In6agieeet Again :)

Been Taggeg by 3oriental and JasMinO

i have to mention at least 5 smells i really love... hmmmm khaleeni afakir... bas 5??


the smell of ti2layet il towmeh (garlic) when you cook molookhiyeh especially when you are starving!!! Of course i don't mean after you eat it and your breath smells like many unpleasant things lol




the smell of al nadafa... mostly the smell of clean clothes ( with softner )

the smell some hair conditioners & bath oils especially when it's a good hair conditioner gives you a whiff every once in a while like a sunsilk ad

ta ta ta ta taraa raaaa raaaaaa

the smell of scented candles

the smell of anything that is made out of CHOCOLATE



the smell of BAnzeeen * dina twitches wipes nose with her sleeve :P


the smell of Super glue & markers! hada ana tli3t JUNKIE!





* after this dina enrolls in a support group by the name " ana ba7ib ashim floooooomaster " then goes to " no more banzeen " group

Car Trouble

Ok.. i promised honeymoon adventures but there is "khabar 3aaajil" breaking news hehe that interrupted my train of honeymoon thoughts...

remember how i i blogged once about my last car getting canceled in a car accident.. i forgot to mention i recently got a new CAR... that is not the khabar.. the news is that my new carcareeero.. :(---- 3a6laneh! there was an oil leakage and i dont even know how it happened.. yes i sometimes daydream when i drive and im not exaclty the best driver which makes all fingers point at me when things like this happen but really im innocent! i have no idea what hit the car! :(--- its new!!

not only that it got scratched 2 huge scratches in the PARKING!When i say scratch i don't mean those down with a key.. like MAJOR SCRATCH! ALLAH ysam7ak ya b3eed!

i park and wake up the next day to surprises! PEOPLE if you scratch someones car leave a NOTE or actually LOOK WHEN YOU TURN! ifffffft

i started thinking of other ways to get to work that don't involve car scratches oil leakage or speeding tickets! :P You know off the topic you know when you are following someone to somewhere ( not following as in psycho killer stalker following) but folloowing as in for directions.. and you end up on a roundabout... don't you get annoyed how you always end up waiting for like 10 mins after they pass?! or when you are at a traffic light and it turns RED right after they pass!? or when suddenly all the buses trucks and cars in the world decide to CUT IN FRONT OF YOU!!

AAAARGH.. sho hada?!

Ofcourse bagarti is back in business! She has had a hard time getting over the fact that i'm married! But now she adjusted to the new lifestyle :)

HoneyMoon Adventures II

Let me start by saying thank you to all those people who keep reading my blog and leave me the sweetest comments i am so sorry if i dont always get a chance to reply to all of you.. but know that when i read your comment i always smile :)

so well as i promised i will have more than one post about the honeymoon adventures so what did i do on most of the honeymoon days??

lets see it was a mixture of sleeping coughing and mostly trying to control my runny nose! it was not only runny it was burkuth rkaaath! how attractive? hehe but you know il martha fi blaad il ajanib ghier ya nass! hayk il naffeh hnaak ghier! lol


i felt sorry ahmed who had to witness my beautiful recovery ! but you know even with me being sick it was an amazing honeymoon! I will post the real adventures soon but i have lots of work these days because soosi my friend who works with me in the design department is on her vacation! soo kolo 3ala dmaaaghi!! lululeeeeesh

More Wedding PIcs

here is a closer look at the post-it giveaways i did for the wedding with a pic of the zaffa and cutting the cake :) the zaffa people were very good! they kept saying something then "A7maaaaaaaaaayyyyyd" and i remember when they left the ballroom they did a zaffa group hop to the door!! hehe

I LOVED OUR WEDDING :) nifsi kaaan akol basssssss all i had was shrimpayeh 7azeeneh ! people are still telling me how good the food was!*sigh* next wedding im going to bug the bride and groom and i will not let them eat!!!

i used to always wonder why the bride and groom leave when the boufet is served! it is because if they stay in the hall they will not EAT!!! lol

i forgot to mention the bouquet i was holding weighed at least 5 kgs! im serious it had some wires in it or something! by the end of the zaffa my hand was shaking and people thought i was nervous! i wasn't nervous i was IN PAIN! lol

at the end they asked me to throw my bouquet... i decided not throw it in case if it landed on someones head and caused instant death of the poor bride to be!

HoneyMoon Adventures I

So.. where should i start... i talk for ages on my normal days.. days that are typical and mundane in my life somehow turn into adventures so you can imagine what i have to say about a trip to a land with lots of snakes elephants & monkeys!!

i'll write in episodes ! Of course when you go to an island with beaches and pools... less clothes ( nas labseen min ghier hudoom) is expected... at certain points i would feel the urge to aim a remote at people hoping somehow i would change to " IQRA" or " AL JAZEERA".. sadly my plan would fail.. and i would try to distract ahmed! it's not about ghad il basar.. i mean no matter where you look there is a body part smiling back at you!! ehem !! next time we are going to saudi or iran! hehe


what else... nature there is BEAUTIFUL! AMAZING! i will post pics as soon as i download them here!! the weather was also AMAZING compared to UAE humidity ! The only thing that could have bothered us was the mosquitoes!!! they seemed to like new mustawrad meat! i lost track of how many mosquito bites i had! i think I'm still itching!! but then look at the bright side... no malaria in Thailand *PHEW*

So... did i mention how i got a major VIRUS as soon as we reached Thailand... i think i carried it with my luggage from UAE! hehe spent most of my time in bed! but eventually it got better and we had a wonderful time :)

next post will be about the monkey and elephant adventures!!

I'm Back

MISS ME? ana back!! ok i dont even know where to start with the wedding or the honeymoon adventures but lets start with the WEDDING!!

so after stressing out and planning and freaking about about the little details things always turn out different and no one even notices those little details you freak out about and you spend your time tense on your kowsha when people didnt even realize if the cd has played twice or the other changes in plans...

so the day passed by soo quickly it was the quickest day of my life! i invited more people that the hall could fit and that was the major thought that occupied my mind the whole time.. so when the zaffa started at first i didnt see much people.. then suddenly i saw a LOT OF PEOPLE!! and people could tell from my face that im thinking " OH MY GOD WAYN RA7 yu23odooooo kol hadol!! there are not enough seats!!"

