one of my phobias are planes... ok i dont have any tantrums and never run around a plane screaming scenes from "final destination" like " WE ARE ALLL GONNA DIE!!!" but seriously i hate the idea of being up so high.. life depending on pressure and an engine...

i also recently saw the movie " SNAKES ON A PLANE".. not a good movie to watch when u want to travel !!!!

i remember once we were on a plane to jordan and there was major turbulence... the pilot said " ma tkhafo hay matabat hawa2iyeh"... till that day i never knew there were MATABAT in the sky! lol translation for this is kind of weird.. apparently there are road bumps in the sky :P

its not only the fear of flights.. its the fear of ending up next to a freak of nature or someone sleezy etc.....

once i was next to a man who decides to start drinking wine... in islam we are not supposed to even sit in a room where somene is drinking... so it felt weird... now i was thinking to myself... should i JUMP OFF THE PLANE?

anyway gotta finsih packing.. gonna miss jordan... mostly my family here :(--- ill blog from uae inshala later with flight adventures..

Love i$ Blind vs. Blind to Love

ok warning im sensing a cheesy post coming up so if u cant take my cheesiness i suggest u move on to another blog :P we all have heard the saying that "love is blind"..i will not argue with that at all for i have seen my share of people blinded by love... IVE SEEN :

*the hottest girls falling for shrek lookalikes ( viseversa) they see them gorgeous ofcourse..

( no i dont believe love that is based merely on looks im just stating facts ) shrek was a good movie too :) it just shows when u love a person no matter how ugly he might be u will see beyond his smelly fart breath, broken teeth,big hairy belly and green skin :D

*decent girls falling for players...

*religious guys falling for lets just say not so decent girls... in both cases those good ppl see thier partners as angels :s

*a very well educated guy fallin for a girl with the IQ of a GOLDFISH....

its sad but true.. love IS blind...

A mother loves her children soo much that no matter what they do they are seen as the best kids in the world... they are flawless in their eyes.. i recall in a wedding an anti came up to me and was tryin to hook me up with her son.. she points at him and says to me.. IBNI SUPERMAN! lol i doubt her son is superman but she surely did seem SURE of it :P

anyway.... no to my cheesy theory hehe.. ok so i guess we all agree that love is blind wa God help those who fall in love ! but recently ive realized that we can also be Blind to LOVE ..

*violion and piano romantic background music is now playing in the background

Love is not just like the movies... someone singing to u at your window...

writing you poetry.. holding hands...walks on the beach...

showering u with gifts and roses

drawing your portrait.. giving you flowers..

laughing at each others jokes even when they are silly...

giving you thier jacket when u are cold...

saying u look beautiful even when u feel u look like uve been hit by a bus/tornando/tsunami... cooking a candle-lit dinner for u... watchin the sunset..

ok im gettin carried away lol so m sure by now... u GOT the picture

That hardly lasts even in the best love stories.. and ITS NATURAL.. ITS LIFE...

Love is when you stay up all night worried abt your husband praying that he will be okay..

its crying to see him in pain..

its running down the stair hysterically when you find out he is out of the operation room...

its turning the garage light on so that ur wife can park the car at night...

its going around the supermarket looking for the "jibneh" or " labaneh" she likes!

its throwing a flying " shib shib"(slipper) at ur son for disrespecting her lol

side note * if u are ever hit by a flying shoe/shib shib/object....

u MUST feel the LOVE !! lol

i have to admit ppl express love in the weirdest ways... and its not always poetry... we have to learn how to see beyond the

" yi2ta3 il yom il itjawaztak feeeh" talk lol <- " i curse the day i married u"

i learnt that people who act like they cant stand each other or at least claim they cant stand to be around each other are actually inseperable and in love in a different more realistic and discrete type of way...

They cant live with or without each other :) that is true love :P hehe

conclusion... will i marry the next guy who gets me my favorite "labaneh"? hmmm maybe not.. but if its chocolate ill consider :P hehehehe

confession:i still am a sappy romantic :P yet the picture of love in my mind has changed a bit

p.s. my dad is much much better.. back on his feet and yelling at the top of his lungs at me again :) never thought i would be soo happy to hear him yell at me :P not sure ill be this happy a week from now lol thanks for the emotional support

*GROUP HUG*

i have learnt soo many valuable lessons this summer... will share in the next post :) ta ta

D@Ddy is $ick

i guess im still in jordan... dad had a serious operation in his neck.. somethin to do with "discs' and nerves... he is much better now but seeing him soo weak and helpless made me realize he is no longer young :(-- its soo scary to see your dad like that.. ESPECIALLY my DAD... he was always the symbol of strength in the house... we respect him and well i have to say fear him to a certain point.. not fear as in a horror movie.. lol well ok only when i did somethin wrong.. but anyway.... it was emotionally draining to see him in bed.. unable to get on his feet or even eat without someones help...

