I never used to worry this much before... i think the older you get the more your responsibilities the more your worries, your fears. I remember the many things i used to wonder about before i got married. The many questions i know have the answers to while i have more questions arising every single day..
All my life i have been asking questions...
Will i pass this course? Will i graduate? Will i ever get married? Will i ever meet "the One"? Where will i meet il HIM!? Will i get the Job?!
Then i did get married and then i thought Will i be a good wife? Will i learn how to cook? Will i ever be a MOM?
then lulu arrived and now im thinking Am i good mom? Will i be able to raise her to grow up with no psychological problems! Will she grow up to be my best friend?
Now im thinking inshala if i ever do get more children.. will i ever be able to Manage??
I feel all those questions we ask.. eventually we do get our answers and things do work out for the best. And when things dont go as planned and we are disappointed. we get over it eventually. so i decided from today.. i will stop worrying. stop wondering. and awakal 3ala Allah. ( rely on Allah) He knows what is best and there is no use in worrying about things before they happen. No use in worrying about things that i can't change. Just Pray that God will bring what is best for all and accept that even the bad that happens is part of Gods plan for us.