inforont us in the zaffa i had my friends cute 6 year old girl throwing flowers.... wel that was the plan and my cousins 2 cute kids were holding candles infront of us... in the middle of the zaffa the cute little girl decides to tug at my dress and say " ANTI ANTI sho 2a3mal wayn aroo7".. * dina smiles at camera and glares at the nearest family members to save the scene... family member are too caught up in the zaffa they don't really notice the GLARE or the GIRL lol .... the other 2 kids seem to be having trouble keeping the candles still.. soo i could see the flame heading towards the camera mans head and im thinking " hareeeeeeeeega!!" soo then all the kids come to a halt and i'm thinking yes zaffas are supposed to be slow but are we supposed to stop?! sooo ofcourse no one noticed my glares of " HELP" and i actually had to give the kids a little push on the back fi nus il zaffa to MOVE!! LOL

sooo... after the zaffa there was an entrance song supposed to be played WHEN WE GET In.... as we were standing outside waiting for the people to get back to their seats i HEAR " TUleeeeeeeeeeeeeee bil abyad TUllleeeeeeeeeeeeeee ya zahrit neesan" and im thinking " TAL MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEN Lisa walum lisaaaa" ahhaha

so after almost half the song finished playing and people got back to thier seat we played it again at the RIGHT time.. lol again things i thought people would notice went wrong!

so then... after the zaffa 3adat 3ala khier no tripping no fires no stepping on little kids... we sat and infront of us was some yummy looking food! And each time ahmed and i tried to eat a lu2meh! people came for pics!! i just had one lu2meh and then the food was taken away.. :(----

oh oh cake time .... the cake ofcourse had a hijjabi with shades... done by me ofcourse and well the sword was big but no injuries al hamdulilah... there was a slight problem though when we attempted to give each other a sip of JUICE... from my side everything was okay.. i aimed at ahmeds mouth and the straw was easy to capture but ofcourse ME.... i looked so silly like a fish following bait as ahmeds hand was a bit far away from my mouth and i had my mouth open trying to get the straw of 3aseer in my mouth! lol mom saved that scenario after like 2 minutes of struggling! sure it was on video to horrify me later lol

what else..... yes there were some people sharing seats.. some people sitting on the wrong tables.. some kids who were not supposed to be there were there... but in ther end it was a nice wedding.. the food was great ( i heard ) and the people had fun.. it was a small dinner and people said it was cozy and classy... i will post pics of the hall decoration and the giveaways too :)there were chocolate boxes on each table with our honeymoon cartoon on it! ( no cow though) i will post a clearere close ups of the boxes & post-its soon :)

for now here is the cartoon that was inside the wedding invitation & some wedding pics :)




here is the mini-kowsha i did ! i made mini seats for the pens out of clay and covered them with cloth and the same ribbon that was on the seats! ofcourse the pens too are designed :) and you know that little golden thing next to the mini flower bouquet was not supposed to be there.. another mini mistake lol :)




these cartoons were circles one attached to the wedding invitation (front/back) other to the chocolate box :)
















so WE ARE MARRIED! and it went WELL! i wish i was less tense thought because no one noticed anything but the food :)

CAN't wait to tell you all about THAILAND!!!

Coming Soon.. Dinos shares how she spent the honeymoon recovering from a VIRUS!

THE DAY HAS COME

its 12:50 AM.... i would say my wedding is 2moro but its actually today... I AM GETTING MARRIED.... the more i say it doesnt help me realize that its going to happen lol it's like ive been to many wedding only this time im the 3aroosa! weird! so all those people who will clap and zaghrit will be zaghirting for me?!

i need to sleep i SHOULD be sleeping right now but guess WHAT!? i can't.. i keep thinking of scenarios and possible mess ups! like for ex the CD being exchanged by mistake with some weird SONG like " sean paul" or BOMBASTIC or even some weird CD with the sounds of Nature .. * suddenly crowd hears sound of waterfall and horses

dina raises her (very heavy) dress and runs to Audio man.. " WALAK MUSH HAADA IL CD"
or even worse if i really have to go to the bathroom in the middle of the zaffA! ( i usually feel like going when im nervous) ( Someone remind me why im sharing this with the world) lol like excuse me zaffa people can you wait 5 minutes till i go and powder my manakheer!?

or even worse like im holding the sword with ahmed to cut the cake and some lady sneaks up from behind us with no prior alarm or notice she zaghrits the most egptian zaghroota in the world.. and ofcourse nervousness + zaghroot + sword = THAT CAN'T BE GOOD LOL

again remind me why we have to cut the cake with a deadly army weapon?

i just had flashbacks of all the weddings ive been to... all typical... couples slow dance people cry... ( i cry too at weddings there is just something about seeing somene get married that seriously makes all girls cry) here is why :

married women cry because they got married and single women cry because they WANT to get married

then people complain why the food is soo late... food arrives and people still complain about something.. " il wara2 3inab mush zaki" or " yee il khubuz baarid" then well they all form a "crtique session" and start discussing the bride's dress and makeup and ofcourse each person shares the info they know about the bride and groom and how they met and who loves each other more... bla bla bla...

then some kid crys somewhere and ofcourse we all KNOW where those babies should be right now! FIL DAR MAKHMOOODEEN! :P

and ofcourse there is always that person who is in the video and the wedding that NO ONE knows.. bride's side assume they are with the groom and the groom assumes they are from the bride's side of the family!

aah i can go on forever about weddings lol and well i should SLEEEP.. today i had some sort of nervous breakdown when i tried the dress... hoping i dont get anymore nervous breakdowns!!

WISH ME LUCK PEOPLE! i promise to show u all cool wedding things i did as soon as this night yi3adee 3al khier :)

ok that was too much

p.s.

when they say beauty sleep does it mean if u dont sleep enough u will turn ugly

i will not be posting for a while but inshala i will as soon as i get a chance with ALL WEDDING DETAILS.. hope i dont have weird stories to share!

ANOTHER AAAAAAAH

ok... yes im relaxed but i need to VENT... list is still way above the limit... all im getting is ppl saying " NO ONE WILL MISS YOUR WEDDING".... ( that was supposed toe ba comforting thought ? : lol what happened to "invite 200 ppl and 100 will show up" lol im kidding if i invited u i wish you can make it... bindabirlkum ma7al ba3teekum my chair kaman... ill keep the 3arees :P

anyway... i would love that everyone i know be there including the bloggers but walllahi its small so if ur not invited its just because its not even a wedding its a small dinner...

anyway... soo i went to the visa consulate today... after getting lost for an hour ofcourse.... jsut to find out that thialand is celebrating some thialand holiday and decide to take 2 days off! the 2 days i had planned on applying for the visa.. so another PLAN of the day RUINED! AAAAAAAH

then i get a call.. from a weird number.. and usually that is not good...

