It's NOT ALL about YOU

The WHOLE world does not revolve around YOU.. when i say YOU i mean those people who somehow make any event that happens, no matter how trivial or significant it might be, they make everything ABOUT THEM ...

Those people who would come and just flip out and act like its okay to bite your head off just cause THEY are having a bad day...

Those people who say things like " i know that girl lost her parents in tsunami and is paralyzed and will not be able to pay for her treatment, I've been through worse!! I was swimming in jumaira beach once and i SWEAR i was about to drown! then i got bit by a jellyfish!! I FELT like i was going to die so i KNOW how she feels.. at least she doesn't have a jellyfish SCAR on her arm"

pssssssht * dinos Rolls eyes

I think we all tend to get a bit selfish and make things always about ourselves... i also know people do stupid things sometimes and say " It's MY LIFE ANA 7ur free to do what i want" unaware that sometimes THEIR stupid actions don't only affect them but the people around them...

Freedom of choice has nothing to do with being an IDIOT!

Someone who drinks and drives can kill innocent people and block traffic for hours!
Someone can suddenly go into "CANDYMAN/ FRIDAY 13th" mode and kill innocent people..

Unfortunately, as soon as ANYONE does something horrible they are not the only ones who suffer the consequences.. Every person comes from a certain group or is labeled
like for ex "ARAB,MUSLIM,PALESTINIAN,"

So if one arab or muslim does something bad.. automatically the WHOLE GROUP "shilleh"
is to blame...

IT's NOT ALL ABOUT YOU... it's NEVER just about you...

Shark Tale

I went to see an aquarium a while back and i was amused at the different types of fish and i still remember how the shark was "darib booz" swimming like he owned the place! ofcourse with my imaginative mind i imagined swimming in that huge tank.... and i thanked God fish can't think like humans do.. or they would create ways to come after US! :P

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:) here is something that made me laugh today.. thought i would share it with you

Tea Spill

the reason i don't blog much lately is because i feel my negative feelings and vibes will spread to the world so i try to save he negativity to myself and blog later when i'm back to "cheerful" mode..

but... then again the initial purpose of this blog is to vent & let out those negative feelings online rather than out on the people around me..

Let's say you are holding a very hot cup of tea... and for some reason you trip on something.. your hot tea is now not only spilt all over you.. but all over the person by your side... when you are hurt.. you usually unintentionally spill some of your anger and hurt on to the people closest to you...


so.. recently i have had not one.. not two but many slaps of reality... and i think i have been spilling most of my "TEA" on the closest people to me..

especially poor Cow :P who has her nieces visiting from "AMeriCana"

if i ever unintentionally burnt anyone by my "shay il wizza" im sorry...

Gat $aleemA

first let me just assure you that i don't make up stories.. and this blog is proof of how dramatic my life can get! Here is the story...

i was driving to the hospital to see baba.. and well te traffic light turned yellow and i knew i would miss it so i decided to slow down and stop when it turned red... and well i did... suddenly i hear someone hit the BREAKS.... EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE still unsure if that person would hit ME!! BOOOOOOOOOM! HE HIT MY CAR!! he was driving over 100 on a road with 70 speed limit!!! im so glad i was wearing a seatbelt... that no one was driving ahead of me!! it could of been much worse... so al hamdulilah...

i have to wear a neck brace for a while till my neck feels better.. nothing serious.. al hamdulilah.. but its the whole experience!!!

hope this is the end of the DRAMA!

Cow survived the crash with slight injuries.. and a broken leg :P

btw my car is useless now.. too damaged to be fixed.. so im carless now.. *sigh

yala al hamdulilah...

do u believe me now when i say... 7ayati FILM!

Hideaway

i need to get away... i wish i was invisible... i need time away from all the comments i hear.. people interfering in my life.. making my decisions 4 me ! if i need advice believe me i WILL ASK for it! Unwanted Advice is simply UNWANTED!

Does my face have " please interfere in my life?" written all over it?

*dinos looks in a mirror...NO SUCH LINE ON MY FOREHEAD...
hmmm ok there could be some spots on my forehead forming an illegible line :P

i do appreciate it when someone cares and asks about me and my dad's condition and tells me they are there for me...(but ONLY when they mean it )

but what i don't like is when people don't really care but call just " rafi3 3attab".. like its "socially expected" of them to do so.. so they will visit u and call u once and disappear.. those calls or visits are not what i need right now..

And if you have nothing nice to say.. pls don't say anything at all..

AND...whether or not i will wear a white dress to my wedding.. whether or not i will even HAVE a wedding...or who will i invite... etc. is MY business..

no one has any right to judge me for wanting to have this night... im not saying right NOW with these circumstances... but eventually i will inshala and no one has any right to make me feel guilty...

i dont want to hear anymore comments on how my wedding should be.. or where it will be or if there is going to be a wedding...


i dont want to hear anymore insincere " if you need anything im here for you" lines..
i know who is there for me and who isn't.. and i know who my true friends are... and who really cares..i surely don't need anymore guilt trips from anyone...

just had to vent....


btw cow and i decided to go to the jungle to meet her friends... :P

The M@$K

i've always felt like a moody person.. but recently it's not just mood swings it's more like extreme schizophrenic attacks... i feel like im in the movie " The Mask"

Sssssssssomebody SSSSSSStop meeee... :P

it's not denial.. i've accepted my dad's situation... i sure do hope he will recover... and i know it's for the best... but sometimes to deal with reality i try not to think about it.. i keep myself busy.. i do the things i usually do everyday... i go to work.. i blog.. i eat.. i sleep.. see my friends... but then there is that moment when im not busy.. when im not with anyone.. the moment when reality catches up with me...

it's like someone took away a part of me.. like something inside me has died and is rotting more and more each day.. like someone tore my arms off and im sitting there looking away from the wounds.. acting like nothing happened... looking away for so long that i forget what has happened....

but no matter how far away i look... there will come a moment when i need to pick something up or even scratch my nose and i realize i have no arms..my arms are not there and i can never run away from myself...

hamdulilah i do have my arms .. im just trying to express how i feel..

i didn't know how much my dad did for us and how much we relied on him...i took him for granted.. that he will always be there... i miss him ... i miss his loud voice.. i miss our few talks... i miss having him around ...

i hate to sound this depressed.. i usually use humor to deal with drama.. i do succeed most of the time.. but right now im not wearing my mask...

the mask i wear so often that i think sometimes i even fool myself... please take my advice and if your dad's are healthy and there.. dont take them for granted.. talk to them more... because eventually all you will have from your parents are these memories...

mama i love you habeebti inti.. i admire your strength & faith.. i know this all will pass... i don't ever want to see you cry..don't worry about us we are all going to be fine.. Allah kbeer & will take care of us all :) wa Allah yishfe baba soon


al hamdulilah

Funny Indian Ads

after seeing a few indian commercials i really would like to share these 2 with you all! i saw the second one too many times that the song " mmmmmmwaaaaah" aheeeeeeeeyaheeeeeyaaaaaaay is stuck in my head... lol so my advice don't watch more than 3 times lol

Drama Drama Drama

My life is so dramatic... its a soap opera... the weirdest things happen to me... so I'm back with another episode of my life.. in my week off work we woke up one night to the FIRE alarm at 4 AM in the morning... THERE WAS A FIRE IN OUR BUILDING! Nice... eh? lol

Anyway i got flashbacks the last time i woke up freaked out at 4 am not so long ago to hear my mom call the ambulance for baba... So..you can imagine the DRAMA! we had to leave the building as soon as possible for all we knew the whole building could be on fire... and to think of what are the things i want to take with me.. hmm EVERYTHING.. what do i have time take NOTHING!! i started going back and forth quickly in the room trying to wear the first thing i find in my face! thinking back im sure it looked like i was doing some sort of weird rap dance in the room jumping from one side to the other with confusion!!