i felt horrible and the sadest part is its soo hard for me to just say what i feel to him! i want to tell him im here.. that i love him.. that its ok to need someone every oncne in a while... all that comes out is " BABA BiDAK TAKul" :S " Dad wanna eat?"

well i feel he expressses he loves us and cares for us when he buys us loads of chocolates and biscuits and gives us money.. i guess im not that different afterall :S i have no problem expressing my feelings to anyone.. but to my dad its like there is a steel wall i cant break through!! i sit there planning if i want to give him a kiss on a cheek!! hehe sad but true..

he is better now hamdulilah... but its an experience i dont ever want to experience again... when he is sick i feel we all are... you don't appreciate what you have till you lose it.. and well i felt how much i take my dad for granted... and im glad i realized this without losing him..

please pray that he will get well .... next blog will be more cheerful i promise :)

Brain Overload

Have soo much info that needs to be released from my brain cells!!! I 've been in jordan for way too long... Jordan where beggars follow u around saying
" Allah yib3atlik wa7ad 3yoono zurug"
(translation: May God send u someone with blue eyes" lol

i have been goin to many social gatherings here and well i miss that in uae cause we dotn have much family there... so apparently im not missing out on much... all they seem to want to talk abt is MARRAIGE!!! Every summer i feel more and more like a sack of potatoes! They gossip about everyone with a heartbeat or without a heartbeat! hehe i hate that.. Seen soo much fakeness this month to last a lifetime..

A lady followed me in C Town ... (for those who dont know what it its.. its a big supermarket) anyway as i was standing.. minding my own business 3ind the cereal section i find this lady smiling at me and i was like ok... she is being friendly.. and smiling in the face of your muslim sister is a Sadaqa.. so i smiled back... eeeek :S soooo.. this sweet lady started to appear everywhere i go... first i thought it was a cooincidence.... till she yelled out loud " YA BINITTTTTTT YA BINIT"

i look around confused.. shocked... hoping she didnt mean me!!! till i looked her direction and saw her waving her hands hysterically and pointing at me saying " AAH INTI YA BINIT"
side note: she was an old lady and had a chait in her hand where she would walk and then sit and stare!! :S

still confused by this weird old lady.. i was like ok i will see what she wants from me... thought maybe she was lost or needed help... so she goes " wallahi inik 7ilweh" emmm i was flattered.. blushing didn know what to say... till she said" MAKHTOOOOOOOOBEH" <--engaged? i wanted to run away... she asked where my father was... was i supposed to say " HAYO 3ind il martadilla" lol sooooo i tried to avoid her... then she appears again with some old guy who i assumed was her husband ... and she said " WAYN ABOOKI" "where is ur dad!"

i dunno how i managed to get out of it.. but i guess i should of never smiled back at her.... it would of been a nice story to tell the kids " wallah ya wlad it3araft 3ala 7amati fi C TOWN"
ehehe no that did not make me feel like an item on sale at ALLLLLLL! lol

anyway... i went to like 4 weddings since ive been here and 2 in a row in the same hotel! and have like 3 more to go to b4 i leave! i have learnt not to smile at ladies.. it leads to major stalking and then proposals in supermarkets lol

anyway this is something i read and would like to share :)

The rules of POLITICAL CORRECTNESS when it comes to the Israeli-Arab conflict:

Rule # 1: In the Middle East, it is always the Arabs that attack first, and it's always Israel who defends itself. This is called "Retaliation".

Rule # 2: The Arabs, whether Palestinians or Lebanese, are not allowed to kill Israelis. This is called "Terrorism

m" Rule # 3: Israel has the right to kill Arab civilians, this is called "Self-Defense", or these days "Collateral Damage".

Rule # 4: When Israel kills too many civilians. The Western world calls for restraint. This is called the "Reaction of the International Community".

Rule # 5: Palestinians and Lebanese do not have the right to capture Israeli military, not even a limited number, not even 1 or 2. This is called "Kidnapping".

Rule # 6: Israel has the right to capture as many Palestinians as they want (Palestinians: around 10000 to date, 300 of which are children, Lebanese 1000s to date, being held without trial). There is no limit; there is no need for proof of guilt or trial. This is called "War on Terrorism".

