Anyone still here?

This is a shout out to all my old bloggers and cyber visitors. i think almost all the bloggers i knew stopped blogging so i am just wondering if anyone still comes around. leave me a comment or hello :) it seems im the last one standing.. well actually sitting and blogging

Social Battery Critically LOW

 

So I don’t know if it’s age.. but recently my social battery has become extremely low. When someone cancels an outing I am overwhelmed with joy. I barely see people which is surprising because once upon a time I was a social butterfly. What has recently started to happen is the the outing starts out okay and then suddenly without warning i feel my battery is empty and that I need to leave immediately. It’s like when you are on your phone and it suddenly switches off. 

I find myself staring into space when people talk to me imagining myself in the hole i made in the couch. Social events are now exhausting and require a lot of charge. 

There are a very few people who don’t need a social battery who you can sit with in silence and don’t really need much effort and those are the people i will keep around. Okay maybe it’s just one person so far. 🤣 I’ll keep her. 

I am starting not to like people or peopling. Like little things get on my nerves. Is it premenopausal symptoms? Maybe ? Is it simply that there are so many weirdos out there? Il Muhim…

I believe I am now officially and introvert.

*dina sits in couch hole and stares into wall with exhaustion after today’s multiple social interactions 

The day 3athni Gerd ( got bitten by a monkey)

 So growing up I used to always hear the saying .. Gerrd ili yes7abek” which means may a monkey come and pull you away.. a very endearing term to express how much you wish the person infornt of you needs to be eliminated from the face of the earth.. I was lucky enough to have been wished to be pulled by a monkey many times in my life.. to whomever wished this upon me I want to abasherkom that your wishes have come true but the gerd didn’t yes7abni the monkey actually bit me!! 

How you may ask ??Are you really surprised? From someone who was previously bitten by a SQUIRREL 🐿️? And spit on by an ELephant ? Bit by a beautiful trigger 🐠 that isn’t meant to bite.. a monkey was not something unexpected in my life ..

No we were not in a jungle or in Thailand or in a monkey zone area.. we were actually walking in Goergia in a tourist site downtown. I saw some guy holding a monkey charging for photos and ofcourse what does Dina do?? Broth lal monkey!! 

Tab3an jeebli Hal gerd tashoof..

 I must say the monkey didn’t seem friendly the moment he jumped at me I knew mosh nawe 3ala khier.. ( he didn’t have good intentions ) my ba3li was on the phone it was Eid he was calling my mother in law saying كل عام و انتو بخير ( happy Eid )

Only to be interrupted with a loud.. AaaaaAaaaahhhh.. 

that call ended with “ معلش ماما دينا عضها قرد برجع بحكيكي

Sorry mama Dina was bitten by a monkey let me call you back

Words I never thought I would hear.. anyway so after I found out the the guy holding the monkey was from ikharaeel.. so basically hada not only evil monkey tele3 صهيوني! الله ياخده

So I decided to google how safe it was to be bitten by monkey and to my surprise the pic of most dangerous monkey bite was the zift that bit me. Had to take some injections and antibiotics .. wa hamdila 3ala salamti..

So moral of the story.. if you see a monkey and think of taking a photo .. think again.. here is the photo 🤣

My trip to Italy

 Soo I feel I have been blabbing so much about emotions let me tell you more about my recent adventures. So all my life I have heard about Italy and how amazing it is and that it is heaven on earth. This year I made sure to apply for visa and guess meen ra7 i6aly???? 

Ana Ana Ana * Dinos does weird dance *people give weird looks 

So in conclusion yes helwe jiddan and nature is amazing we went to Milan Rome Florence Dolomites Tuscany and Positano. Tab3an going to all those places requires a lot of train rides and moving with 4 large luggages was not easy. 

I was warned about 7arameye so I got this special anti theft bag that even I had a hard time opening. Ghier hayk everyday pasta and pizza I started missing maglooba wara2 3inab kabse 🤣 I can’t complaint about the daily gelato. 

Ibsar liesh samnaneh after Italy🤣

We took a cooking class on how to make pasta so I won’t be buying pasta anymore.. BAs balash

Positano was my favoritre it’s like Amman how houses are on a hill only with coloured houses and beautiful water and cloud and also not exactly like Amman 🤣 what shocked me is the amount of stairs I had to go up in Positano 😓 68 floors in one day

I did find bagar and I took selfies with Bagar which in fact was one of the highlights of my trip. 

I will leave you with some photos from my trip. 

No coincidences

 

So again I’m sleepless and my thoughts are like 100 open screen windows that I soon will cause a system crash. I find myself everyday wondering if I am making the right choices and I wish my life came with a manual zay il Khalat. I’m pretty sure I’m messing up in so many ways and I wish there was like a factory reset or clear history button on my forehead. 