SO... we ran down the stairs and i remembered and Egyptian movie i used to always watch when i was a kid.. ( don't know why i watched it though it was kind of not a movie for kid).. the movie's was " KARAKOON FIL SHAri3 " Adel imam and yusras house falls down and i remember the scene with all the people running out and each person was carrying something weird.. one guy had a TV with him! LOL

Anyway... so we went downstairs and i thought i looked weird with my abaya on top of my pyjama till i saw the rest of the people who were downstairs! Some were so scared they didn't even put much clothes on! now i understand the arabic saying " il ikhtashoooo maaato"..hmm how can i translate that without it sounding cheesy... " those who get shy will die" lol

soooooooo... the fire was in a shop in our building's ground floor... it was big but was put out and after 3 hours mitil il musharadeen in the streets we went back home... AL HAMDULILAH

glad it wasn't serious :)

And about my dad.. well right after my last post about him getting better he had seizures and was put back on the machines... then al hamdulilah 2 days ago he was able to breath again and is back off the machines... it's always up's an downs and you can never know what is going to happen next... Inshala ya Rab he will recover from this...

Al hamdulilah 3ala kol ishi ... ill keep you guys posted in my next episode

Favorite Video$

ill be off for a week starting today and i might nto get a chance to blog.. dad's condition is much better he is breathing on his own and is awake :) he also had "boootha" icecream yesterday.. recovery takes time... and lots of patience.. but i feel good al hamdulilah.. Allah kareem and he will be better soon inshala :)

here are a few videos i LOVE!!!! mashala at the talents all around the world!! i am still shocked at the baby imams!! And the BABY BREAKDANCER!! so enjoy these videos till i get back :) these baby videos show how the way you are brought up could definitely affect the way you will turn out! baby breakdancer vs. baby shiekh

sub7annaLLah

And pls don't stop your prayers they are WORKING :) al hamdulilah

Thank you all for your support! Allah yis3idkum Jamee3an :)

Numbness

i feel numb inside...

numbness... the lack of feeling.. perhaps it would be more accurate to say a lack of connection with our feelings or a disconnection from emotions..numbness is one way we protect ourselves against the onrush of pain and against being overwhelmed by suffering...

In my case its emotional pain, but don't we respond similarly to a physical blow with numbness before our pain sets in?

I remember once when i was in grade 4 i was playing hide and seek with a girl that was 3 times my size... well it was her turn to seek and i was peeking from behind a corner of a wall.. trying to see where she was... suddenly a heavy weight plunged at me from a distance.. .. i remember a BIG THUD!!!

everything was in slow motion... i was not quite aware of what was happening... the sound of the kids playing the playground faded out and i don't remember seeing anyone around me...(although i was surrounded by people).. i do remember there was a lot of screaming though..

my white t-shirt is now a dark shade of red...i was bleeding... the girl had tripped and fallen right on top of me... causing my head to hit the wall corner from top to bottom.. (ouch)

i don't remember feeling pain... i felt numb... confused... in shock.. it was only later on my way to the hospital that i felt a throbbing pain in my head...

that is what i feel now.. numb at what has happened... i know soon that excruciating pain will come... when i realize the severity of the wound...

Sometimes in the house i'd be plugging in something to the electricity and suddenly the electricity would go off...

just like dangerous surge of electricity will activate a circuit breaker and cut off the electricity to stop a fire or the chances of electrocution.. i feel a great deal of anguish will activate our emotional "circuit breaker" temporarily, so that we don't feel the pain...

self defense mechanism i guess..

Dad's condition is stable.. he opened his eyes.. can move one hand al hamdulilah... there are signs of recovery.. but to see him so helpless and weak brings so much sadness to my heart..

Allah y2awmoh bil salameh wa ysabirna.. all we have is our prayers... wa Allah Kareem

He Squeezed my HAND!

Yesterday i went to see my dad and as i was talking to him and then suddenly he opened his eyes... i was suddenly speechless.. i held his hand and i tried to think of what was the best thing to say to someone who just woke up from a coma and has tubes in his mouth and nose! the best thing to say to someone who in in so much pain and is unable to even express himself! i said " hamdila 3al salameh " i think i stuttered a bit...

its so funny how i get nervous when i talk to my dad.. like anything i say to him will sound stupid...

he is a serious man.. he doesn't usually get my jokes.. or gets them and decides to ignore them... :S anyway it was no time for humor.. i sat there saying how we miss him and how the house is depressing without him.. and then i felt him SQUEEZE my hand... i never thought such a simple gesture could stand for so much... i felt his pain.. i could hear his cry for help.. i felt his love.. i felt his sadness.. his confusion at why his lying in bed unable to get up or speak....

he would look around like a baby who is discovering the world for the first time... at that moment i felt like i was the parent.. sub7anallah


i felt helpless... but al hamdulilah.. he is getting better.. i don't really remember the last time i held his hand... i don't think i ever did. ( except for when i was a kid)

Allah yishfee :) i feel its everyones prayers being answered :) al hamdulilah

Life is a SIM card

ok why am i saying that? life is a sim card... a week ago it occurred to me how we are not so different from our phones when i again dropped my phone in water...

just like one drop of water in the wrong place can cause serious damage.. a drop of air in our bloodstream will cause immediate death... a drop of blood in the e brain causes sever brain damage... so we are left like a damaged phone... body is there but the memory is all lost... same phone... no connection to the world.. a body without a soul... or with a soul that is trapped in a body that is too damaged for it to even be seen...

we are more fragile than we realize... how could we be so weak yet so stubborn and ignorant? how could we know of this weakness and still act like we are invincible?
i guess its a blessing sometimes to be this ignorant.. imagine living in fear of death every second...

This past week i have learnt so many lessons.. believe it or not this week i have counted more blessings than i have in my life! i feel truly blessed.. and thankful..

Spending time in the hospital all day, i saw many stories that only made me feel more thankful... stories that happened to ppl and could've happened to anyone of us..

everyday i see a 30 year old man who had suffered from a brain stroke. he has been in the hospital for 11 months now.. and just recently he has opened his eyes and is showing signs of recovery.. i see his family around him everyday teaching him how to eat and speak again..

he has 4 kids and he was perfectly fine.. up until one day at work he was stressed out and had a brain stroke. His little daughter comes to the hospital everyday with a new song and sings it to him. She would hug him and sing to him and his wife said he tried to snap his fingers as she sang to him!

i see kids that are born crippled or paralyzed. And even though they are the way they are they are the most cheerful kids i have ever seen.. laughing and smiling and playing..

i see a 5 year old kid using a walker because she is born with crooked legs... i see an old man who has been in ICU in a coma for 6months and no one hardly visits him.

i see all sorts of people from all around the world and i realize that no matter how different we might seem.. we are all the same.. all holding on to the people we love.. holding on to life.. with everything that we have.


i feel blessed to have a father to worry about... some people are born into families without parents... i feel blessed to have my health and my family and loved ones around me helping me go through this everyday.. i feel blessed that we have enough money to afford a hospital while some people die because they can't afford the costs of hospitals & operations.. i feel blessed that i have faith at times like this when i know lots of people tend to lose their faith in God.. i feel blessed because everything that happens to us happens for a reason & with Faith and Patience (Sabr) God will reward us by taking away from our sins...

al hamdulilah... ina ma3 al 3usri yusra


another blessing is that now with all those ppl calling me i got my contacts back with extra numbers kaman :)

Sad Friday

its the first friday without my dad being home... he has travelled before and i have not seen in in months sometimes but this is different.. i keep telling myself he travelled somewhere... but then reality crawls back into my head and i realize what has happened..