Rule # 7: When you say "Hezbollah", always be sure to add "supported by Syria and Iran". this is called: "Axis of Evil"

Rule # 8: When you say "Israel", never say "supported by the USA, the UK and other European countries", for people (God forbid) might believe this is not an equal conflict. This is called "Helping our Friends"

Rule # 9: When it comes to Israel, don't mention the words "occupied territories", "UN resolutions", "Geneva conventions". This could distress the audience and is called "Anti-Semitism".

Rule # 10: Israelis speak better English than Arabs. This is why we let them speak out as much as possible, so that they can explain rules1 through 9. This is called "Neutral Journalism".

Rule # 11: If you don't agree with these rules or if you favor the Arab side over the Israeli side, you must be a very dangerous anti-Semite. You may even have to make a public apology if you express your honest opinion like Mel Gibson. this is called "Democracy".

Feeling U$ele$$

One of the worst feelings in the world is the feeling of helplessness... is seeing and knowing your family,friends and country are being bombed every second.. and not being able to do anything but pray!!!!! Yes we should not underestimate the power of our prayers! But what hurts the most is not just that we are unable to help those who are far away suffering.. its that those who can help or can ALLOW us to help are the ones STOPPING US!!

So many pathetic spys looking in the wrong direction! Sad greedy materialistic low lives who would kill their own mothers for some money!!! Morals & Ethics are long forgotten!!

What saddens me the most isnt just ISRAEL! WE always knew israel and expected everything that is happening right now!!! What repulses me, disappoints me, makes me sick to my stomache is the current ARAB situation! They are crippled by fear from ISrael and America they dont even flinch to the continous INHUMANE bloodsheds that go on ! Not only that.. lots of volunteers from Jordan/Syria are shot on the borders of lebanon and palestine.... NOT by israeli soldiers!!!!!!!!!!

Do we have to wait till the gun is pointed at our head?! Till we lose our own family members?! Why is it the we disconnect ourselves from those suffering around the world! WE watch tv and bodies being loaded into trucks and buried.. we might shed a few tears.. then we move on with our lives.. laughing, eating sleeping hanging out with our friends, attending weddings.. no actions taken!!

Our words of compassion and sympathy are INSINCERE when are followed by actions that contradict what we SAY!

Sad world we live in today.. Cruelty has become a casualty..
Peoples lives have suddenly become worthless and insignificant.. Peace is a word that is tainted with the blood of so many innocent victims that there is no way it can be

Blinded by our selfishness we will never take action till they threaten our own life.. Dont we realize that it could of been us in their place? Dont we know that this evanescent world is not supposed to be our aim .. That we should live as passers by till after this life is over we go to eternity in heaven Inshala!!

Why is it that people fear everything... heights, poverty,death,THE BIRDS FLUE eetcccc!!
They fear people MORE than theyfear GOD! WE should ONLY fear GOD.. For HE has created this world with everything in it... And we will have our VICTORY one day... not because of our military strength... not because we have all united... only becuse GOD is with US and with TRUE FAITH in our hearts INshala GOD IS ON OUR SIDE!!

Crime against humanity

Sorry for attaching these images which are pretty graphic but i doubt the BBC or EURONEWS will be showing anything like this... I was flipping though the news channels and all i felt was disappointment and more shame!! Arabs all around the world are just watching while people in palestine, lebanon and Iraq are being killed. Its not just about MUSLIMS anymore its not only about ARABS its about HUMANITY!

Israel's Cold Blooded murders to innocent civilians is seen as " SELF DEFENCE"!!!!!!!!

what the?!! Why is it that when Israel bombs anywhere its SELF DEFENCE! And when Arabs try to defend their country they are "TERRORISTS" !!

Why is it that an israeli life is seen more precious in the eyes of the media when thousands of Arabs are killed everyday and NO ONE does anything about it!!! Even ANIMALS have rightS!!

I remember seeing some Cop series on tv! They spent a whole day tryin to SAVE A CAT that was stuck in some sewage somewhere! And the drama i witnessed made me feel sorry for the ARAB WORLD! Or after the gulf war when they started saving the ducks and sea animals and well what about HUMANITY for a change?!

They had more sympathy towards an animal than they do towards HUMAN BEINGS!!

ISrael recently bombed a bus of civilians that was heading towards SYRIA!! They are bombing homes and killing women and children!! Not only that but they are using ILLEGAL WEAPONS CLUSTER BOMBS & RUBBER BULLETS! Weapons that are known to cause burns and injuries in soft tissue.

Dr Saqqa who has been working in the Al Shifa Hospital for almost 10 years said he had never seen such wounds before. I thought it was just because the attack was from a close distance or that the temperature of bullets penetrating the bodies of injured or killed people were so high they were causing burns.