Sadly I am stuck with my thoughts and my unresolved feelings  and unanswered questions with kowmet “ what if scenarios “ and many who hear about my life stories suggest I turn it into a book or a Netflix series. Akeed it will be PG family friendly because Ana shareefeh 🤣

So one of my milyoon thought was why why why do some people come into our lives if they aren’t meant to stay and I know the answer. It’s because that experience you shared with these people gave you a lesson or shaped your personality to who you are today. Tayeb fahmeh.. but why why why even after knowing this valuable information are we unable to just forget. Why do we relive moments in our head? Dina raises hand says “teacher teacher” because she knows the answer 

The reason you miss or obsess over anyone is because grass always looks greener on the other side. It’s because with distance you paint your memories with such beautiful colors and live in lalaland instead of reality. It has nothing to do with the person but with the way they made you feel at the time. 

Soo find out what is it you long to feel and need and once you fill that space no one will be able to trigger you or cause you insomnia.

Mainly we need to know that whatever we are searching for or think we need from someone is something we can give to ourselves and that the only person who will be with you for the rest of your life is YOU.

There is no such thing as a coincidence we are all in a path Allah has planned for us. Things happen for a reason and may we have the wisdom to always understand those reasons and be assured things are just the way they should be. 

Blast from the past

Ok.. just blogging my thoughts since I haven’t in a long time. So in our life we meet so many people that have a great impact on our life and sometimes we love them so deeply yet they weren’t meant to stay in your life. They might cross your mind a lot and you know that a part of you will always be with them as they were once your whole world. You moved on and know that that friendship you thought would be forever turned out to be a lesson. That the person who imagined will always be in your future now will always be a part of your past.

 And no matter how many years past if you bump into them unexpectedly you will feel a rush of adrenaline and you might even be speechless or trip going up the stairs or feel your body is trembling with anxiety . You start to wonder why on earth am I reacting this way when I was totally fine and have moved on. You will have an urge to reach out and that will surely be a bad idea. 

 So after discussing this with chat gpt it turns out that our body holds on to memories and emotions like heartbreak and anxiety and meeting that person can reactivate these feelings. Your body recognizes this person from your past as someone who is a source of intense emotions and kind of goes on alert mode. So if you ever run into someone from your past or an old best friend you no longer are in contact with remember whatever you feel has nothing to do with this person as much as it has to do with you and how they made you feel once upon a time. Maybe a part of you misses who you were at the time you knew them and you felt nostalgic. Maybe there was unresolved feelings or you unanswered questions to why certain things happened and you never got closure. Maybe they added something to your life that you lack now. Lots of maybes..

 Sometimes our conscious feelings don’t match our subconscious feelings and that was very surprising to me.

So if you bump into someone from your past and your nervous system goes insane remember this is a normal reaction and don’t read too much into your reaction and have a long talk with chat gpt and you will be okay. 

Meen Kbeer?!

 Sooo who turned 34 ? Ok ok you can flip the numbers I know I’m getting old..*sighs *stretches *neck and back have unexpected spasms 😳 the simplest moves and falls can cause major consequences when you get older😣 

So almost a year ago I decided to be a dare devil and try one of those rental scooters on the beach. Even though I was on turtle mode when I fell off I had a concussion many hallucinations and made an Indian song and hurt my shoulder which eventually needed surgery and almost a year later it’s still not better . Hamdila 3ala Salamtee🤣

So I learnt that الكبر عبر.. to no longer attempt to do anything remotely adventurous. I also feel every year I grow the less people I have in my life. I am choosing to be with Dandoona most of time and very few who are my true close friends because I’m so done with small talk and I really value my time . I would rather sit at home in the hole my bumbum has created in our couch ( which is very very deep that soon I’ll reach the floor). So I’d rather sit in my favourite hole doing nothing instead of going out with people who don’t really give a flying buraz about me. 

I appreciate deep talks and being with people who don’t require so much energy. Who you can sit with sometimes without even saying a word yet feel you had the best conversation in your life! I am steering away from energy suckers because I barely have enough energy to get off this couch! Ir7amooni

So most of the time I’m on save energy mode or invisible mode. And I feel my life is more peaceful and I deal with less drama. 

Being older means you can’t just eat like you did before. Not only do you gain weight بسرعة البرق (In the speed of lightening ) you also might feel contractions from that extra thowme shwerma child in your tummy.

So basically I’m getting older . More impatient. Little bit wiser and definitely if I don’t fix my diet soon I’ll be much fatter very soon and I don’t like most people..