ALo...
ALoo

miss X:Dina?
MOI :AAH
Miss X:Inti madam wala 2anseh
*dino thinking to herself...this is a wrong time for anti's with 3irsan offers
Dina :MAdam... khier?
aah ana baddee 2ilieek ino il ra7 ta3malik sha3ratik fil 3urs saafarit 3omra and ana ra7 2a3milik iyaham...

me HUH? safarat? meen? wayn? who are you?

so the lady who i had booked to do my hair for the non hijabi pics decided to go for 3omra.. now i have this other person who i have no idea about...

anyway... what the worst that can happen? she could easily decide to TRIM my hair and make tisreee7aaaaaaaaaa "ra2i3a" with meeeeesh and weird 7ashwat in the hair... making me look like im part of " cirque de soleil"

i hate it when salon ladies think they know what you want and end up ruining your hair!! or when you say bidi LIGHT MAKE UP.. like INVISIBLE makeup.. the make up that you have to wonder if its REALLY THERE.. she says.. "eh eh ma inti 3arooooooooooooooos lazim makeup 3ashan iltasweer "and before u know it your face looks like a VAN GOGH painting 3alas shwayait zahrat al khaleeej style!!!

yes u said it TASWEER not being spotted through a SATELLITE from outer space! ya3ni all my life i have taken pics... and they look fine ( expect for a few where i have werid facial expressions" but how come yowm il 3urs your makeup has to be INTENSE as in layers and layers.. :P have u girlies out there noticed how when a salon find out u are a bride they charge u extra!! like ok.. how much is hair styling... 200 ok yes ok so will u adjust the tar7a for me.. : oohh Tar7a lala il tisree7a ta3it il 3aroos is 1500!! if not 3000!! HELLO its the same freakin tisree7a?!?!!

ARGH.... 7arameyeen il nass sayreen!!

anyway...i will not let some lady turn my face into merlin manson..i will do do everything my way.... and btw when it comes to makeup LESS IS MORE PEOPLE LOL

ANyway.. then i get a call from my cousin who is coming from amman today... and well.. guess what SHE MISSED HER FLIGHT.. and now she is taking a later flight... which somehow stresses me out more..

sho kaman???? I NEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEED VALIUM.. thanks for your comment forgive me for not replying im just like my cousin said " ur probably running around like a headless chicken" lol

Soo true... :P

today is over so i have 2moro and after wa BASS!! hope there are no last minutre mishaps or surprises.. i hope i dont trip.. since we ARE going up STAIRS.. i hope i dont spill juice on ahmed.. i hope i dont step on the litte girl who will be throwing flowers inforont of me.. i hope i dont step on ahmeds feet when we dance! i hope that my wedding will be perfect... as soon as i have time ill post all the wedding stuff i did!! :) i had the cartoon on the wedding invitation :)

thanks for all ur support guys

Allah yis3idkum

2 DAYS LEFT!!!

let me start by saying....

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

now let me just quickly type this before i run out of the house being the bridezilla that i am!!

wedding was supposed to be 100 to 110 people max.... when i went through the list of invited people ( who probably WILL come) 140 PEOPLE!!!! some MINI-Miscalculation!!

or lets say MAJOR miscalculation!

dina : mama how many ppl are your list
mama : ma bitla3ooosh 20 30 maximnum
dina: mama akeed? akeed? 3ashan ba3zim naas kman
mama: aaah aaah

*dina invites more people ( including some who didn't invite her to their own wedding which she regrets very deeply now) lol

later on that day... counting list.... AAAAAAAAH 140.. 30 ppl must stick to the dance floor.. wait.. there is not much dance floor... there is not DANCING lol
ok i guess 30 ppl must just come sit by me and ahmed

anyway... ofcourse im getting not only lovely spots on my FACE but i feel sick and have a major COLD today!! 2 DAYS usually pass by quickly in the normal days you can imagine how FAST they will pass by when u are GETTING MARRIED

IM GETTING MARRIED!! ME ? DINA? pls keep telling me because the thought is not sinking in ... its soo weird... not bad weird.. not twilight zone weird.. just weird..

i wonder what embarrassing things i will do when the cameras are pointed at me for 3 hours.. all my experiences with video cameras and being taped include major embarrassment ! because i tend to do many faces when i talk .. like very expressive faces... that i dont even realize im doing... and when im nervous i SMILE.. like that major signal 2 smile... ok smiling is good but overdoing the smile is just :S GOOFY!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH GOTTA RUN VISA TIME

ID3ooooooooooooooooooooolna

The Countdown HAS BEGUN

So... on a less depressing note... i'm getting married ( INSHALA ) :)

irdaa al nasss ghaya la tudrak... so whatever i do... or don't do... i will always here criticism complaints and negative comments... been driving myself mad trying to think of how to make everyone happy... including myself.. and well.. that is not exactly possible...

yes dad is still recovering and his recovery will take months.. even years... some suggested i wait for a couple of years before i get married.. others said i should not even wear a white dress... people said all sorts of things.. and what i have to say is that.. AL hamdulilah baba is ALIVE... he will be better with time inshala...

it's been around 5 months now and having a small wedding dinner does not mean i'm selfish.. it does not mean i don't care about my dad's current situation.. it just means life goes on and i know if was able to speak he would be the first to tell me to go on with this...

i am sad because i will not have the dream of him walking me down the aisle... but la i3tirad 3aala qada2 Allah... wa i still want what every girl lives her whole life dreaming of... a BEAUTIFUL WEDDING DAY...


INshala all goes well.. 6 DAYS left....

the thought that im going to a wedding where im THE BRIDE is just not sinking in :S

cow is also stressed with me! Allah ytamem 3ala khier

i miss you

dear baba..

i miss you... your loud voice... your loud cough when you enter the house.. your friday breakfasts & grocery shopping "outing"...the many awkard silences we had... i miss the way you used to express your love by making us never need anything... you had a bad temper and sometimes yelled for no reason.. but behind that roar was a soft heart...

you were my shield...my security... you protected us from the cruelty of the world and to me although we didn't bond much i knew i could count on you.. i knew you would be there... i knew you would take care of us... what i didn't know is that i took your presence in my life for granted.. i wouldn't make any effort to get closer to you... i didn't express what i felt because throughout the years it became even harder for me to express my feelings to you... you confused strength & pride with expressing your feelings.. to you expressing love was a weakness... which is why there was this unbreakable barrier between us... to save myself from feeling rejected by you i also pushed you away and created my own barrier without even noticing...

i never knew tears could flow down your cheeks without you even realizing they are... i never knew pain could be so intense that it feels like it has become a part of you... i never thought i would feel this much regret in my life.. i never imagined this could happen to you...

i can't believe this is your reality... i can't bare to see you like this... i'm so sorry if i wasn't the best daughter.. if i didn't appreciate you... im so sorry i am selfish sometimes... i'm sorry i can't say anything to you when i see you...

i just miss you & hate my life without you...

Cow Appreciation Day!!