I think fridays are harder than any other days to cope with this.. since i hardly saw him except on friday.. he would always wake up early and then we would all have the "FRIDAY Ftooor" which usually includes Fool Farouq <-- FArouq is baba..

so... b4 that he would always love to go to carfour and get all sorts of food! he loves food wa iza FE any OFFER in the world he will get it.. if you take a look in our kitchen you find boxes and boxes of biscuits and chocolates... and probably no one has ever heard of them! And when we say " baba la meen kol haaad? ma 7ada ra7 yakloh!" he says " ANA bowkloh" :S

see a major reason he is where he is right now is how careless he was when it comes to food! he would eat all sorts of baskoot and BAGLAWA and tabeekh without even tryin to khafif!! :(--

Anyway.. i keep remembering the time he would come and ask me to go to carfeour with him or to any dicsount center and id refuse and say " ma fee ishi hnaak" or " mush jay 3ala bali"... it hurts so much when it finally occurs to me that it was never about those discount centers.. it was his way of asking me to spend time with him..

whats even sadder is that now when i go and talk to him... i find my tongue tied and i feel like i cant say anything.. the same feeling i got when he was awake.. i want to tell him how i feel.. how i miss him.. how sad i am when i go home without him here.. how i am sorry i wasnt the best daughter... and all i can say is " baba ana hown"

we sense he can hear us.. he blinks when we talk to him and i feel inshala with all those prayers he will recover .. YA RAB....

Dad's in a Coma

let me say it again maybe this time it will sink in... Dad is in a coma... my dad? how ???? why can't i believe it? why can't i understand that this is happening..
we spend our whole lives planning and planning for things and then suddenly what we never expect happens and we sit there feeling shocked and helpless...

the day before he was fine.. making jokes.. eating.. laughing.. i rememeber thinking i have never seen him this happy... suddenly at night i hear mom telling my brother to call and ambulance.. it was like a nightmare only i was awake.. i go in the room to only see my dad in bed unable to move or speak.. his face was half paralyzed.. and that is teh image that has been haunting me.. to hear him moan with pain.. knowing he is trying to SAY something.. but CANT! the look in his eyes while the ambulance struggled to carry him away to the hospital...

everything was in slow motion.. still is in slow motion.. all i remember is those times i culd of spent with him and i chose to sit in my room or on the phone talking to someone else.. i think of all the talks we never had.. the things i couldnt say..

the funny thing is the first time i ever kissed his hand was when they were carrying him away to the ambulance... i try not to cry to be strong... but its so hard..

All i can do is pray... and the reason im bloggin now is because i want you ALL to pray for him.. please please.. i believe the more we pray the sooner he will get better..

LA hawla wala Quwata il Billah... Only GOd has the strength to make everything okay... Wa ina lila wa ina ilayh raji3oon... wa al hamdulilah.. Allah ysabirna wa ya2awmo bil salmeh ya RAB

ghirig talaaaaafooooni

ok i didnt have to time to illustrate the situation.... but again... i manage to drop my phone in a PUDDLE of WATER.... i usually have it in my lap when i sit in the car.. and well usually i drop it when i leave the car forgetting its IN MY LAP...

yesterday as i was going to see the wedding card ( very stressed out and ANGRY) cause they seem to hear my words in CHINESE!! anyway i leave the car and i hear...

PLOP... and i was like to myself " what was that?" hmmmm i decided to ignore the sound lol and as i was still about to walk away from the car i see something familiar.. only it was in a puddle of water(and 6eeneh) since it RAINED yesterday...

it was my poor (abused) phone... lol by the time my stressed out brain cells sent a brain mag for me to PICK IT UP.. it was already MSAGSAG :P

now again i lost my numbers... and wallahi i know i should have written them down i DID plan on doing that... il muhim.. conclusion is... i never learn from my mistakes.. and BARAKIZISH!!! :S

anyway watch this next video... NO COMMENT LOL the arab micheal jackson song!

hoookay hookay everysing hooooookay

wallahi i really hope they are joking.. to think they are singing SERIOUSLY! haha

Going Against the Tide

Did you ever get the feeling that you were stuck in a bottle drifting away with the waves.. tides taking you side to side till eventually you reach a waterfall and you you can see it.. and you know you are heading for a BIG FALL but you feel helpless.. the tide is too strong.. and you can't do much right now...

you know you can swim but you also can't reach the water.. stuck in a bottle...
you know you can scream for help.. but again the bottle is sound proof..
you know you don't belong here.. the tide is taking you in the opposite direction..

its just hard to go AGAINST THE TIDE... i feel both ways... u drown...

and when i say tide here i dont mean tide lil ghasseel :P or ariel.. :P

BowmA!!

many don't believe me when i tell them the weird stories and experiences i go through.. and today is just another STORY to share...

no i didn't swallow any dababees.. and no i didn't get lost in a desert with more cows but well i saw AN OWL!!! i kind of have the feeling owls don't usually hang out on office windows!!

you know when we were kids i remember my mom used to use the word " ya bowma" to express how someone is nikdeh... : liesh mbawma lol that was always confusing to me.. why the bowma tashbeeh... up until today.. where i met the BOWMA.. it all made sense... now i can worry abt the 100000 other questions in my mind lol

bowmas tend to look a bit depressed... i tried to make it smile.. to prove all those ppl wrong... but ja7aratni :P

i thought of keeping it as a pet but it looks like it had the bird flu... for it to come to an office window instead of a tree.. major sign lol

my life is full of surprises

Funny Video

one of the funniest videos i have seen in a while! mashala very talented :)
enjoy!!!

Time Flie$

don't you sometimes sit in shock at how fast time passes you by!! I mean especially on those days when you come across a relative or friend you haven't seen in ages.. but somehow you remember their cute little baby boy who once threw up all over you & then u changed his diapers!! So you ask how is your kid? they laugh and say well he is right here in front of you... and u look up to see that he is now TALLER THAN U! i mean HOW HOW HOW?? its just WEIRD! now its like i have to wear hijab in front of him and well it seems like not soo long ago i was carrying him around singing him " 7adba7lak 7ammaaaam" :P

have u noticed how the songs we sing to kids are a tad bit disturbing & graphic! like for example " 7adba7lak 7ammam".. i will slaughter pigeons for you! lol

anyway.. back to my topic.. TIME.. they say time flys when u are having fun... and i think it might pass by faster when u NEED IT!!

conclusion is... we waste so much time in our lives and we are simply just getting old people!!! :P


Any hooooooooo :P here is a really funny link i came across today! a jordanian cartoonist ... CHECK IT OUT :) Omar Cartoons

I NeeD $leeP

i love sleeping.. i can take a nap at anytime! i love weekends because i get to sleep in the MORNING! Anyway... even on those days when u finally CAN sleep SOMEONE or SOMETHING wakes u up.. like the next door neighbors having a fight or the sound of someone drilling a wall somewhere! or maybe even the smell of someone smoking in the house.. you feel the smoke is going straight to your brain cells... ARGHH

you try and try to ignore all those annoying sounds & smells... and instead of them going away .. they get louder by the second..you realize there is no use... you are now awake.. and furious... sleepy but " raaaa7at il nowmeh" can't sleep anymore...

im sure many of you have shared this experience with me at one point in thier life...
or when you are in bed.. soo soo tired.. and just when u started to get comfortable in your warm bed..a very ANNOYING ALARM goes off!

You move from la la land to REALITY... U HAVE TO GO TO WAKE UP for WORK
"lugmet il 3aysh sa3bah yaboy"! You sometimes choose to break the alarm or ignore it and go back to bed... but usually doing that too often will get you fired eventually!

Sigh.. i guess this is life... :P bidi anaaaaaaM

Prayer$ An$wered

Yesterday my dad had an operation for the "disc" he has in his neck... AL HAMDULILAH he is okay now.. recovering from the operation.. got me thinking about life.. and how we alway get so caught up in life.. so caught up that we dont remember God as much as we should.. or we do remember God but yet have a lot of contradictions in our life... we might even bend or break a few rules to make them more "modern" or "socially acceptable"

till one day you really want something and you also know its ONLY in God's hands.. you have always known everything is in GOD's hands.. but in that moment you feel desperate and pray more and say things like " ill never do this again" or " God if you answer this one prayer i wont ask you anything again".. an so on..

maybe you meant what you said and deep inside you know you might NOT deserve to get your prayers answered because you have been too distracted & have so many sins in your life... but still you know GOD is forgiving.. and MERCIFUL.. so you pray because you know HE is always there no matter what happens...

ive had ppl say things like " ill tell my mom or bint il jeeran to pray for me because i havent prayed in years!! so i would feel bad if i prayed now just cause i need something".. that is not how it should be.. God asked us to pray ... and we all should :)
not only when we need something like a "job offer" or "3arees" lol

Allah KAREEEEM :)

186 و إذا سألك عبادي عني فإني قريب أجيب دعوة الداعِ إذا دعانِ فليستجيبوا لي وليؤمنوا بي لعلهم يرشدون " البقرة "

When My servants ask thee concerning Me, I am indeed close (to them): I listen to the prayer of every suppliant when he calleth on Me: Let them also, with a will, Listen to My call, and believe in Me: That they may walk in the right way.

