So... i sometimes say things without thinking.. or say things then think " OMG WHAT DID I JUST SAY!" im not talkin abt gossip here... although i admit i am guilty of sometimes being drawn to the gossip talk... im a woman and its in my genes... unlike men woman have the need to express their emotions...
So there is normal average woman who express themselves and then there is ME!! lol
I on the other hand can't keep my feelings to myself.. i feel like id explode!!
whether they are negative or positive.. i blurt them out... whether its a sillythought or somethng meaningful... i HAVE TO GET IT OUT! or my skin will start to itch and ill go into multiple siezures! hehe
it sometimes those feelings are temporary feelings and are just caused by a certain event and fade away and are best left inside... but no.. me being me... i have to always say what is on my mind... what i feel... then i suffer the consequences... and i say.. i will learn.. but i can't change th way i am.. i just have to find some sort of zipper for my mouth!
And when im nervous its even worse!! i start saying 10000000000 words per second... i jump into 1000 topics that are totally UNRELATED to each other... id start talking abt the weirdest things! like once i met ppl for the first time and i shared how when i was in kg2 i wet my pants and was sent home... HOW I BROUGHT THAT UP in the first 5mins??? I DONT KNOW! Were they impressed? hmm more like STUNNED, SHOCKED REVOLTED and that piece of info i should of been kept to myself... hmmmm why do i feel i just did it again? sharing my embarrasing stories across continents lol
SOMEBODY STOP ME!!!!