Today is not any day... it is... COW APPRECIATION DAY.. so people... if you come across a cow... give it some lovin'

:) a hug... a massage... a facial... just be good to all cows today :) Eat your burgers 2moro :)

BLOCK BLOCK BLOCK

you know recently i have realized that i have this strange ability to block things... i think its a blessing.. like i have a built in firewall that only accepts certain thoughts and blocks others...

this firewall works almost all the time... but there are moments.. it suddenly shuts down and i'm overwhelmed with those thoughts i had blocked and i feel like i am going to burst into tears.. and sometimes i do.. and people around me would look at me weird and think .. wasn't she fine just a second ago... well.. just cause i don't express what i feel doesn't mean i don't feel it..

my bagara has been a great help and keeps dancing in her new leopard outfit singing lurpak songs...

anyway... i don't think i'll ever get over how my dad is now... and i'll never understand what happened to him... i can't imagine that he might not ever be the same.. i can't imagine how he feels... it hurts so much that blocking this reality is what keeps me okay..

some things don't get easier by time.. the only thing that gets easier is blocking...


ok... too much nakad for one day...

after all this time just when we thought baba was getting better and moved out of the ICU.. he went back in last night... they might get him out today.. inshala khier... its so hard to deal with things especially when you have high hopes... then suddenly you are back to square one..

Allah Ysabirna wa yishfee :(

PIANIST NEEDED

hello readers... i am looking for someone who is good piano player that will play the piano for 2 hours in my wedding dinner (not for free ofcourse )... if you know anyone or are a pianist and ofcourse are interested leave me a comment and i will be so grateful...

:) i had to give it a shot.. you never know who reads your blog :)

next cartoon is coming soon im going through wedding stress again... less than a month left... so much to do...

*SCREAM

Cow'$ Update$

i know most of you are fans of my cow.. and well i havent updated you on her life for a while.. she was fired from her last job because her inability to read or write was a major requirement :S so now she has started her new job as a house maid! :S

she mentioned that the couple that live there usually argue about the same thing...the fact that they are so different.. when i say different i'm not saying as individuals but as "MALES &FEMALES" and she felt the wife would always be talking all day... asking her husband & reminding him to get things done.. telling him the littlest details in her day... telling him her thoughts and feelings... while the husband would nod and might even doze off & get sick of her endless blabbing..

so i had to explain to cow some things i realized about males & females :

Woman think completely different than MEN.. what is so obvious to a woman does not usually occur to a man.. what WE think is the first thing that comes to our mind is the last that comes to theirs.. we feel talk IS communication... men feel talking must have a purpose... "give me a problem ill solve it " type of thing... Women think they are simple when they are so complex... men think they are complex when in reality they are really simple & easy to understand if you knew them well... Men are like big babies...

Conclusion is... MEN & Woman have had and will always have their differences.. that's how they were created... it shouldn't be a problem if they learn about those differences and adjust to them... if you are stubborn and so close minded thinking you are right & the other person is wrong.. things will definitely get worse...

its not about who is right or wrong.. or who wins... or even who is the strong one in the relationship.. its all about sacrifices... respecting & understanding each other.. loving each other without boundaries or limits...


p.s. cow slept by the end of this conversation :P

Why DoeS it Always Rain On Me?

i don't like to be negative.. and i don't like to believe that there is such a thing as bad luck... i don't like how people say everything is " 7asad" or "3ayn".. thier son trips they go like " ma7soood".. ( it could always be that he was running on wet floor)
someone gets a ZIT on their face.. they say its " 3ayn"
i usually would have said.. come on people.. 3ayn does exist but don't let it be the constant thought in your head...

but.. with the recent events... i've been told wallah hay " 3ayn 3alieki"... maybe its true because its unnatural what has been going on...

ofcourse you are all updated with the events in my life... most recent event is... that sharjah recently decided to make a RULE... awal ma they heard i am getting married.. they decided to make a rule that doesn't allow "ZAFFA" in hotels.. hmmm

i won't have a party... pretty much zaffa WAS the wedding... so now i have to look for another place in dubai... not only that.. the guy who was going to print my wedding cards... disappeared... one day he said i'm coming to your office 2moro.. next thing i know he doesn't pick up and is in india for an emergency...

all i seem to be hearing is bad news! mom's car broke down for no reason.. my friend's dad is in the hospital with a brain stroke like my dad.. my friend at work canceled her wedding because her uncle and grandmother are both extremely sick...another friend canceled her wedding because her dad got a brain stroke too..

Soooo.. what is going on? mawsim il jaltat wil wedding cancellation? is it possible someone has "3ayn" vibes spread on all the world especially the 3arayis!

people used to tell me " khaaafo min il 3anayhom zuru2 wa snaaanhum furu2" " you should fear those with blue eyes and a gap in between their teeth"

it is said that "3aynhum bitseeeb" lol

soo what about hazel eyes? do contacts affect the intensity of the "3ayn"?
hmmm what if someone had the "LAZIC" operation... would he have lazer 7asad? lol

i'm not saying 7asad & 3ayn don't exist.. they do.. and maybe i have been ma7sooda or 3alay il 3ayn.. but it's also maktoob 3ala every person what will happen to them... thinking WHY will drive you mad... just say al hamdulilah.. and know its for the best... if you feel better blaming it on your blue-eyed snaan furug neighbor then do that ... or blame it on that girl who stared at you all day long... blame it whoever you want...

whatever floats your boat :)

It's All About The $$$$$

"Money makes the world go round " is what people say... i think money makes the world go NUTS..

i used to say money is not a problem and its not the most important thing in life.. that there are other things that are more important like a person's faith health & love .

i still think those are more important BUT what i have realized is that money is not a problem when YOU HAVE IT... otherwise it could be... that to get good health and the best treatment you NEED money.. to get married and live the life you want with the one you love u also NEED money... i realized that without enough money love health & faith can be shaken..

Anyway... money...i would never ask for it even if i needed it..hamdulilah we are not in need of money... but i hate asking for anything or feeling that i need someones help in any way... i know its not right.. but i can't help it..

like now without a car i never ask for rides and well people have to insist on dropping me off.. i just can't deal with the idea that i could be a burden on someone.. or that someone would get out of their way to do something for me... or that they would do something just cause they feel its the right thing to do...

What i hate the most... is to finally say okay after they insist.. like for ex "pls let me drop you off... plz plz.. its no problem at all... you are on my way..." i eventually open up and think it's okay to need someone or to accept help i say.. "okay if you insist..."

till its time to go and she would say " oh sorry... i said i was going to drop you off... you are not exactly on my way.. but wait i'll drop you half way if you want"

then i'd say it's okay... i'd rather take a cab..... ( what i wish i said was)


I Never asked you to drop me off... you insisted...i would have never asked you..
& i hate to get in someones way...

*sigh

which brings me back to the main subject... COW has realized the importance of $$$ & has started her new JOB today! due to her inability to read or speak the work load is getting bigger...

:P

It's NOT ALL about YOU

The WHOLE world does not revolve around YOU.. when i say YOU i mean those people who somehow make any event that happens, no matter how trivial or significant it might be, they make everything ABOUT THEM ...

Those people who would come and just flip out and act like its okay to bite your head off just cause THEY are having a bad day...

