let me say it again maybe this time it will sink in... Dad is in a coma... my dad? how ???? why can't i believe it? why can't i understand that this is happening..
we spend our whole lives planning and planning for things and then suddenly what we never expect happens and we sit there feeling shocked and helpless...
the day before he was fine.. making jokes.. eating.. laughing.. i rememeber thinking i have never seen him this happy... suddenly at night i hear mom telling my brother to call and ambulance.. it was like a nightmare only i was awake.. i go in the room to only see my dad in bed unable to move or speak.. his face was half paralyzed.. and that is teh image that has been haunting me.. to hear him moan with pain.. knowing he is trying to SAY something.. but CANT! the look in his eyes while the ambulance struggled to carry him away to the hospital...
everything was in slow motion.. still is in slow motion.. all i remember is those times i culd of spent with him and i chose to sit in my room or on the phone talking to someone else.. i think of all the talks we never had.. the things i couldnt say..
the funny thing is the first time i ever kissed his hand was when they were carrying him away to the ambulance... i try not to cry to be strong... but its so hard..
All i can do is pray... and the reason im bloggin now is because i want you ALL to pray for him.. please please.. i believe the more we pray the sooner he will get better..
LA hawla wala Quwata il Billah... Only GOd has the strength to make everything okay... Wa ina lila wa ina ilayh raji3oon... wa al hamdulilah.. Allah ysabirna wa ya2awmo bil salmeh ya RAB