Enrichment of uranium for use in nuclear weapons and reactors produces various waste products, including so-called depleted uranium (DU). For the past twenty-five years, the U.S. Department of Defense has produced ammunition using this nuclear waste, which is both radioactive and chemically toxic. Evidence of environmental and human health damage caused by depleted uranium has steadily increased, despite Pentagon assertions that such impacts would not occur. The United Nations Human Rights Commission Sub-Commission on Prevention of Discrimination and Protection of Minorities considers DU munitions to be weapons of mass destruction or with indiscriminant effect and incompatible with international HUMANITARIAN law.

What is Depleted Uranium?

Depleted uranium (DU) is a waste byproduct of the enrichment of natural uranium for use in nuclear reactors and nuclear weapons. DU is mostly composed of Uranium isotope 238, but does contain small amounts of more highly radioactive U-234 and U-235. DU created when used nuclear fuel is reprocessed may also contain plutonium and other extremely dangerous substances. The half-life of DU (the time it takes for half to decay and turn into another substance) is 4.5 billion year


On July 12, Israel killed 22 Palestinians in Gaza, including nine civilians from one family. An economic, political and physical siege has been placed on the Palestinian people. In the past two weeks, the Israeli bombardment has killed eighty Palestinians, knocked out power and water for the majority of Gaza’s 1.3 million inhabitants, and pummeled Gaza’s infrastructure with thousands of artillery shells. The international community has been silent on the sidelines, while Israeli forces bombed Gaza back twenty years—as it promises to do with Lebanon. While the premeditated assault on Gaza continues, Israel still holds nearly 10,000 abducted Palestinians, including many members of the Palestinian government.

10,000?!?! hmmm so it is not self defence to try to get back our hostages but for them to bomb lebanon for 2 israeli hostages that were taken IN RETURN for their own is NOT SELF DEFENCE!!!!

This war is not just LEBANON or PALESTINE! It IS CRIME AGAINST HUMANITY!! And anyone with HALF A HEART can see that ISRAEL is NOT the VICTIM HERE! Dont let the MEDIA mislead you into believing that israel is victimized! They dont show 0.00001% of what is really goin on in palestine & lebanon!!

The least we can do right now is unite in our PRAYERS... Don't underestimate the power of PRAYERS... LEts ALL pray That GOD WILL BE BY OUR SIDE AND HELP OUR BROTHERS & SISTERS in PALESTINE, LEBANON & IRAQ!!

check this link and check out how innocent ISRAELI KIDS ARE!!!!
http://sabbah.biz/mt/archives/2006/07/17/photo-of-the-day-israeli-kids-sends-gifts-of-love-to-arab-kids/

Zipper Needed!!

So... i sometimes say things without thinking.. or say things then think " OMG WHAT DID I JUST SAY!" im not talkin abt gossip here... although i admit i am guilty of sometimes being drawn to the gossip talk... im a woman and its in my genes... unlike men woman have the need to express their emotions...

So there is normal average woman who express themselves and then there is ME!! lol

I on the other hand can't keep my feelings to myself.. i feel like id explode!!

whether they are negative or positive.. i blurt them out... whether its a sillythought or somethng meaningful... i HAVE TO GET IT OUT! or my skin will start to itch and ill go into multiple siezures! hehe

it sometimes those feelings are temporary feelings and are just caused by a certain event and fade away and are best left inside... but no.. me being me... i have to always say what is on my mind... what i feel... then i suffer the consequences... and i say.. i will learn.. but i can't change th way i am.. i just have to find some sort of zipper for my mouth!

And when im nervous its even worse!! i start saying 10000000000 words per second... i jump into 1000 topics that are totally UNRELATED to each other... id start talking abt the weirdest things! like once i met ppl for the first time and i shared how when i was in kg2 i wet my pants and was sent home... HOW I BROUGHT THAT UP in the first 5mins??? I DONT KNOW! Were they impressed? hmm more like STUNNED, SHOCKED REVOLTED and that piece of info i should of been kept to myself... hmmmm why do i feel i just did it again? sharing my embarrasing stories across continents lol

SOMEBODY STOP ME!!!!

JorD@n Upd@tes

Jordan is Cool! the weather is amazing! Everyone seems to have planned my future with thier son or neighbor... its annoying... as if i have nothing to do with it!

I believe in fate and love and that when you meet the "ONE" you will KNOW... In life we will meet people who we like who simple dont see us in that way.. and viseversa... we should not dwell on such things and have faith that God will bring what is best for each person...

Yes i should be realistic and its not just abt love.. nothing is like the movies... but i know for a fact when i meet him ill just KNOW.. its not like buying a car... its the rest of your life!

you can't force yourself to love someone... nor can you force someone to love you.. its not something you can plan .. not something that needs convincing...