Unfortunately the cycle repeats itself.. we all go through ups and downs and we don't always keep our end of the promise... out of weakness, laziness or temptation..

But i also know God created us and HE knows of our weaknesses and life is full of tests we all go through.

Prayers can sometimes make miracles happen :) Al hamdulilah for everything :)

so conclusion is..

" YOU GOT TO PRAY.. YOU GOT TO PRAY JUST TO MAKE IT TODAY" <-- said like a true MC HAMMER :P

Mush Tabee3i?

Sorry i haven't blogged in a while.. been kind of busy.. but well the less i blog the more things i feel i need to blog about! You know how sometimes you are in a situation and someone says or does something and you say something like " mush tabeeee3i jad jad ABNORMAL" or " i CANT BELIEVE HE DID THAT?" or " if i was in her place i would never DO THAT?"

and we tend to get a bit judgmental when we compare ourselves to others and we get carried away with our judgments not realizing that they are nothing but false accusations we base on our reference to ourselves & our experiences..

We have to realize that we are all different.. not even 2 people in this WHOLE world are exactly the same.. we might agree more with some ppl.. disagree with others.. want to avoid a few because they GET ON YOUR NERVES :P

BUT we also might find a lot in common with someone.. and when we do meet that person we feel is our "LONG LOST TWIN" we tend to assume they are like us in every way.. when in reality they are THEM and YOU are YOU..

not ONE person is like you in EVERY single way... and knowing that.. we should ACCEPT that different people react differently..and ACCEPT people for who they are instead of trying to turn them into YOU !

And just because someone doesn't react like you doesn't mean they are wrong.. doesn't even mean you are wrong.. it just means you are different... different yet normal

And speaking of normal.. what is normal ? a normal reaction? i feel that there is no such thing as "normal".. the definition of normal nowadays is what is common... and as soon as someone decides to go against the tide or be unique or original... they are seen as abnormal or weird.. plus being NORMAL IS OVERRATED :P

id rather be SPECIAL ( not the special that is thrown in mental hospitals though) :P

3anyway... point is... each person is different and expresses themselves differently.. a poet could write a poem.. a singer could sing a song.. a painter could paint you a portrait.. but just because they are talented and have the gift of expressing themselves in better ways .. doesnt make their love stronger or deeper or more real...

:)yet another one of my more serious posts...

Funny Video$

here are 2 hilarious ABU MAHJOOB videos & an adorable sleepy baby

Cow Ther@pY

After cow chose to go out with the "mgali3" player Bull behind my back... she hates to admit that i was right about him... anyway.. its not about who is right and who is wrong... now she is heart broken and is going through a very weird phase where she is doing all sorts of things she wouldnt usually do... like she is punishing herself ...

she got piercings and tatoos all over her body... she started smoking... swearing a lot... dresses up in a very inappropriate way...sleeps all day or listens to a lot of heavy metal... songs with titles like " ABUSE ME" and " SUICIDAL DREAM"... i feel she has a problem talking to me because she feels i lecture her a lot.. so instead i feel this unbreakable barrior between us... a loud silence everytime we sit together.... that is if we DO sit together...

she keeps saying " Even the richest COWS end up Burgers in Burger KING or McDonalds eventually"

*sigh*

So... i suggested therapy... and there is no shame in seeking help.. sometimes letting things off your chest even to a total stranger helps... Did you know an average person has around 50,000 negative thoughts a day!

Depression is something everyone goes through at some point in their life... it varies from person to person.. at how serious is it & how long it lasts.. It is usually caused by traumatic experiences or disappointments in life... It all about perception and when someone is happy the sky is blue, the birds are singing and when he is depressed the sky is grey and everything sounds like noise to you..

Here is some information about some of the different kinds of depression :

Mild Depression :

The symptoms of this form of depression include low self-esteem, a general feeling that nothing's worth doing, and a lack of interest in activities that used to be pleasurable. It's the most common form of depression, and is easily mistaken by others as simple unhappiness. Many people go through this type of depression, and recover from it, without really understanding what happened to them. Believe it or not a person suffering from mild depression has a more realistic perspective in life opposed to someone who is too optimistic with unrealistic goals.

Major Depression

Few people experience major depression without it becoming very obvious to those around them that they are depressed. The symptoms are similar to those of mild depression, but much worse. The lethargy can be so profound that the sufferer has trouble even getting out of bed, while any interest in previously-enjoyable activities will have gone. Loss of appetite & the desire for social interaction; all these will have significantly reduced. Feelings of guilt, worthlessness and despair can be so powerful that sufferers of major depression are prone to have suicidal thoughts, or even to attempt suicide.

Manic depression
A less common form of depression is manic depression, in which the sufferer has dramatic mood swings, from depression to mania. One day they may feel as though their world is about to end, while another day they'll be fantastically, unrealistically optimistic and cheerful. People suffering from manic depression are often artistic, and express their pain through their art.

Post-natal depression
Having a baby is a major change in anybody's life.The birth of a child makes a big difference to the hormone levels in the mother. With the sleepless nights, extra pounds and additional stress of coping with new demands on the mother's time and attention, it's not surprising that some women slip into a state of mild depression after childbirth. In some cases this can become major depression.

So.. point is... we all have gone through or will go through depression at a certain point in our life.. my advice is to not let yourself move from mild depression to major depression by realizing what the cause is... deal with it rather than sleep it away.. talk about it to someone close to you if you don't like the idea of therapy...

And believe it or not its all in your head.... its a DECISION you make.. DECIDE to be happy.. to GET OVER your depressing thoughts.. replace them with POSITIVE thoughts...

Life does not always go as planned.. you WILL make mistakes..you WILL make wrong decisions...you will suffer the consequences... the bull could break your heart.. but this is life.. don't dwell over your mishaps.. don't curse your fate.. dont blame yourself or punish yourself... just try to LEARN from your experiences..

there could be a million reasons to feel depressed... but i believe if you find just ONE good reason not to be.. if its good enough...those reasons fade away.... everything happens for a reason... and if you don't see its for the best at that same instant you learn later on that GOD loves you...

Everything you go through.. whether if its good or bad.. is part of a bigger plan for you.. have faith in God
because your happiness is in HIS hands..

If you go the wrong path... and you realize you are on the wrong path.. its never too late to turn back... its like taking a wrong turn... you either go farther away and deeper to dark scary roads that could lead to another country... or you realize you took a WRONG turn... and just simply GO BACK... to the right path...

If you are depressed... read a lot of quran :) it helps...

Quotes i like :

Life does not cease to be funny when people die any more than it ceases to be serious when people laugh.

I lived my life knowing that when i look back at my tears i'd laugh, but i never knew looking back at my laughs i would cry

The art of life is the art of avoiding pain. ~Thomas Jefferson

ok i talk way too much....

How 2 MANSAFING

all you people who have been to jordan and have tried mansaf will find this hilarious! And if not u will have all the jordanian "turath" in one video! LOL

i love when he says "6argi3 asab3ak" hahhahaha "da7bir"

omg sho gordunieh il mus6ala7at!! :P

V@LENTINE$ D@Y

i have noticed changes in COW... she has not only been wearing corsets and watching her diet.. she has also gotten hair extensions & has started to wear a lot of make up and short skirts!! Since i have had cow ever since she was a baby i feel like her parent and that is my duty to help her make her choices in life... she is at a very critical age.. and i knew i would face it one day.. the age where she is thinking about marraige and love & bulls :P and to see her change into this cow barbie with superficial thoughts & not to forget to mention the way she has become "Bull Crazy"... is very hard on me...