Those people who say things like " i know that girl lost her parents in tsunami and is paralyzed and will not be able to pay for her treatment, I've been through worse!! I was swimming in jumaira beach once and i SWEAR i was about to drown! then i got bit by a jellyfish!! I FELT like i was going to die so i KNOW how she feels.. at least she doesn't have a jellyfish SCAR on her arm"

pssssssht * dinos Rolls eyes

I think we all tend to get a bit selfish and make things always about ourselves... i also know people do stupid things sometimes and say " It's MY LIFE ANA 7ur free to do what i want" unaware that sometimes THEIR stupid actions don't only affect them but the people around them...

Freedom of choice has nothing to do with being an IDIOT!

Someone who drinks and drives can kill innocent people and block traffic for hours!
Someone can suddenly go into "CANDYMAN/ FRIDAY 13th" mode and kill innocent people..

Unfortunately, as soon as ANYONE does something horrible they are not the only ones who suffer the consequences.. Every person comes from a certain group or is labeled
like for ex "ARAB,MUSLIM,PALESTINIAN,"

So if one arab or muslim does something bad.. automatically the WHOLE GROUP "shilleh"
is to blame...

IT's NOT ALL ABOUT YOU... it's NEVER just about you...

Choking Love

when i say choking love.. i am not using choking as a VERB.. but i am saying it as an Adjective to express how love can be choking sometimes...

Sometimes you feel a person loves you so so much to a point that it turns into possessiveness... it turns into a sort of unbearable clinginess, over protectiveness...

You feel you have to get away because you can't breathe... it's like poor cow who has to deal with my EXTRA loving! She seems to think she has grown up but to me she will always be a baby... i do express way too much and maybe i worry a bit too much too... but i have to realize she is not a kid anymore and will have her own baby cows to worry about someday! Glad humans don't eat their children like cats do when they are afraid they would get hurt.

If that was the case then there we would all be walking happy meals.


min al 7ubbi ma qatal.


i have to realize that by being over-loving and clingy i'm actually pushing people i love away rather than keeping them closer.... not everyone expresses love the same way you do... which is why each person should be free to express themselves the way they want to...

Shark Tale

I went to see an aquarium a while back and i was amused at the different types of fish and i still remember how the shark was "darib booz" swimming like he owned the place! ofcourse with my imaginative mind i imagined swimming in that huge tank.... and i thanked God fish can't think like humans do.. or they would create ways to come after US! :P

hyundai ad

:) here is something that made me laugh today.. thought i would share it with you

Tea Spill

the reason i don't blog much lately is because i feel my negative feelings and vibes will spread to the world so i try to save he negativity to myself and blog later when i'm back to "cheerful" mode..

but... then again the initial purpose of this blog is to vent & let out those negative feelings online rather than out on the people around me..

Let's say you are holding a very hot cup of tea... and for some reason you trip on something.. your hot tea is now not only spilt all over you.. but all over the person by your side... when you are hurt.. you usually unintentionally spill some of your anger and hurt on to the people closest to you...


so.. recently i have had not one.. not two but many slaps of reality... and i think i have been spilling most of my "TEA" on the closest people to me..

especially poor Cow :P who has her nieces visiting from "AMeriCana"

if i ever unintentionally burnt anyone by my "shay il wizza" im sorry...

Gat $aleemA

first let me just assure you that i don't make up stories.. and this blog is proof of how dramatic my life can get! Here is the story...

i was driving to the hospital to see baba.. and well te traffic light turned yellow and i knew i would miss it so i decided to slow down and stop when it turned red... and well i did... suddenly i hear someone hit the BREAKS.... EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE still unsure if that person would hit ME!! BOOOOOOOOOM! HE HIT MY CAR!! he was driving over 100 on a road with 70 speed limit!!! im so glad i was wearing a seatbelt... that no one was driving ahead of me!! it could of been much worse... so al hamdulilah...

i have to wear a neck brace for a while till my neck feels better.. nothing serious.. al hamdulilah.. but its the whole experience!!!

hope this is the end of the DRAMA!

Cow survived the crash with slight injuries.. and a broken leg :P

btw my car is useless now.. too damaged to be fixed.. so im carless now.. *sigh

yala al hamdulilah...

do u believe me now when i say... 7ayati FILM!

Hideaway

i need to get away... i wish i was invisible... i need time away from all the comments i hear.. people interfering in my life.. making my decisions 4 me ! if i need advice believe me i WILL ASK for it! Unwanted Advice is simply UNWANTED!

Does my face have " please interfere in my life?" written all over it?

*dinos looks in a mirror...NO SUCH LINE ON MY FOREHEAD...
hmmm ok there could be some spots on my forehead forming an illegible line :P

i do appreciate it when someone cares and asks about me and my dad's condition and tells me they are there for me...(but ONLY when they mean it )

but what i don't like is when people don't really care but call just " rafi3 3attab".. like its "socially expected" of them to do so.. so they will visit u and call u once and disappear.. those calls or visits are not what i need right now..

And if you have nothing nice to say.. pls don't say anything at all..

AND...whether or not i will wear a white dress to my wedding.. whether or not i will even HAVE a wedding...or who will i invite... etc. is MY business..

no one has any right to judge me for wanting to have this night... im not saying right NOW with these circumstances... but eventually i will inshala and no one has any right to make me feel guilty...

i dont want to hear anymore comments on how my wedding should be.. or where it will be or if there is going to be a wedding...


i dont want to hear anymore insincere " if you need anything im here for you" lines..
i know who is there for me and who isn't.. and i know who my true friends are... and who really cares..i surely don't need anymore guilt trips from anyone...

just had to vent....


btw cow and i decided to go to the jungle to meet her friends... :P

The M@$K

i've always felt like a moody person.. but recently it's not just mood swings it's more like extreme schizophrenic attacks... i feel like im in the movie " The Mask"

Sssssssssomebody SSSSSSStop meeee... :P

it's not denial.. i've accepted my dad's situation... i sure do hope he will recover... and i know it's for the best... but sometimes to deal with reality i try not to think about it.. i keep myself busy.. i do the things i usually do everyday... i go to work.. i blog.. i eat.. i sleep.. see my friends... but then there is that moment when im not busy.. when im not with anyone.. the moment when reality catches up with me...

it's like someone took away a part of me.. like something inside me has died and is rotting more and more each day.. like someone tore my arms off and im sitting there looking away from the wounds.. acting like nothing happened... looking away for so long that i forget what has happened....

but no matter how far away i look... there will come a moment when i need to pick something up or even scratch my nose and i realize i have no arms..my arms are not there and i can never run away from myself...

hamdulilah i do have my arms .. im just trying to express how i feel..

i didn't know how much my dad did for us and how much we relied on him...i took him for granted.. that he will always be there... i miss him ... i miss his loud voice.. i miss our few talks... i miss having him around ...

i hate to sound this depressed.. i usually use humor to deal with drama.. i do succeed most of the time.. but right now im not wearing my mask...