Sometimes you are convinced someone is right for you for many reasons then you realize they are not and that it was all in your head...

When you like someone i think everything they do will be taken as a hint that they like you back
no matter how you act... they sometimes tend to imagine things... or exaggerrate the simplest things like you being yourself as a sign...

anyway... i hate the process of getting hurt or hurting someone .. guess its life.... we just have to learn from our mistakes..

IN JORDAN!

wow first blog from jordan... the weather is amazing here... i wish i could say the same abt the taxi's lol i hate amman taxi drivers... i hope i dont have to take many cabs

the flight was nie its weird when you actually think of the idea of the plan in the air.. sub7annallah.. its just amazing... anyway.. there are a lot weddings and engagemnets to go to each summer...

ill try to blog more :)

Dino$ Thought$

More time on my hands so i have more time to think and share my thoughts!! My mind is continously thinking about life and i try to find answers to the endless questions i have... i just end up with more deeper questions and a blank look on my face... Sometimes feel im a patient in an operation room who has just woken up from a deep comma.. looking around in confusion tryin to figure out the world around me... my illustration shows how i feel :)

I was thinking about different things like beauty& intelligence and the ways people follow many stereotypes to measure things in life.. So to be considered intelligent does it mean you should get straight A's? Do your grades determine how intelligent you are? Einstien was a failure in school and look how he turned out!

And what about beauty? im not goin to say " beauty lies within" or "its in the eye of the beholder" to avoid sounding cheesy ... but i beleive beauty is what is natural what GOd has created.. i dont think going through many plastic surguries and ending up looking like a barbie or somehow plastic as a way to be beautiful..

These days i flip through the channels and i feel all the singers and women on tv look alike! maybe they go to the same plastic surgeon! sad... but true.. some actually have facial expressions that seem to have stuck after the operation.. soo much weird stuff injected in their faces they cant even smile without looking constipated!! lol

I believe everyone is beautiful in their own way.. or has a certain beauty to them.. not many are as fortunate as charles theron or brad pitt... :P

I believe that each person is born with a gift or many gifts.. some might not be great in school or with grades.. might be great artists or even scientists someday! Intelligence should not be measured by A's or C's which are mere letters to label ppl! i've seen people who were the considered the smartest kids in school.. make the stupidest decision in thier life...

Know Me Better :)

this is for you LAdy D .. sorry its late.. i recieved a similar email ill answer:)

5 people who top your craplist, and why
- liars hypocrites & show offs
- haifa wahbi and all " boos il wawa" amthal
- people who are muslims and give out the wrong impression
abt islam with thier unilsamic actions...
- sharon tab3an wa kol 2a3da2 il islam
- ba3rafsh liesh bas ILHAAM SHAHEEN & Mohammad Muneer!!


Close brushes with death dangers:

lol i lost track but ill mention the ones i remember
- i was hit by a car when i was in the gulf war in kuwait...
- i almost drowned as a kid, and more than once jumped in shallow water and
HIT MY HEAD cause i thought it was deep! lol
- jumped off a closet when i was a kid with bed sheets on my back sayin i was " superwoman"
landed on my back! OUCH
- Have had more than one car accident... nothin serious but could of been many times
- Was almost kidnapped as a kid

lots more i forgot ...


5 Guilty Pleasures
- The guilt u feel after having CHOCOLATE! yummy!
- The guilt we feel after playin pranks on friends when they feel soo stupid for fallin for your prank! lol
-The guilt you feel when you take somethin away from a kid and he starts crying
- The guilt you feel for laughing when someone said a hilarious joke abt someone else
- The guilt you feel after Sleeping way too much...


5 Things you never want to forget:
-The moment i opned my eyes after the lazic operation and COULD SEE WIthout GLASSES
-The moment i first saw al ka3bah
-How it felt to play in the snow ( hown ma fe snow ) :(---
-How it feels to be a young so that when i grow up i will know how to deal with my kids
-A dream i had once..

5 Things you wish to forget
- Someone i had grown attached to for a while who simply walked out of my life...
- The death of my close friend in an accident
- The many mistakes i have done in my life
- My school days when i was a major geek lol
- A nightmare i had more than once..