Since its almost valentines day she has to choose between 6owr 1 who is very educated& sweet...her even learned how to WRITE... still working on the spelling though... his fashion sense is... lets just say.. he has no sense of fashion and in the fashion book it is called " FASHION SUICIDE"... but then again he is a sweetheart and would treat cow like a COW-QUEEN

Then we have 6owr 2... who is a barn drop out... very spoilt.. smokes a lot of "7asheesh"... mentioned he has been modeling in many magazines for the "horoscopes" taurus section... I dont sense he is serious about cow... and i personally dont like him at all... but i admit he knows how to dress and is charming when he talks...

So.... now... would you go for the sweet adorable yet clumsy and not so cute 6owr or the Hot "Mgale3" one lol

i don't like either and im telling her to wait till she gets the right 6owr & that the most important thing in such situations is to base your decision not only on looks & emotions but logic too... *sigh*

NICE AD$

Hiyaaaaa!!

you know what im going to write about has nothing really to do with the pic i drew but well i just felt like drawing cow doing some karate! hehe

What i want to vent about today is how sometimes you work so hard for something... all your life you have focused on that one thing... sacrificed for it... like making a sculpture out of little objects you would collect every day.. and everyday you would add to it.. truely you did all that you could to make it look its best... And all your hard work has paid off now.. its a great peice of art....

till one day in a moment of anger, stress.. with one big "HIYAAAAAAAAAA" you break everything you have worked for all your life.. you are left with regret maybe even confusion at how in one second all those years of hard work could simply vanish...

your sculpture is now nothing but a mess... and its all your fault... you can't take back the things you did... or said... and even if you tried some things are just not fixable... it will never be the same...

moral of the story.... think before you speak people... because words are like bullets once you "6ukh" the person infront of you either kill them or leave them seriously injured!! Yes we all face problems & life isn't exaclty a walk in the "gneenah" & there is always someone to blame for our psychological problems.. but... choose your words carefully cause they could cause serious damage.... & unecessary DRAMA!!

$hort $tory About My Imaginary Cow

So apparently my cow has overheard 2 girls talking to each other... one asked the other " does this shirt make me look like a COW?"... then later on she overheard some people calling a really obese person a COW!! she didnt take it very well and ever since she has not been eating at all... she wears a corset to keep her tummy tucked in & well im starting to worry about her..

she mentioned how she also found it very offensive how when we want to swear at each other we sometimes say " ya 7ayawan" " ya bagara"... and she did mention something that made a lot of sense to me... she said sometimes humans are worse than animals... she has not heard of a greedy cow killing another cow over money or gold or whatever.. she has never seen an animal gossip... she has never seen a cow get high... no animal has ever robbed a bank.. thrown a bomb on innocent families taking away thier lives.. no animal has ever backstabbed thier friend... & one last thing there are people WAY FATTER than COWS!!

*cows mooing is louder now and i can see her eyes begin to tear

* titanic music playing in the background by one of her fellow cows

"TURN that off don't be such a sappy HUMAN" yells the cow to the other cow..

*DINO GASPS.... ok "OUCH" *breaks into tears

you know... she has a point... "im sorry cow" " im sorry Dino"

*scene ends with a hug :P

ok what was that? lol

Venting Se$$ioN

ok sorry no cartoon today.. not really feeling very upbeat.. its weird that i cant even write what i feel since i know lots of ppl who are close to me read this blog and are shocked to read things i don't share with them here.. but i need to vent.. or at least attempt to...

the worst feeling in the world is to have someone who knows you..who knows you very very well...who knows every little thing about you...can easily misjudge you and accuse of things that you haven't done...or said... or even misinterpret the things you do by saying you had other intentions...

why is it too hard to believe that some people in this world would so something good without an ulterior motive?!? That sometimes you say things without implying something bad... that sometimes you truely would do something nice just to see that persons smile...

Anyway...you realize that they don't know you at all... & its hurts more than anything because you would expect it from others... just not them...

you should know me better before judging me...

sorry... next blog will be more cheerful.... today is just a bit dramatic for me...

most important thing is that at least i know what i am.. and i know my intentions and ONLY GOD can judge me... i should stop caring what people might say or think...

any hoooooooooooo....me and cow both have a cold and are noses are not only runny... they are SPRINTING :P that was lame.. :P

i still make jokes even when im down *sigh* sad lol* okay i feel better.. dont ask me about this post... it never happened... *dino flashes the " MEN IN BLACK" flash infront of all readers... now they have no memory of this post... :P

Cold Cold Cold

BRrrrrrrrrrr *teeth chattering tiktiktiktitk ... yes im cold... im FF RR EEE ZINGG... you what i hate.... crowd says " WHAT?".. someone in the back murmers " i dont really care" *dino glares at that somone till they leave the room... lol anyway...

i hate it when its too WINDY and u feel your clothes start flying everywhere!! And u dont know whether to hold on to the things in your hand or your clothes! In my case its like.. ok Hijjab or Abaya!! AAAAH!

i have noticed that males dont mind this weather at all & im sure they are hoping girls are all wearing short skirts!

tut tut tut * shakes head with disappointment...

Solution is ... TAPE... all you girlies carry around some masking tape so that the next time u feel its really windy..

LAZKIN MALABISKIN :P

Again dinos ceases to amaze herself with her bright ideas... *takes a bow... he3 he3 he3

GOOD MORNING EVERYONE!!! yis3id Sba7ko!! here is a cool video i wuold like to share with you all :)

Bala3t Daboo$

Where was i the last 2 days? Hmmm not really wedding planning... i was in the hospital....

Yes... again i have a weird experence to share... things like this ONLY happen to ME... i SWALLOWED A PIN!!! Out of the many things a person can choke on or swallow by mistake.. COINS,FLYS,BONES,RINGS,EARINGS!!!! i swallow... A PIN!!!

How u may ask... let me explain... i was fixing my hijjab with pins.. i was talking to my friend alia with the pin in my mouth.. then i think i GASPED at something either she or i said... or just breathed in slightly... then GULP!!!!!

*dinos looks at alia with eyes full of SHOCK & FEAR & CONFUSION!!

*dinos points at throat and then at other pin in the hijjab!! ALIA SAYS " Shooo u dropped it?"

*alia starts looking on the floor...

DINA makes a weird NOISE TRYIN TO GET ALIAs ATTENTION TO HER FACE & points at THROAT....

ALIA's face now looks like DINAs only she is laughing at DINA now and freaking out as well lol

i was abt to pray so i freaked out.. i was like pray first or call my mom first.. ( mom is a doctor) so.... after running around in circles not knowing what to do i decided to pray.. cause chances are if i die i die praying! Then i call my mom ..

ALO MAMA.. ma tkhafi.. ma tkhafi...BAS BALA3t Dabooooooooos

Mama : EISH!! KEEF!! ???

Dina : sho 2a3mal ???????

MAMA : rooo7i koleeee KHUBZEH!!

ALIA runs hystericall to the kitchen throws RGHEEF at me!! i start munching on it like a beggar who hasn't eaten in a year!!!

MAMA: yala 7akhdik il mustashfa!!