the mask i wear so often that i think sometimes i even fool myself... please take my advice and if your dad's are healthy and there.. dont take them for granted.. talk to them more... because eventually all you will have from your parents are these memories...

mama i love you habeebti inti.. i admire your strength & faith.. i know this all will pass... i don't ever want to see you cry..don't worry about us we are all going to be fine.. Allah kbeer & will take care of us all :) wa Allah yishfe baba soon


al hamdulilah

Funny Indian Ads

after seeing a few indian commercials i really would like to share these 2 with you all! i saw the second one too many times that the song " mmmmmmwaaaaah" aheeeeeeeeyaheeeeeyaaaaaaay is stuck in my head... lol so my advice don't watch more than 3 times lol

Drama Drama Drama

My life is so dramatic... its a soap opera... the weirdest things happen to me... so I'm back with another episode of my life.. in my week off work we woke up one night to the FIRE alarm at 4 AM in the morning... THERE WAS A FIRE IN OUR BUILDING! Nice... eh? lol

Anyway i got flashbacks the last time i woke up freaked out at 4 am not so long ago to hear my mom call the ambulance for baba... So..you can imagine the DRAMA! we had to leave the building as soon as possible for all we knew the whole building could be on fire... and to think of what are the things i want to take with me.. hmm EVERYTHING.. what do i have time take NOTHING!! i started going back and forth quickly in the room trying to wear the first thing i find in my face! thinking back im sure it looked like i was doing some sort of weird rap dance in the room jumping from one side to the other with confusion!!

SO... we ran down the stairs and i remembered and Egyptian movie i used to always watch when i was a kid.. ( don't know why i watched it though it was kind of not a movie for kid).. the movie's was " KARAKOON FIL SHAri3 " Adel imam and yusras house falls down and i remember the scene with all the people running out and each person was carrying something weird.. one guy had a TV with him! LOL

Anyway... so we went downstairs and i thought i looked weird with my abaya on top of my pyjama till i saw the rest of the people who were downstairs! Some were so scared they didn't even put much clothes on! now i understand the arabic saying " il ikhtashoooo maaato"..hmm how can i translate that without it sounding cheesy... " those who get shy will die" lol

soooooooo... the fire was in a shop in our building's ground floor... it was big but was put out and after 3 hours mitil il musharadeen in the streets we went back home... AL HAMDULILAH

glad it wasn't serious :)

And about my dad.. well right after my last post about him getting better he had seizures and was put back on the machines... then al hamdulilah 2 days ago he was able to breath again and is back off the machines... it's always up's an downs and you can never know what is going to happen next... Inshala ya Rab he will recover from this...

Al hamdulilah 3ala kol ishi ... ill keep you guys posted in my next episode

Favorite Video$

ill be off for a week starting today and i might nto get a chance to blog.. dad's condition is much better he is breathing on his own and is awake :) he also had "boootha" icecream yesterday.. recovery takes time... and lots of patience.. but i feel good al hamdulilah.. Allah kareem and he will be better soon inshala :)

here are a few videos i LOVE!!!! mashala at the talents all around the world!! i am still shocked at the baby imams!! And the BABY BREAKDANCER!! so enjoy these videos till i get back :) these baby videos show how the way you are brought up could definitely affect the way you will turn out! baby breakdancer vs. baby shiekh

sub7annaLLah

And pls don't stop your prayers they are WORKING :) al hamdulilah

Thank you all for your support! Allah yis3idkum Jamee3an :)

Numbness

i feel numb inside...

numbness... the lack of feeling.. perhaps it would be more accurate to say a lack of connection with our feelings or a disconnection from emotions..numbness is one way we protect ourselves against the onrush of pain and against being overwhelmed by suffering...

In my case its emotional pain, but don't we respond similarly to a physical blow with numbness before our pain sets in?

I remember once when i was in grade 4 i was playing hide and seek with a girl that was 3 times my size... well it was her turn to seek and i was peeking from behind a corner of a wall.. trying to see where she was... suddenly a heavy weight plunged at me from a distance.. .. i remember a BIG THUD!!!

everything was in slow motion... i was not quite aware of what was happening... the sound of the kids playing the playground faded out and i don't remember seeing anyone around me...(although i was surrounded by people).. i do remember there was a lot of screaming though..

my white t-shirt is now a dark shade of red...i was bleeding... the girl had tripped and fallen right on top of me... causing my head to hit the wall corner from top to bottom.. (ouch)

i don't remember feeling pain... i felt numb... confused... in shock.. it was only later on my way to the hospital that i felt a throbbing pain in my head...

that is what i feel now.. numb at what has happened... i know soon that excruciating pain will come... when i realize the severity of the wound...

Sometimes in the house i'd be plugging in something to the electricity and suddenly the electricity would go off...

just like dangerous surge of electricity will activate a circuit breaker and cut off the electricity to stop a fire or the chances of electrocution.. i feel a great deal of anguish will activate our emotional "circuit breaker" temporarily, so that we don't feel the pain...

self defense mechanism i guess..

Dad's condition is stable.. he opened his eyes.. can move one hand al hamdulilah... there are signs of recovery.. but to see him so helpless and weak brings so much sadness to my heart..

Allah y2awmoh bil salameh wa ysabirna.. all we have is our prayers... wa Allah Kareem

He Squeezed my HAND!

Yesterday i went to see my dad and as i was talking to him and then suddenly he opened his eyes... i was suddenly speechless.. i held his hand and i tried to think of what was the best thing to say to someone who just woke up from a coma and has tubes in his mouth and nose! the best thing to say to someone who in in so much pain and is unable to even express himself! i said " hamdila 3al salameh " i think i stuttered a bit...

its so funny how i get nervous when i talk to my dad.. like anything i say to him will sound stupid...

he is a serious man.. he doesn't usually get my jokes.. or gets them and decides to ignore them... :S anyway it was no time for humor.. i sat there saying how we miss him and how the house is depressing without him.. and then i felt him SQUEEZE my hand... i never thought such a simple gesture could stand for so much... i felt his pain.. i could hear his cry for help.. i felt his love.. i felt his sadness.. his confusion at why his lying in bed unable to get up or speak....

he would look around like a baby who is discovering the world for the first time... at that moment i felt like i was the parent.. sub7anallah


i felt helpless... but al hamdulilah.. he is getting better.. i don't really remember the last time i held his hand... i don't think i ever did. ( except for when i was a kid)

Allah yishfee :) i feel its everyones prayers being answered :) al hamdulilah

Life is a SIM card

ok why am i saying that? life is a sim card... a week ago it occurred to me how we are not so different from our phones when i again dropped my phone in water...

just like one drop of water in the wrong place can cause serious damage.. a drop of air in our bloodstream will cause immediate death... a drop of blood in the e brain causes sever brain damage... so we are left like a damaged phone... body is there but the memory is all lost... same phone... no connection to the world.. a body without a soul... or with a soul that is trapped in a body that is too damaged for it to even be seen...

we are more fragile than we realize... how could we be so weak yet so stubborn and ignorant? how could we know of this weakness and still act like we are invincible?
i guess its a blessing sometimes to be this ignorant.. imagine living in fear of death every second...