5 really exotic dishes you have tried:
-Mansaf YUMMA!
-Msakhan we fREEAKA!
-Sumagiyah ( i think this is as exotic as it gets)

5 crushes/loves in your life… in chronological order:
5 bass? :P
when i was in Grade 2 i liked this called call hani in my class and asked him to marry me lol
when i was in Grade 4 i think.. i liked my teacher!!!
in University i had one major crush....
*blushing.. khalas bikafee... eyyyyyyyy

Strangest dream you've ever had
i sleep a lot.. ya3ni i dream alot... but one of the weirdest dreams i had was one where i saw myself but it wasnt really me but some evil witch possessing my body!! and she was making tea for my teta and mom! and she put some poisong or seomthing! i was SCReaming but no one can HEAR ME or see me and thought i was that EVIL witch!! CREEPY film hindi!

once i prayed istikhara for a guy who proposed and well i dreamt he was scratching his head with his SHOE!! LOL weird.... glad that didnt work out lol

5 most valued personal possessions
- my wallet with all my karakeeb in it and pics
- my car soona! ( which btw i finally WASHED)
- little notes i keep from friends and cards from the kids i teach sayin " love u miss dina"awww
- many gifts that i got from ppl who were dear to me...

ill edit it with more answers later :) enjoy

I QUIT!!!

Well... after 3 months of working.. i have had enough lol.. not its not that ive had enough.. more than one thing happened... i know i made the right decision to leave..

i just didnt belong there and felt i had to leave... im soo happy now... i can appreciate the concept of : TIME!!!

no more stress! long TRAFFIC hours!!! NO MORE BOSS! this what i call...
PURE HAPPINESS!!!

i have soo many thoughts that are stuck in my mind waiting to be blogged... so i dunno where to start... i learnt soo much this past 3 months... its different to work and have a taste of the real world.. where MONEY is everything.. and everyone forgets everything when it comes to that... its sad... but true...

we live in a materialistic world and people dont really care abt ethics, morals, what is right and wrong.. its all abt getting what they want..and stepping on whoever gets in their way.. getting what they want no matter how they do it.

i miss the old days when my troubles in life were whether i got a "mickey mouse" or "mini mouse"lunch box to school... the older i get the more nostalgic i feel to those KG days :P

i got lots of job offers hamdulilah but im think im goin to take a break b4 i go back to the stress again... :) guess you'll be reading more thoughts

Why?

Why is it soo hard to express my feelings toward my family and parents when they should be the closest to me? I find no problem hugging total strangers but i cant even imagine huggin my dad... its like a mission...

im a very emotional person.. try not to be dramatic.. but i guess my sensitivity sometimes causes me a bit of a heartache... i worry too much abt the world and the ppl i know... and i feel guilty most of the time for things i shouldnt feel guilty about...

the other day my mom said somethin that freaked me out.. she said she is 57! and that my dad is 65!! i never saw my parents as old or getting old... i always see them as young and i guess in my head they both stopped at the age 40!!

May GOd bless them with long lives... its just soo creepy... and i soon ill be 60 and thinking .. omg... im shixshty yearsh old.. *cough cough....

sigh.... i worry too much... abt everything... wish i knew what the future holds for me... im jsuts too impatient and worried abt my future.... *sigh especially that now is the pasts future :S creepy thought

BLoGgiNg From Work

First time i blog from work!! well we moved to new offices.. as soon as i figured out the way to the other office they tell me we are moving!!! so im back to gettin lost everyday again!! I just designed these two silly cartoons for the bathrooms... FOR male/ female.. Duhhh...

Anyway....yesterday this lady was daydreamin while she was driving and drove into my car... she came down saying " oo sorry emergency break mam" :S i was like its ok ... i understand .. me of all people... i understand lol

So.. that moment.. when she hit my car... i got flashbcks of my life... i saw myself goin to kg... with my mickey mouse lunchbox in my hand... kissin my mom goodbye... then i saw myself with my big glasses that covered half my face... that ofcourse are at the tip of my flat button nose... and dresses that my mom made me wear... then i saw myself graduate.... and then graduate again from uni ... then at work... i saw my whole life pass me by.... *sigh*

i realized how ur life could end in a blink of an eye... how we dont have that possibility in our mind? we know it.. just dont really beleive it... we feel it could happen to anyone .. BUT ME?!

i thought of all the things i felt my life revolves around .. they suddenly seemed unimportant... the things i wanted to have done... the time i wasted... the dreams that just became dust in the wind.... the regrets.. the memories... people i dont want to leave behind.. people who probably would have no clue i existed... these thoughts overwhlemed me..

ok im being a drama queen... but really... that second... felt like a lifetime... i dont wan to die without feeling i have accomplished somethin in this life... *sigh*

Life is Ironic

The older i get... the more i feel life is ironic... how 2 sisters that share the same home and parents could be totally different in so many ways.. and 2 total strangers who live in the opposite sides of the world with total differnet cultures would have soo much in common... i find that amusing.... what even more amusing is how blogs can actually let ppl meet from all around the world... its a small world really... we are all connected in one way or the other...

