Wednesday, September 27, 2006

GUe$$ Who Got A JoB?!

yes yes yes... its MOI!
*dino$ takes a bow*
i think its abt time now to start workign again... al hamduliALLAH its amazing how we keep planning things in life and then God has something else planned for us.... i got a call from an old friend from uni who said they need a graphic designer and she suggested me * shy* sub7anallah i went and everything was great the environment is amazing... its closer to home.. less working hours.. i feel truely blessed!! not only that but i found out that another good friend of mine works in the company! sub7annALLAH!

Hamduililah i think its because of Ramadan prayers!! so i start in 3 days officially! Wish me Luck!

Saturday, September 23, 2006

R@mAD@n MuB@raK!

RAMADAN is HERE!! sub7annAllah.. how fast days go by! i love Ramadan!! i love how ur phone doesnt stop ringing with calls and msgs from ppl who sometimes rememeber u ONCE every year! lol i wont complain cause i do the same..

i love how the masajid are full!! i love how people suddenly are nicer and invite each other over and suddenly become sweeter! And ofcourse i love the yummy food!!! There is an indescribable feeling of spirtuality in the air.. something not tangible or seen... its felt... especially around fajr... or at tarawee7 prayers...

I LOVE RAMADAN! SO GLAD IT IS HERE! just wish we all would realize how truely precious these days are rather than spending them watching tv shows and thinking mainly abt food and late night gatherings...

Who knows this could be your LAST Ramadan.... lets all make the best of this HOLY MONTH...

RAmadAn Mobarak... i was told that if u have any prayers you want answered... pray them every night in ramadan when you break your fast and inshala b4 next RAmadan they will be ANSWERED :)

i wrote a list already ... u do the same! MAy GOd bless you all and answer all your prayers...

Wednesday, September 20, 2006


ive been told that im older than my age.. that mabe my experiences in life have made me more mature than most people my age.. dont know if that is a good thing... ive also been told that i could be too nice and trusting that gives out the impression that im "childish" or " immature" lol hmmm make up ur mind people?! well i know what i am.. i am mature enough to sit there with a 40/50/ 60 year with no problem having a deep meaningful conversation ... childish enough to spend hours playing with kids and makign all sorts of goofy noises ...

what does maturity mean? it only means that u are now acting MORE aware of how crappy life is!! After that realization of the abundance of deception,cruelty,backstabbing,selfishness, immorality,destruction
,fakeness,poverty,jealousy,greed.. etc.. its hard to be gullible,trusting,positive,and all those braidy bunch & legally blonde feelings!

YOu realize how stupid you were thinking life was simple... a nice bed time story no longer makes the "monsters" go away... a chocolate bar doesnt heal or fix what the years have broken...a good friend could also end up being a GREAT enemy... Happiness is no longer based on watching cartoons like " 3adnan o lina" "peter pan" " snow white" "grandizer" etc... didn we get bored as kids watching the same episodes over an over again?!

is it part of growing up that we get sick of things easily?! Why are we so hard to please now?! Why is it the older we get the more we feel the old days were much better!? I worry abt my future and how the next generation will be!!

i always said i would never change no matter what experiences i go through but even ROCKS are worn out by the continuous water flow.. i have changed... not in a bad way though.. im more aware of things now...

yet i know I ROCK!! ... but :P still i think we all change in the cycle of life... i hope i did to the better.. i just hope i never forget how to have fun and appreciate the simple things in life...
cause that would simply be DEPRESSING! *sigh*

p.s. the cow in the pic was my key chain... sadly i lost it.. nothing but this pic to remind me of my cute cow...

also attached is a jey chain that says " i smile because i have no idea what is going on" <-- sooo meeeeee :P

* eyes tearing.. hugs knees... rocks herself in dark corner lol

Saturday, September 16, 2006

Going B@ck

After 3 whole months of jordan adventure$... its time to go back to uae... have u ever felt schizophrenic? like you don't know what you want? like you want to be in two places in the same time?! Do two total opposite things ? its like " to work or not to work" jordan/uae" all sorts of life changing decisions i always have to make.. and i just feel indifferent to everything... that id be okay no matter what happens.. i do have goals but i also adapt to changes quickly.. :S