We are driving to the hospital and ofcourse i could not stay QUIET the whole time i was making jokes and laughing... id say things like... this will be a NICE BLOG i was actually running out of TOPICS! lol or " law ino il khubzeh feeha LABANEH or Za3tar kan ithanayt badal ma abla3ha 7aaaf" hehehe

Anyway.. i reach the hospital and all the nurses would LAUGH when they ask what is wrong... " binit bala3at daboos"
*nurse trys to hide the laugh... then i see them telling each other and laughing... then they did an X RAY and i could it in my STOMACH!!! so they are like we need to make a ENDOSCOPY... i go like.. okay... UNAWARE of what it REALLY MEANT!!!

the doctor arrives and asks where the patient is... mom says its her.. she says.. " OH I WAS LOOKING FOR A 7 year old"

LOL nice nice.... any one else want to mock me? aaahahahahah Soooooooo.. any hoooooooooo

suddenly they take me to a room... where i wear the operation clothes... and the inject me with something that i think was a anesthetic... so what i remember was a LONG TUBE WAS SHOVED DOWN MY THROAT!!! it was more like TREASURE HUNT in my STOMACHE!! After i don't know how long i woke up and i dont even remember anything other than i came in and i was shocked to see the had already took out the PIN!!

i also remember that it was fun being pushed around on a bed! And i remember saying lots of weird things after the endoscopy since iwas still under the mukhadir effect! mom said i was dancing at a certain point lol

Felt like i was high.. not that i know what it feels like heheh

NOW THAT WAS A WEIRD EXPERIENCE.... first thing i said was "7ase fi SANDAL FI ZORI" hhahahaha

now it feels like there is a baby shoe rather than a huge sandal!!! :S

well i have swallowed a nail in the past... when i was 8.. but this was a first.. the lesson i learnt is.. dont talk when u have pins in your mouth... wait... no its DONT PUT PINS IN YOUR MOUTH!!! :S

$o $leepy!!

So.. its back to WORK! Bye bye holiday.. Bye Bye sleeping late... Bye Bye shopping all day... im soo sleepy its not even funny... why is it that weekends & vacations pass by soo quickly... *sigh*

so this eid since my phone was stolen.. so i got a new phone and kept the same line...so i kept getting msgs from all sorts of numbers.. i would msg back a few saying " Sorry i lost my phone" .. there is just no nice way of saying " WHO R YOU?" lol

Most of them probably didnt buy my story and thought i just simply deleted their numbers cause they dont contact me all year long :s

no major events... i miss my bed... my pillows... bidi anaaaaaaaaaam

The Invi$ibLe Cow!

well since i love cows so much i had to post a video abt cows ! hehe forgive me if its too GRAPHIC lol but i LOVEEEEEEEE THIS CARTOOOOOOOOOOOOON! COW is ADORABLE!!! :) its a hilarious episode hahahahah

I love this video posting option... yeay !! *clapping*

My Fir$t Video Po$t

KaTKoooooT

i got this today in my mail! lol well i did change the wording a bit! but imagine the drama of the poor katkoot when he sees his cousin/brother after they have turned into a BREAKFAST :S

i know i know ... im delaying the new cartoon... i have been working on something and inshala when im done ill post it :)

i keep getting weird calls.... listen to last nights call..

Me : alo
HIndi Man : ALo Mohamad?
Me: emmm no
HIndi Man : oh sorry... Shukran habibi
Me: *shocked that he is my habibi soo soon! :P

yala guys have a great day :)

It$ R@INING Ag@in

when i said i need a boat to get to my car you thought i was exaggerating... here is a pic of a parking in SHARJAH!!
i got to work at 10 am! i left the house at 6:10 :S seriously... im soo sleepy...... *yawn*

you know what i hate... other than traffic and pickles :P i hate when people act like they like you when they just can't wait till they hear that something bad happened to you...they try to hide what they really feel but you can always tell who truely is happy for you when something good happens in your life... one look and one word would give away what they feel!! they keep asking you a billion questions a second about your life and would never tell you anything about themselves...

*sigh* anyway... al hamduilah i think by now i can tell who is sincere and who isn't...

H@ppy D@Y

Today i woke up with a smile on my face :) and i don't think i will let anything change my happy mood :)

Dino stands on the Titanic with her bagarah and yells " IM THE KING ( i mean QUEEN) of the WORLD)" :P

hope everyones day is as happy as mine :)

*dinos skipping away singing "lalalalalalala " :P

IT$ R@INING C@t$ & B@GAR

So... if you live in the uae you would probably have noticed the RAIN!! you know how they say // "its raining cats & dogs"! It rained soo much i have to say it was raining COWS :P OMG.. i was actually surprised to how much it rained! I LOVE the rain!! The only thing i don't really like is the way the roads have turned into RIVERS! How traffic is even worse when its raining!!

The parking in front of my house has turned into a big pool :P its soo weird to have to swim to your car :P hehe ok im exaggerating! but the water would almost reach your knee at some points!! :P

S@Y SOMETHING!!!!

Have you ever spent the whole day talking to several people... smiling wide confident SIGNAL2 smiles to practically everyone you see... and then at the end of the day..... you get back home.... and you seeee.......... something staring back at you from between your 2 front teeth!!! lol

NICE..........

wa ana nazleh awazi3 ibtisamat!!! WHY don't people SAY SOMETHING LIKe HELLO you have a huge piece of brocolli, za3tar or corn... etc

PEOPLE SAY SOMETHING!!! ok... come to think of it if i dont know the person very well i wouldnt say anything either :P

how embarassing... *sigh* dina adds this to her list of embarassing moments...

Ro@d R@Ge

so... every morning i get stuck in the morning traffic.. some days are worse than others but in general... i experience ROAD RAGE!!! hehe well im just kidding i dont even swear at people when they CUT IN FRONT OF ME..im very calm.... im a peaceful driver but this illustration is what i REALLY FEEL!!!!

Dont you just hate it when you have been waiting for over an hour to get into the EXIT then someone who thinks he is better than everyone else simply CUTS infront of you.. doesnt bother to LOOK in your direction... AT LEAST ASK ME.. ACT LIKE i just did you a FAVOR!!! ARGHHHH! or when someone HONKS at you before the traffic light is EVEN GREEN!!

ok i feel better now..... lol

side note to all the readers who are unfamiliar with sense of humor :

i do not carry guns... i definitely don't plan on shooting anyone in this lifetime :P maybe the next

MY FE@R!!

you know how when you make fun of something for so long.. it ends up happening to you? well all my life ive been the tallest and well my fear is to marry someone shorter than me! i keep making fun of the way he would need to wear not only heels but stand on a ladder or attach a piece of the "RASEEF" to his feet! RASEEF : PAVEMENT :P

anyway.. have you noticed that in every ARAB wedding.. no matter how modern the bride & the groom are.. no matter where they lived.. whether its canada, japan, or the states all their life... in thier wedding.. there is always some lady who starts yelling the traditional " Fala7i" Aweeeeeeeeeeeeeee HAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa !!! hehe

ok i cant explain what that is to nonarabs... but if you ever go to to an arab wedding.. and a lady starts yelling in a weird tone.... you have witnessed the "AWEEE HAAA" lol

$h@bA$hIB M@triX

background music.. * from an old cowboy movie when the two cowboys are about to shoot...

tan na na na na naaa naaaa naaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

If you are an arab... and you are reading this you might relate to what im about to say... imagine you as a kid sitting in a room and you did something wrong... your dad sees you and although he is far away... he has no problem aiming his shoe at you LOOOL ... heheh ok maybe im sharing too much info... but i remember in school when all the kids would gather around in the break and share thier "PIZZA" "Za3tar" CHips and "ZAKI" drinks we would all share these sort of stories...

So why.... WHY... do ARAB DAD'S USE SHOES as WEAPONS? hahahha its like when someone says lets go to "BATTA" or "SHOE CITY" i hesitate... *dino twitches


i will never look at shoes the same way again... thank u baba lol

so glad those days are over!! sadly i kind of miss the adventures.. it was like being in the MATRIX.... everything would go into slow motion.. SHOE IN THE AIR... hehehehe

ok mom is reading this... ops.. my dad never threw anything at me but fly kisses when i went to school everyday :P

*Dino$ RUns B4 someone refreshes her SHIB SHIB memories

The Re@$on I LOVE Cow$

Finally... after many posts about cows.. i will share my story with those who dont already know it... the story of the day i fell in love with.... BAGAR!!