especially in the arab world.. everyone knows everyone... you meet someone and as soon as they know ur full name they ask u a billion questions on " do u know bla bla"
and u sit there confused and wondering... ok im not good with names.. but even if i was good with names and had a memory that never failed me.. i dont think i would know someone who is probably 50 years old... soo i suggest u call my parents :P

before i used to think it was the environment around you which makes ur personality become what it is.. i think its not that.. its the experiences.. maybe a bit of genetics is involved too... or maybe chocolate intake..hehe i feel whar personally changed me the most is religion and how i apply it in my life... it just gave sense to my life...a sense of direction.. first i was lost... now at least i know where i want to be :) HAmdulilah (Thank God)

May GOd guide us all to the right path always :) Ameen

Internet Vs. Reality

When i first started blogging i got to meet my sweet friend and cyber twin sk who seemed to share all my crazy thoughts and we both are tall and love chocolate!! So we started emailing and getting to know each other and i felt we clicked and it was soo real! i didnt know how it would be in real life! so recently she came to dubai for a visit and we met! and now i know that internet and reality are not that different :) that only applies to situations when the person you were talkin to was honest and not a pathalogical or compulsive liar

im glad i got to meet my cyber twin Sk :) and i find this thought that internet and real life are not too different somewhat comforting cause i really have met a lot of nice ppl online and i know in real life they are probably as nice :) i hope...

sk has moved from cyber twin to real life twin :) so sad she has to leave sooon :( boo hoo!!

this recent realization about net and reality.... made me rethink the whole "falling in love" with someone b4 seeing them... it could happen... i guess.. you could fall in love with someone online... or could u? hmmmmmmmm

Monkey Theory!

You know those days you feel that you just dont want to see anyone... you dont want to be seen... not feeling gorgeous... feel unappreciated... unloved... loved by some psychos...

sometimes you feel this way because certain ppl you care abt or love dont care as much or at least they dont express they way you do... And those who care abt u make u feel bad cause you dont see them much like u used to... a cloud of guilt follows you wherever you go...

i started thinking abt the idea of rejection and how sometimes you see people who are amazing in every way.. that you cant imagine how someone would not see them the way you do.. those ppl come to you telling you they were rejected or heart broken.. that that someone just didnt see them in THAT WAY... got me thinking...

just cause you fall for someone who doesnt see you or appreciate you the way you need to be appreciated... it doesnt make u less special..

Its like a pearl or diamond necklace... if given to a kid or lets say even a monkey.. they would probably attempt to eat it or throw it away...

does it make that necklace worth any less that it is? NO!
does it make the monkey worth it? NO...

its just that the MONKEY doesnt have enough brain cells to realize how precious the diamonds really are... yet he reaches for the BANANA ....

Its just a matter or fate sometimes just a matter of taste... sometimes even we meet ppl who seem perfect and have qualities that you usuallly would go for.. but you just don't feel the click... and sometimes you fall for monkeys who break your heart cause they have no clue what you are truely worth...

so...always know its not you... HE is the MONKEY!

SH@wermA$ Are ON ME!!

ok.. i did promise you all shawerma for my first salary... and due to the circumstances that i might ever meet any one of u ... here is a pic of me cutting a shawerma up for you guys.. i swear its ME ! no i dont have a part time job as a Shawerma MAn...

yet i did want a pic with the shwerma since i love shawerma soo much ! ehehe

so this was taken last summer... i just cropped the rest of me out... the rest of the pic is me smiling a SIGNAL 2 smile to the cam... lol

i had a weird sense of power when i held that knife lol i remember how i ran to the shawerma guy in jordan and asked him if i could borrow his cutting knife for a pic lol... things like that only happen in my life... im crazy i know...


SO here u guys go... pick up ur CYBER SHWERMAS NOW! :) hehhe enjoy lol

i am soo tired working as a graphic designer i think id make a great 3amo shawerma man !

OH NO just remembered i have work tomorrow !!!!!

HOW DID THE WEEKEND FINISH!!AAAAAH :(===

ITS THE WEEKEND!!!

its Thursday night....wooooo hooo! *Dino* starts* fireworks!*

oh the bliss.... i dont want to sleep cause as soon as i do i will only have one more day left and then its work again!! SIGH! i have no life... i hardly see my own parents...

i forgot how it feels like to sit and wonder what i could do with my free time... but surprisingly i feel i get more done now with no time... :S

* Scratches head with confusion and counts on fingers

* Still confused scratching head vigorously.. head bleeding lol haha

still no answer

im getting carried away with my imagination again...