This past week i have learnt so many lessons.. believe it or not this week i have counted more blessings than i have in my life! i feel truly blessed.. and thankful..

Spending time in the hospital all day, i saw many stories that only made me feel more thankful... stories that happened to ppl and could've happened to anyone of us..

everyday i see a 30 year old man who had suffered from a brain stroke. he has been in the hospital for 11 months now.. and just recently he has opened his eyes and is showing signs of recovery.. i see his family around him everyday teaching him how to eat and speak again..

he has 4 kids and he was perfectly fine.. up until one day at work he was stressed out and had a brain stroke. His little daughter comes to the hospital everyday with a new song and sings it to him. She would hug him and sing to him and his wife said he tried to snap his fingers as she sang to him!

i see kids that are born crippled or paralyzed. And even though they are the way they are they are the most cheerful kids i have ever seen.. laughing and smiling and playing..

i see a 5 year old kid using a walker because she is born with crooked legs... i see an old man who has been in ICU in a coma for 6months and no one hardly visits him.

i see all sorts of people from all around the world and i realize that no matter how different we might seem.. we are all the same.. all holding on to the people we love.. holding on to life.. with everything that we have.


i feel blessed to have a father to worry about... some people are born into families without parents... i feel blessed to have my health and my family and loved ones around me helping me go through this everyday.. i feel blessed that we have enough money to afford a hospital while some people die because they can't afford the costs of hospitals & operations.. i feel blessed that i have faith at times like this when i know lots of people tend to lose their faith in God.. i feel blessed because everything that happens to us happens for a reason & with Faith and Patience (Sabr) God will reward us by taking away from our sins...

al hamdulilah... ina ma3 al 3usri yusra


another blessing is that now with all those ppl calling me i got my contacts back with extra numbers kaman :)

Sad Friday

its the first friday without my dad being home... he has travelled before and i have not seen in in months sometimes but this is different.. i keep telling myself he travelled somewhere... but then reality crawls back into my head and i realize what has happened..

I think fridays are harder than any other days to cope with this.. since i hardly saw him except on friday.. he would always wake up early and then we would all have the "FRIDAY Ftooor" which usually includes Fool Farouq <-- FArouq is baba..

so... b4 that he would always love to go to carfour and get all sorts of food! he loves food wa iza FE any OFFER in the world he will get it.. if you take a look in our kitchen you find boxes and boxes of biscuits and chocolates... and probably no one has ever heard of them! And when we say " baba la meen kol haaad? ma 7ada ra7 yakloh!" he says " ANA bowkloh" :S

see a major reason he is where he is right now is how careless he was when it comes to food! he would eat all sorts of baskoot and BAGLAWA and tabeekh without even tryin to khafif!! :(--

Anyway.. i keep remembering the time he would come and ask me to go to carfeour with him or to any dicsount center and id refuse and say " ma fee ishi hnaak" or " mush jay 3ala bali"... it hurts so much when it finally occurs to me that it was never about those discount centers.. it was his way of asking me to spend time with him..

whats even sadder is that now when i go and talk to him... i find my tongue tied and i feel like i cant say anything.. the same feeling i got when he was awake.. i want to tell him how i feel.. how i miss him.. how sad i am when i go home without him here.. how i am sorry i wasnt the best daughter... and all i can say is " baba ana hown"

we sense he can hear us.. he blinks when we talk to him and i feel inshala with all those prayers he will recover .. YA RAB....

Dad's in a Coma

let me say it again maybe this time it will sink in... Dad is in a coma... my dad? how ???? why can't i believe it? why can't i understand that this is happening..
we spend our whole lives planning and planning for things and then suddenly what we never expect happens and we sit there feeling shocked and helpless...

the day before he was fine.. making jokes.. eating.. laughing.. i rememeber thinking i have never seen him this happy... suddenly at night i hear mom telling my brother to call and ambulance.. it was like a nightmare only i was awake.. i go in the room to only see my dad in bed unable to move or speak.. his face was half paralyzed.. and that is teh image that has been haunting me.. to hear him moan with pain.. knowing he is trying to SAY something.. but CANT! the look in his eyes while the ambulance struggled to carry him away to the hospital...

everything was in slow motion.. still is in slow motion.. all i remember is those times i culd of spent with him and i chose to sit in my room or on the phone talking to someone else.. i think of all the talks we never had.. the things i couldnt say..

the funny thing is the first time i ever kissed his hand was when they were carrying him away to the ambulance... i try not to cry to be strong... but its so hard..

All i can do is pray... and the reason im bloggin now is because i want you ALL to pray for him.. please please.. i believe the more we pray the sooner he will get better..

LA hawla wala Quwata il Billah... Only GOd has the strength to make everything okay... Wa ina lila wa ina ilayh raji3oon... wa al hamdulilah.. Allah ysabirna wa ya2awmo bil salmeh ya RAB

ghirig talaaaaafooooni

ok i didnt have to time to illustrate the situation.... but again... i manage to drop my phone in a PUDDLE of WATER.... i usually have it in my lap when i sit in the car.. and well usually i drop it when i leave the car forgetting its IN MY LAP...

yesterday as i was going to see the wedding card ( very stressed out and ANGRY) cause they seem to hear my words in CHINESE!! anyway i leave the car and i hear...

PLOP... and i was like to myself " what was that?" hmmmm i decided to ignore the sound lol and as i was still about to walk away from the car i see something familiar.. only it was in a puddle of water(and 6eeneh) since it RAINED yesterday...

it was my poor (abused) phone... lol by the time my stressed out brain cells sent a brain mag for me to PICK IT UP.. it was already MSAGSAG :P

now again i lost my numbers... and wallahi i know i should have written them down i DID plan on doing that... il muhim.. conclusion is... i never learn from my mistakes.. and BARAKIZISH!!! :S

anyway watch this next video... NO COMMENT LOL the arab micheal jackson song!

hoookay hookay everysing hooooookay

wallahi i really hope they are joking.. to think they are singing SERIOUSLY! haha

Going Against the Tide

Did you ever get the feeling that you were stuck in a bottle drifting away with the waves.. tides taking you side to side till eventually you reach a waterfall and you you can see it.. and you know you are heading for a BIG FALL but you feel helpless.. the tide is too strong.. and you can't do much right now...

you know you can swim but you also can't reach the water.. stuck in a bottle...
you know you can scream for help.. but again the bottle is sound proof..
you know you don't belong here.. the tide is taking you in the opposite direction..

its just hard to go AGAINST THE TIDE... i feel both ways... u drown...

and when i say tide here i dont mean tide lil ghasseel :P or ariel.. :P

BowmA!!

many don't believe me when i tell them the weird stories and experiences i go through.. and today is just another STORY to share...

no i didn't swallow any dababees.. and no i didn't get lost in a desert with more cows but well i saw AN OWL!!! i kind of have the feeling owls don't usually hang out on office windows!!

you know when we were kids i remember my mom used to use the word " ya bowma" to express how someone is nikdeh... : liesh mbawma lol that was always confusing to me.. why the bowma tashbeeh... up until today.. where i met the BOWMA.. it all made sense... now i can worry abt the 100000 other questions in my mind lol

bowmas tend to look a bit depressed... i tried to make it smile.. to prove all those ppl wrong... but ja7aratni :P

i thought of keeping it as a pet but it looks like it had the bird flu... for it to come to an office window instead of a tree.. major sign lol

my life is full of surprises

Funny Video

one of the funniest videos i have seen in a while! mashala very talented :)
enjoy!!!