Anyway... i have a confession to make... one of my phobias are planes... ok i dont have any tantrums and never run around a plane screaming scenes from "final destination" like " WE ARE ALLL GONNA DIE!!!" but seriously i hate the idea of being up so high.. life depending on pressure and an engine...

i also recently saw the movie " SNAKES ON A PLANE".. not a good movie to watch when u want to travel !!!!

i remember once we were on a plane to jordan and there was major turbulence... the pilot said " ma tkhafo hay matabat hawa2iyeh"... till that day i never knew there were MATABAT in the sky! lol translation for this is kind of weird.. apparently there are road bumps in the sky :P

its not only the fear of flights.. its the fear of ending up next to a freak of nature or someone sleezy etc.....

once i was next to a man who decides to start drinking wine... in islam we are not supposed to even sit in a room where somene is drinking... so it felt weird... now i was thinking to myself... should i JUMP OFF THE PLANE?

anyway gotta finsih packing.. gonna miss jordan... mostly my family here :(--- ill blog from uae inshala later with flight adventures..

Sunday, September 10, 2006

Love i$ Blind vs. Blind to Love

ok warning im sensing a cheesy post coming up so if u cant take my cheesiness i suggest u move on to another blog :P we all have heard the saying that "love is blind"..i will not argue with that at all for i have seen my share of people blinded by love... IVE SEEN :

*the hottest girls falling for shrek lookalikes ( viseversa) they see them gorgeous ofcourse..

( no i dont believe love that is based merely on looks im just stating facts ) shrek was a good movie too :) it just shows when u love a person no matter how ugly he might be u will see beyond his smelly fart breath, broken teeth,big hairy belly and green skin :D

*decent girls falling for players...

*religious guys falling for lets just say not so decent girls... in both cases those good ppl see thier partners as angels :s

*a very well educated guy fallin for a girl with the IQ of a GOLDFISH....

its sad but true.. love IS blind...

A mother loves her children soo much that no matter what they do they are seen as the best kids in the world... they are flawless in their eyes.. i recall in a wedding an anti came up to me and was tryin to hook me up with her son.. she points at him and says to me.. IBNI SUPERMAN! lol i doubt her son is superman but she surely did seem SURE of it :P

anyway.... no to my cheesy theory hehe.. ok so i guess we all agree that love is blind wa God help those who fall in love ! but recently ive realized that we can also be
Blind to LOVE ..

*violion and piano romantic background music is now playing in the background

Love is not just like the movies... someone singing to u at your window...
writing you poetry.. holding hands...walks on the beach...
showering u with gifts and roses
drawing your portrait.. giving you flowers..
laughing at each others jokes even when they are silly...
giving you thier jacket when u are cold...
saying u look beautiful even when u feel u look like uve been hit by a bus/tornando/tsunami... cooking a candle-lit dinner for u... watchin the sunset..
ok im gettin carried away lol so m sure by now... u GOT the picture

That hardly lasts even in the best love stories.. and ITS NATURAL.. ITS LIFE...
Love is when you stay up all night worried abt your husband praying that he will be okay..
its crying to see him in pain..
its running down the stair hysterically when you find out he is out of the operation room...
its turning the garage light on so that ur wife can park the car at night...
its going around the supermarket looking for the "jibneh" or " labaneh" she likes!
its throwing a flying " shib shib"(slipper) at ur son for disrespecting her lol
side note * if u are ever hit by a flying shoe/shib shib/object....
u MUST feel the LOVE !! lol

i have to admit ppl express love in the weirdest ways... and its not always poetry... we have to learn how to see beyond the
" yi2ta3 il yom il itjawaztak feeeh" talk lol <- " i curse the day i married u"
i learnt that people who act like they cant stand each other or at least claim they cant stand to be around each other are actually inseperable and in love in a different more realistic and discrete type of way...
They cant live with or without each other :) that is true love :P hehe
conclusion... will i marry the next guy who gets me my favorite "labaneh"? hmmm maybe not.. but if its chocolate ill consider :P hehehehe
confession:i still am a sappy romantic :P yet the picture of love in my mind has changed a bit

p.s. my dad is much much better.. back on his feet and yelling at the top of his lungs at me again :) never thought i would be soo happy to hear him yell at me :P not sure ill be this happy a week from now lol thanks for the emotional support
i have learnt soo many valuable lessons this summer... will share in the next post :) ta ta