One day i was driving to my friends house... and ofcourse... I GOT LOST... btw my sense of direction is getting better.. now i get lost in only uae without reaching OMAN hehe ok.. sooo when i felt i was way off track i decided to take the nearest exit... the exit road was kind of underconsruction and well eventually turned into a sandy road... then no road... still iwas taking rights and lefts.. tryin to figure out an EXIT.. Assuming im driving a four-wheel. ( i drive a nissan sunny) hehe

suddenly... in the middle of no where... i press on the gas...frrrrrm frmmmmmmm... car stops moving...

GUESS WHAT...... GHARAZT!!! ( CAR GOT STUCK)....

*sound of crickets in the background
*sound of a wolf howling.. AAooooooooooooooooo
*sound of A COW????????

just to give u some background... of the scenery... * sun setting... its getting dark... houses that looked HAUNTED all around me... black dogs around.. i swear!!! so i think ok ill call my friends... MOBILE BATTERY was LOW.... i look around trying to find some sort of landmark!! and i see...............

2 COWS!!!!!!!!!! lol and im like? HUH?! BAGAR? so long story short... it got dark and 6 cars were searching for me... 6 fourwheels GHARAZO as well... till one of them SAW A COW!!! And they say they JUST KNEW THEY WERE CLOSE!!!

THE COW LEAD THEM TO ME!!! THE COW SAVED MY LIFE!! THEREFORE I OWE MY LIFE To BAGAR!!!

I LOVE COWS.... u know after 4 hours of bonding with them & sharing all my secrets i have to love them!!

Dont know if this worked.. but well just updating you guys... i still get calls not only from my indian mother but from many different indians including one that was apparently asking for the indian "ME" & searching for an apartment.. how i know? he said the word Room in between his 5minutes of indian talk :S

hehe im starting to think maybe im a schizophrenic that is unaware of her other indian self... no wonder i can perfect the accent!! no wonder indian men love me! hehe

so here is a song she sang to me in her last call... check it out! hope it works.. hehe ok just kidding she didint sing anything but it would of been hilarious if she did!! ehehehe ENJOY!!!

try to check this link... :S hope it works.. ull hear the indian lady sing...

IT FINALLY WORKED :D YEAY!!!!


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My F@mou$ NuTell@ C@ke

On Thursday we had kind of like a party at work :P there was food.. soo its considered a PARTY hehe.. and i promised the girls at work id make them.......

*drum roll*

NUTELLA CAKE!

gu3lus enjoyed it too!! ppl kept saying i was a "moJremeh" "hehe how can i translate that??

a criminal hehe.. dont take that term literally... i have not murdered anyone since the last time i broke out of jail :P

So im a "mogremmmmaaaa" for all the KILOS they will gain after this CAKE hehe... yummmy...

I PLEAD.... GUILTY your honor... hehehehe its WORTH IT!!!!

WeirD C@ll!!

ok.. listen to this i found a miss call on my phone the other day.. i call back cause ithought it was one of my friends... anyway..

TOOT TOOOT

Lady: HALOOOO<--- (kind of yelling)
ME: oh hi... i have a miss call from you
Lady : 2 mins of speaking in the SPeED of LIGHT... (in indian)
ME: HUH? ok ok Wrong Number....
Lady: *silent*
ME: bye
Lady : "ok bye"

Later that night... same number rings...

*RING RING*

ME: Alo?
Lady Again : 3 mins of indian in the speed of light again
ME: its a WRONG number
Lady : oh... sorry sorry

NEXT DAY MORNING

ME; ALO
LADY : DIS my DAUGHTA NUMBA
Me : hmm no this is my number
LAD: NO NO my DAUGHTa NUMBA
Me: im pretty sure its my number
LADY (angry now) I TELL YOU DIS MY DAUGHTA NUMBA
ME: ok... bye mama lol

*sigh* im expecting another call anytime soon...

NEW @DvenTURe$

OMg.. where do i start.. so today i left later than usual to work... usually i leave b4 the sun comes up.. but today i left while it was coming up... anyway... i was caught up in TRAFFIC from 6AM till 10 AM... not only that i hit the car infront of me cause he hit a sudden break... but it wasnt an ACCIDENT ( ma tkhafi ya mama)... my car hardly touched his car so it wasnt an accident... anyway... so i get to work at around 10:30... and THE PARKING is FULL!!!

sooooooo...... i went around in circles hoping to find a parking... thinking things cant get any worse... the guy infront of me HITS some other CAR ... blocks my WAY..... they have fight... i sit there... just waiting for them to MOVE!!!

He would scream at the guy then look at me and smile.. :S im thinking.. "HUH? MALO hada?"<-- whats up with this guy?

ARGH... then... mr. Angry man... comes to me and says he is sorry and indirectly PROPOSED & insisted on giving me his Business CARd.... :S Mush Wa2tak halaaaaaa2!!! <-- now is not the time!!

WHAT A DAy...... feel more adventures are coming up soon.. ALLah yustoR!!!! And no i dont think ill marry him.. its just too weird to meet in a parking.. plus he needs to take a major ANGER MANAGEMENT COURSE!! hehe

oh how i wish i was in this pic with the COW!! ehhee

In7@rAG R@AS$i!!!

so now that im a member of JP i should try to use more jordanian words in expressing myself!! hahah soo ya naaaaas IN7arag RASSI!! :P hah anot sure how translate that sk... my head is on fire.. haha it is an expression of so many things that include ANGER and being FED Up.. it a jordanian expression... so instead of having a "i hate i love list" i will just mention the thngs that 7arago rassi lately! heheh

They ARE :

IM SICK OF

Anties in weddings or gatherings sit and STARE and TALK TALK TALK abt EVERYONE... usually i feel like the TOPIC...

OF PPL WHO are 2 faced and ACT LIKE they LOVE u and as soon as u turn ur face they are making FACES about you

I HATE GOSSIP!! why cant u just MIND UR OWN BUSinESS!!! :S ARghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Some ppl with low confidence and lots of psychological problems try to put you down by saying negative things to you

PPL MEntioning the OBVIOUS " SHOOOO TAWEEEEELEH" <-- ur sooo TALL... ya3ni i think after 24 years of havin a bird's view of everyones head i NOTICED.. or "SHO BAYDAAA!" WALLAHI I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW 7ilo 3aniiiiii lol

PPL saying things like " LIESH LA HALA2 ma itzawjati?" <-- "why arent u married yet?" followed with a look of Despair and
Sympathy as if ur dyiing of ANFilunZA Al 6yoor(bird flu).. or junnoon il BAGAR(mad cow disease) hehe

side note those woman who say such things probably have the wrost marraige in the world and say things like " yin3an il yom il tzawajt feeh" <-- i curse the day i married you lol

PPL honking behind me in traffic EVEN B4 the LIGHT IS gREEN!!!!!!! ya3ni COME ON!!!!

PPL Cutting in front of me when im driving and not only cutting in.. they even Give me DEATH looks AS if i didnt JUST DO THEM A FAVOR by not SWEAring AT THEM !!! a THANK U WOULD BE NICE ya 3ami!!!

PPL Showing OFF... treating others like they are below them or that they are BETTER...

PPL who think cause they have memorized some verses from the QUran than they have the right to JUDGE The world!! ISLAM is not abt Judging OTHERS! ONLY GOD CAN JUDGE! IFFFFFFF! Soo annoyed!!! If you knew islam properly you would know that teling somone whether they are going to hell or heaven itself is the HARAM!! NO one CAN KNOW but GOD!

I HATE TRAFFIC!!!

i can go on forever but .. i shall Stop now...*tshhhhhhhhhhh <-- sound of fire being put out lol

B@yTha 4 LiFe

I love the beach... that is funny cause i havent gone in over a year!! EVERYTIME i actually Do Go or PLAN to Go something HAPPENS!! IT RAINS! GETS CLoudy!! This Friday i was all ready and when i reached the place!! it was CLOSED!!! ARGH!! Im soo WHITe its not even funny... im no longer white im a lighter shade that is TRANSPARENT!

HOW DO u know you are WHITE?