The COUNTDOWN Begin$

so... i havent been blogging i know.. but you know the countdown has started.. i still can't belive im getting married! it feels like yesterday i was blogging about finding " THE ONE lol now that he found me.. its just too much info that i need to sink in...

i mean its the first wedding i go to where im the "3arooosa".. truth is im not really stressed out YET.. but i just feel there is so much going on .. too much responsibilities.. decisions.. deadlines.. people involved..and i know i tend to forget a lot.. and at this time my memory is very CRITICAL :S forgetting now might cause irrepairable damage...

you know how ppl say.. its your night.. do what you want.. don't bother with people because people wont even remember this night.. and no matter what you do you cant please everyone... that is what i have been hearing and i TOTALLY AGREE....couldnt AGREE MORE......BUT... the reality of the matter is... its not just your night...
its FOR the people.. and there are EXPECTATIONS & there are lots of people who will interfere... lots of money will go to waste.. lots of arguments will arise... lots of unwanted advice..and so on... everyone means well... and they assume they know what you want.. or what is best for you.. not knowing u and them ARE soooo completely different & have different taste..

oh not forget to mention those calls or msgs i am getting from people i hardly remember or even know who say " oh am i invited?" & im like.. emm emmm (you know i7raaj kteer) so i go like.. yeah SURE... but in the back of my head im like.. WHO ARE YOU lol

I just hope i don't trip... & that everything works out because im this close to eating my COW!!!! :P

Anyway.. pls id3oooooooli ya nass.. i hope i dont reach that BRIDZILLA GODZILLA phase

Time Flie$

don't you sometimes sit in shock at how fast time passes you by!! I mean especially on those days when you come across a relative or friend you haven't seen in ages.. but somehow you remember their cute little baby boy who once threw up all over you & then u changed his diapers!! So you ask how is your kid? they laugh and say well he is right here in front of you... and u look up to see that he is now TALLER THAN U! i mean HOW HOW HOW?? its just WEIRD! now its like i have to wear hijab in front of him and well it seems like not soo long ago i was carrying him around singing him " 7adba7lak 7ammaaaam" :P

have u noticed how the songs we sing to kids are a tad bit disturbing & graphic! like for example " 7adba7lak 7ammam".. i will slaughter pigeons for you! lol

anyway.. back to my topic.. TIME.. they say time flys when u are having fun... and i think it might pass by faster when u NEED IT!!

conclusion is... we waste so much time in our lives and we are simply just getting old people!!! :P


Any hooooooooo :P here is a really funny link i came across today! a jordanian cartoonist ... CHECK IT OUT :) Omar Cartoons

I NeeD $leeP

i love sleeping.. i can take a nap at anytime! i love weekends because i get to sleep in the MORNING! Anyway... even on those days when u finally CAN sleep SOMEONE or SOMETHING wakes u up.. like the next door neighbors having a fight or the sound of someone drilling a wall somewhere! or maybe even the smell of someone smoking in the house.. you feel the smoke is going straight to your brain cells... ARGHH

you try and try to ignore all those annoying sounds & smells... and instead of them going away .. they get louder by the second..you realize there is no use... you are now awake.. and furious... sleepy but " raaaa7at il nowmeh" can't sleep anymore...

im sure many of you have shared this experience with me at one point in thier life...
or when you are in bed.. soo soo tired.. and just when u started to get comfortable in your warm bed..a very ANNOYING ALARM goes off!

You move from la la land to REALITY... U HAVE TO GO TO WAKE UP for WORK
"lugmet il 3aysh sa3bah yaboy"! You sometimes choose to break the alarm or ignore it and go back to bed... but usually doing that too often will get you fired eventually!

Sigh.. i guess this is life... :P bidi anaaaaaaM

Prayer$ An$wered

Yesterday my dad had an operation for the "disc" he has in his neck... AL HAMDULILAH he is okay now.. recovering from the operation.. got me thinking about life.. and how we alway get so caught up in life.. so caught up that we dont remember God as much as we should.. or we do remember God but yet have a lot of contradictions in our life... we might even bend or break a few rules to make them more "modern" or "socially acceptable"

till one day you really want something and you also know its ONLY in God's hands.. you have always known everything is in GOD's hands.. but in that moment you feel desperate and pray more and say things like " ill never do this again" or " God if you answer this one prayer i wont ask you anything again".. an so on..

maybe you meant what you said and deep inside you know you might NOT deserve to get your prayers answered because you have been too distracted & have so many sins in your life... but still you know GOD is forgiving.. and MERCIFUL.. so you pray because you know HE is always there no matter what happens...

ive had ppl say things like " ill tell my mom or bint il jeeran to pray for me because i havent prayed in years!! so i would feel bad if i prayed now just cause i need something".. that is not how it should be.. God asked us to pray ... and we all should :)
not only when we need something like a "job offer" or "3arees" lol

Allah KAREEEEM :)

186 و إذا سألك عبادي عني فإني قريب أجيب دعوة الداعِ إذا دعانِ فليستجيبوا لي وليؤمنوا بي لعلهم يرشدون " البقرة "

When My servants ask thee concerning Me, I am indeed close (to them): I listen to the prayer of every suppliant when he calleth on Me: Let them also, with a will, Listen to My call, and believe in Me: That they may walk in the right way.

Unfortunately the cycle repeats itself.. we all go through ups and downs and we don't always keep our end of the promise... out of weakness, laziness or temptation..

But i also know God created us and HE knows of our weaknesses and life is full of tests we all go through.

Prayers can sometimes make miracles happen :) Al hamdulilah for everything :)

so conclusion is..

" YOU GOT TO PRAY.. YOU GOT TO PRAY JUST TO MAKE IT TODAY" <-- said like a true MC HAMMER :P

Lion Hug

wow... when i saw this i was so touched.. after 6 years this lion still remembers the lady that rescued him... i never knew LIONS HUG!!!! awwwwwwwwwww *eyes tearing