Monday, May 29, 2006

Why?


Why is it soo hard to express my feelings toward my family and parents when they should be the closest to me? I find no problem hugging total strangers but i cant even imagine huggin my dad... its like a mission...

im a very emotional person.. try not to be dramatic.. but i guess my sensitivity sometimes causes me a bit of a heartache... i worry too much abt the world and the ppl i know... and i feel guilty most of the time for things i shouldnt feel guilty about...

the other day my mom said somethin that freaked me out.. she said she is 57! and that my dad is 65!! i never saw my parents as old or getting old... i always see them as young and i guess in my head they both stopped at the age 40!!

May GOd bless them with long lives... its just soo creepy... and i soon ill be 60 and thinking .. omg... im shixshty yearsh old.. *cough cough....

sigh.... i worry too much... abt everything... wish i knew what the future holds for me... im jsuts too impatient and worried abt my future.... *sigh especially that now is the pasts future :S creepy thought

3 comments:

sk said...

Ok Mudassar, dont be a baby. Come back and write something.

sk said...

Miss you Dino. How did i go from 40c to 15C..? I think i need to go get a sweater, i am freezing..!

mudassar said...

assallamu allaikum everyone. how r u dino and sk.. been busy with office work. so how is life. and how r things around