When ur whiter than ur MOM
When your mom notices h0w white you are
When ppl stop telling you you need a tan with a smile and say it with a serious look " GET A TAN!!|
When ppl place thier hands next to yours and say jokes like : UNITED COLORS OF BENNETON
When you look at your reflection on drak glass and STILL the reflection of your face is WHITE!!!
When ppl in your office call you SNOW WHITE!

i can go on forever... so i miss the beach and i still love playing in the sand... i remember when we were kids we would dig holes for hours and then someone would sit in and we would bury them!!

So im thinking im going to be "baytha" forever!! I remember once i wanted to go to tan and my TATA (grandma) freaked out and gave me a lecture on how being white is something that is highly APPRecited in GHAZA and in the ARAB world! lol i also heard a saying in jordan this year...

" KHUTh_ha BAYTHA wa LAW Majnoooneh" hahah i will never get over that one!!

"marry a white woman even if she IS INSANE" hahahahah

well.. im guess im supposed to be happy to hear that... but i doubt i will marry someone with this mentality! LOL not that im insane or anything *twitches* lol

K@YFIK YUMMMA?!

SO.... yesterday i go back home... sit on the computer... checking again if someone was reading my blog... and YES!!! LOL i was RIGHT! My MOM found out abt my blog and was reading every SINGLE post... Probably is READING now...

SO if ur MALE ya rayt titwakal 3ala Allah wa LEAVE THIS SITE IMMEDIATELY! LOL

it is NOW offcially an ONLY GIRLS site!! :P hehe

I feel im being watched.... i am... lol :S

So.. the main point of posting was to vent.. slowly ppl online found out i have a site... till ppl from real life not only the blogging world found out... so i couldnt say anything abt anyone i knew... or they would find out lol

i thought THAT was limiting my topics.. IMAGINE when u KNOW ur MOM is reading every word?? lol

reminds me of the time she found my diary when i was kid... *twitches... not a good memory lol

ya3ni nifsi to have a secret life... no more secret bloggin life... back to boring life hehe


u know she actually said she liked iT!! Mama ya nab3u 7anani nawarti il site :)

yala salmo 3al WAldeh.. Say hi to the mother of the psycho who writes here!!

JEEL il WAWA !

You know... i have noticed something that is very sad.. yet very true... we sit there at home flipping through the channels... we see the most graphic scenes showing dead bodies in palestine/lebanon/iraq...war all around the world... seeing soo much of this everyday has made us desensitized... we no longer react to such scenes... we are used to seing them.. and u know what the media shows nowadays is always with effects, dramatic music and screen shots that only make us feel its less real cause we relate it to the everyday movies we see... *sigh*

what do we do after watching the news???? simply.....FLIP THE CHANNEL!!?????? :S *sigh*

MoM Re@D$ My Blog?!?

(translation 4 sk : mom look at your SON! STOP IT BOTH OF U or ill BREAK BOTH Your HEADS"


lol today i came to use the computer and well i usually dont leave my blog window open... so well i found my blog staring back at me.. "AAAAAAAAAAAH" and who was sittin on the computer? either my MOM or BRO...
*heavy breathing
*thinks if she wrote anything she will not approve of.. hehe ok i think im ok cause she would of said something right?

i could be wrong.. but if not...

"KAAAAAAAAAAAAAYFIK Yummma! Sho Tabkha ilyom?" <--- what did u cook today? hehe

u know when i think of my mom i feel sorry for what i made her go through growing up! i wasnt a naughty kid! but i used to always fall & get sick! i spent most of my childhood in the hospital! most of the time it was cause of my BROTHER! he once broke my ARM!! Once pushed me and i bumped my head on the corner of something... all i remembere was that i was wearing a white t-shirt that suddenly turned into RED!! :S

we would FIGHT EVERYDAY... then id call my mom at work crying
" MAMAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA DARABNEEEEEEEEEE"..

the ppl at my moms work got used to us calling!! ONCE i even called my UNcLE in London andsaid " ALO .. MAMA ?? WAYN MAMA" first they freaked out.. then they got used to it and would tell her.. "Your KIDS are fighting AGAIN"

i rememeber when we were kids how we would just fight all the time and then the BATHROOM was our only SHELTER! id hit him and RUNNNNN like CRAzy!! or he would do the same! ehhe

till one day.. while i was sitting inside laughing thinkin " hahaha U CANT GET ME NA NA NA ANA " he was soooo ANGRY hE KICKED THE DOOR AND BROKE IT DOWN!! Suddenly what was once a SAFE place turned into a HORROR movie!! hehe

My mom is a doctor so well me trying to get out of going to school by sayin im sick was not a smart IDEA !!! she knew when i would FAKE it lol i feel sorry for all the HELL we made her go through growing up...

HABEEBTI MAMA.. i LAFF YOU!! :) ( and im not just saying that cause she could read this )

Pollution of D@ Mind

You know i sat there the other day thinking to myself as usual.. i thought about how the world has changed and is changing drastically.. i asked a kid to recite verses of the quran he had memorized , he satrted singing " boooos il wawa" instead!! i was horrified.. its a 4 yr old being subjected to haifa wahbe and im sure worse things! I have seen little girls dancing like those girls in the Music Videos... their innocence has been stolen away from them... what is the main source all this???? TV!!!

tv has become a "norm" a world that is as real to ppl as their worlds are... some may argue that it is harmless and that its just a way to pass time... knowing nowadays ppl have replaced reading books with watching movies.. surveys show that the average person watches around 4 hours and 32 minutes of television DAILY & that number increases on holidays!!

$ince people rarely read nowadays and have replaced books with tv shows or movies.. this also means that TV is their MAIN source of information and what ppl are continously viewing will definitely have an effect on them... for ex u spend most of ur time with your best friend... eventually u start talking and acting alike... even without realizing!! its pretty much the same with tv... ppl start to immitate what they see sometimes they are oblivious of the serious effects Tv can have!

Every generation is worse than the next ( i sound like a granny but its TRUE)... you want to protect yout children from the effect of television u can control the channels they watch..maybe even not have a TV in the house.. BUT what about in the REAL world... in school.. in the street! Is the solution blindfolding them? locking them up in a room away from this polluted world...

Cause from what i see EVERYWHERE you look there is something you shouldnt be looking at lol

Have you not noticed how they is hardly any censorship anymore? And that even in the morning or at noon when kids are mostly watching the tv the not very "sesame street" shows are on!! Yes i am not saying TV is all BAd... Yes there are alot of cool shows and i myself am a movie freak :S but some movies are just FULL of brain washing ideas that corrupt the taste, pollute the heart & brain, debase the mind, & demoralize the conduct of not only children but ADULTS as well.

Recently ive noticed that there is a noticable increase in violence, profanity, disrespect for traditonal values, unethical & morally unacceptable ideas, sexual connotation in movies.. What is considered a "G" RAted movie is FAR from "General"!

Ask yourself if the same kinds of scenes and messages we see now of all too many programs of today were found in the programs of twenty years ago. Not even 10 years ago!!

We are being exposed to growing amounts of inappropriate material if we choose to watch TV without being selective of what we watch with time we also will be brain washed and our minds will be polluted.

What people are repeatedly exposed to in advertisements, entertainment, novels, motion pictures, etc, has a great affect on ones self-image and behavior!

Television is no longer just entertainment it has become a "value-setter" where ppl compare themselves and thier lifestyle to what they see on TV! Movies have glorified violence, infidelity, & deviant behavior and have even made them look glamourous!

Another thing i noticed is that by continously being exposed to such shows & movies that hold soo much violence is being DESENSITIZED! People have gotten used to seeing death and violence that they have less sympathy for suffering and accept the idea of violence very easily. Which explains how the world sits their looking at people die in palestine,iraq,Lebanon & all around the world without taking any actions.. not even a flinch...

We must NOT take this matter lightly & have to at least be AWARE of what is happening around us and what will happen in the future if things keep escalating the way they are.

SAid like a true movie freak :P its been a while since i wrote something serious :)
but kolo wala that "boos il wawa" kid!!