Monday, February 27, 2006
So... time for more of my psychological problems.. hmm what should i talk abt tonite ? i wonder... lets see.. what is the subject that is brought up every SINGLE DAY? hmmm did u guess? YES MARRAIGE!! Everyday someone has to mention the M word!!
Well i understand that well eventually most people get married..and that its the way life is... ur a kid.... u GROW up.. u realize ur not a kid anymore..ppl realize ur not a kid anymore... they begin to NAG NAG NAG!!!
so u decide its time to get ur own kids... soo hmmm ok fine GET MARRIED! ehe its not like a button u press... or a decision u can easily make JUST LIKE THAT?!...
so ppl ask " WHY ARENT U MARRIED YET?" is ther a right answer to that? hmmm u could say
"welll... hmmm why get married and raise a family when u can raise cows and sheep instead.. at least U milk the cows!" (sarcasm)
Well... im not against marraige ofcourse... but i hate the continous nagging and obssession abt it... i mean why the rush??
Don't know why i thought that by the time i feel im READY.. suddenly the RiGHt man would appear at my doorstep on a white horse! Well... too much TV for me...
I feel if someone who could potentially be my future husband comes along .. there always a major FLAW or lets say OBstacle... makes it impossible to consider.....
Lets seee.. Too short....Too serious.. Too Open-Minded...Too Controlling...Too Clingy or Emotionally Unavailable...Too immature.. Too Broke....Too Boring... i can go on forerver.... sigh.. no im not picky... but there is ALWAYS something wrong..
im not perfect.. ( although i know you all beg to differ ) lol heh YES I KNOW NO ONE is perfect... but i know someone out there is perfect for me... and when i meet that someone ill know if he is THE ONE... and then i probably wouldnt freak out about commitement ...
i hate the feeling of being responsible for a family... little helpless kids who depend on you for everything ... everything includes diaper changing!!! ew
i hate feelin tied down or controlled.. For some reason i feel marriage is somewhat a way of sacrifcing all ur time,efforts,plans...etc UR LIFE is no longer urs.. heh
ur life becomes ur family... ur time is thier right... ur life revolves around them.. and thier lives revolves around u... Its not a temporary decision u make and quit like a job u feel didnt go as u imagined...
MARRAIGE IS IT! it is THE Beginning OF THE END!! heh see it is FOR LIFE...FOREVER.. THE REST OF UR LIFE with someone... WAKe up to them everyday... EVERYDAY....SAT SUN MON TUES WED THURS FRI ....Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeek!! i get bored easily!! i need my time ALONE! i hate routines! i hate too much REsPonsibilties!
*gets asthma attack
Im not sure im ready...sometimes i feel i am... but i wish ppl would stop NAGGING!!
i shall raise COWS & SHEEP!!
oh how I love cows! is it allowed to have a Cow as a PET ?