Wednesday, September 20, 2006

M@turity?


ive been told that im older than my age.. that mabe my experiences in life have made me more mature than most people my age.. dont know if that is a good thing... ive also been told that i could be too nice and trusting that gives out the impression that im "childish" or " immature" lol hmmm make up ur mind people?! well i know what i am.. i am mature enough to sit there with a 40/50/ 60 year with no problem having a deep meaningful conversation ... childish enough to spend hours playing with kids and makign all sorts of goofy noises ...

what does maturity mean? it only means that u are now acting MORE aware of how crappy life is!! After that realization of the abundance of deception,cruelty,backstabbing,selfishness, immorality,destruction
,fakeness,poverty,jealousy,greed.. etc.. its hard to be gullible,trusting,positive,and all those braidy bunch & legally blonde feelings!

YOu realize how stupid you were thinking life was simple... a nice bed time story no longer makes the "monsters" go away... a chocolate bar doesnt heal or fix what the years have broken...a good friend could also end up being a GREAT enemy... Happiness is no longer based on watching cartoons like " 3adnan o lina" "peter pan" " snow white" "grandizer" etc... didn we get bored as kids watching the same episodes over an over again?!

is it part of growing up that we get sick of things easily?! Why are we so hard to please now?! Why is it the older we get the more we feel the old days were much better!? I worry abt my future and how the next generation will be!!

i always said i would never change no matter what experiences i go through but even ROCKS are worn out by the continuous water flow.. i have changed... not in a bad way though.. im more aware of things now...

yet i know I ROCK!! ... but :P still i think we all change in the cycle of life... i hope i did to the better.. i just hope i never forget how to have fun and appreciate the simple things in life...
cause that would simply be DEPRESSING! *sigh*

p.s. the cow in the pic was my key chain... sadly i lost it.. nothing but this pic to remind me of my cute cow...

also attached is a jey chain that says " i smile because i have no idea what is going on" <-- sooo meeeeee :P

* eyes tearing.. hugs knees... rocks herself in dark corner lol

3 comments:

SK said...

Oh man...you lost the little cow? I am heading out to look for him right now..!!

Here cow cow cow...here cow cow cow...!!!

Islamic ChoCoHoLic said...

guess what i got a new one!!! same exact one.. yet new :D

i will take a pic of my cow slippers! i will also send u the pic i took with a REAL cow in jordan!!

mwa mwa ur the most loyal commenter here

21stCenturyShea said...

Condolences about the old cow. Hope the new cow proves just as reassuring.