When i had soo much time i forgot all the things i wanted to do and i totally wasted it... Now that i have no time everyday i think of the many things i want and could be doing instead of sitting there starin at a screen all day... but do manage to fit some things in my schedule..

Its like when you buy a new treadmill or massage chair or anything new that catches your attention and u say " im definitely gonna use it".. u might use it a couple of times..

after a while its just there taking up perfect space and collecting dust...

we always say we will do things or think we will do things and blame it on circumstances when we dont... get BORED easily... distracted easily.. or simply LAZY... ehehe

i know when there is a will there is a way... Soo weird how when we are determined to do something we do it no matter what the circumstances... what am i talking abt? how did my weekend topic end up being soo philosophical.... lol

what i am tryin to say is.... us human beings are never satisfied with what we have ... we always feel that the grass is always greener on the other side... i am tryin to live my life thinkin that maybe i am on the greener side of the grass :)

hamduillah ( thank God) for everything... i feel blessed today... dead tired... yet blessed

Segreg@tion Mode

Have u ever felt the need to be alone? A need to just to have ur space. I usually get that need when im not happy or just simply depressed.. i hate going out or seeing people... laughin when its not really from my heart...

So.. why am i unhappy u ask? hmm hadmulilah i have my health my family a good job lots of friends.. i really dont want to say im unhappy... but its just those moments of plain emptiness when you feel ur life is passing you by and your not where you thought you would be.. and things arent going as you planned... i think its a phase.. it will pass..

i feel an emptiness in my heart..in my soul.. *sigh

not even a bar of chocolate filled that space!

Im $ick @gaiN

i didnt go to work... wish i enjoyed this day i took off.. but i didnt go cause im sick... spent the day in bed.... everytime i leave bed i feel my body is magnetically drawn back to it! i think tis food poisoning again... my advice dont eat any chicken.. especially not from fast food restaurants...

just talkin abt it gives me a pukey feeling....

at least i have time to blog today lol.. so i went to a restaurant the other day and i broke a glass... and i have to mention that i ALWAYS break cups in restuarants .... its like a thing i do.. not intentionally ofcourse .. soo embarassing but i walk and i dont pay attention...

reminds me of the time i tripped on my own foot! HAVE U ever met anyone who TRIPS ON THIER OWN FOOT?! LOL i mean how did it get in the way!? well i was nervous that day planning not to fall... guess i planned too hard... got the reverese effect...

i better go back to bed...

The FUTurE

So.. today i was sitting with my friends and we started asking each other all sort of questions like " do u see me married?" .. i dont see myself married... at least not any time soon cause to me marraige means love and commitement and knowing the person really well... feelign he completes me.. that i cnt live without him... ofcoure he has to be tall and understanding and FUNNY!! slowly i get the feeling he doesnt exist... so anyhow... i dont see myself married but i expected that ppl do.. i was surprised that most my friends say they dont see me married!! :(-- they say no one is good enough or that no one can keep up with my craziness!!

Then someone mentioned how me being hyper and over cheerful all the time is just a reflection of my inner emptiness and sadness!! is that true!! That to be truely happy i need to be in love and loved... i thought it wasnt true but maybe a part of me is sad because it feels the need to settle down and be with someone who fills the emptiness in my life...

I do feel happy.. yet i know that maybe there is a certain happiness i havent felt yet.. the happiness of finding that one person who will make me whole.. *sigh..... where art thou my laffffffff ...

ne way 2moro is work,, really am not in the mood.. weekends go by soo fast and i didnt even do anything... arghhhhh so annoyed.... !! Suddenly im not all cheerful... *sigh

AnnoYing Moment$!!

Do you ever have those moments in time where ur put in a certain situation and u react in the wrong way.. or say the wrong things and after that you think of the best things to say and WISH U said somethin else?!

well... listen to this... i was called up by some radio station the other day !! and ofcourse i was surprised... and i didnt know what to say.. think i sounded like a retard.. ne way... it was a quick call... unexpected.. yet i managed to sound like a total airhead!! So now my craziness is known to all uae! hehe i guess ill get over it!!

Those moments when ur head just goes BLANK! And u hear urself speak and u dont even realize what u said!!! AAAAAAAAH! i dunno what i said... it was just a horrifying experience and for the rest of my life i will think of the many endless possibilies of things i could of SAID!!!

wish we could format some memories... or even just rewind and redo things!!!

why does this always happen to me? i always blurt out things and then afterwards i think ...
OH NOOOOOOOOOOO what did i say!!!!!

Think before u speak Dino!!!!!! hmmm I try... but usually i speak then i end up thinking abt the silly things i SAY!!!!! lol